Im laying in bed, so sick. My mother, who was extremely abusive for the last 44 years, is in the hospital dying. Ive been estranged from her for over a year. I was really healing. But between guilt, racing thoughts and my immunity crashing, I feel so low. Lovely lightworkers can I ask you a favor. Can you please send me some of your healing energy to both myself and my mom. I so appreciate it. Thank you. 💖🙏
So I'm currently reading a book ( a fantastic book so far, "The Magick of Reiki" by Christopher Penczack) and he talks about how when one first begins learning level 1 reiki, they often get their first Attunement from their reiki teacher to strengthen their connection with reiki.
But they say that reiki can be different for everyone and it can be self taught, but am I actually doing reiki if I don't first get that introduction/open that energy flow with a more experienced practicer?
Now of course getting an Attunement would be ideal, but reiki classes can be around 300$ ( at least in my area, I haven't found anything less than that for a level one certification) And it's on my list to get reiki certified, but at the moment it's hard to find both the time and the money. Does that mean I have to wait in order to practice on myself "correctly"? I don't mean to sound cheap, I agree that reiki classes and sessions deserve to be paid for, but I've been extremely interested in reiki and I want to delve in but I want to do it the right way.
Ten years ago I bought some black tourmaline rocks. I bought a shamanism book that came with a relation CD. At night before sleeping I went into a trance and did a spirit quest to recapture my soul energy lost through past trauma. I went back to each memory of trauma and had my spirit animal take back that shard of my soul energy that was lost because of that trauma. After I did that for a while I came out of the trance and went to sleep.
The next morning I woke up and went back into a trance. As I was in the trance I noticed a force sitting on my chest. I took this as a force of oppression. I started saying to myself over and over "I won't be oppressed by you anymore." As I did this I had the black tourmaline rocks in my bed. All of the sudden I felt a force of energy come into my body through the bottom of my feet and it went up into my entire body. All I can describe it as is being similar to being electrocuted, but without the pain.
This experience scared me so much that I threw away all that stuff. Around that time I had gotten tinnitus after hurting my neck while sleeping. It was so loud it was driving me crazy. Around two weeks later I found out what it was, thankfully. The entire experience messed me up. It took me years to get my tinnitus down. I still lay on the ground and do yoga type breathing every few hours. I never get sick anymore. All I can say is I think the shamanism stuff I did worked. It seems that I really did restore that lost soul energy, but I think I got more than I bargained for. It seems that energy was tainted with the past trauma and has taken a lot of years to recycle into more positive essence. Is this what happened? Any opinions on this other than you think I'm crazy?
i have been giving myself, my partner, and my pets reiki everyday since. However I never “see” any energies. I’m curious, are there any tips on developing more of a visual relationship with energy? I’ve always just been a feeler.