I am concerned that my father has schizo-typical personality disorder or schizophrenia. He has these weird religious beliefs that God LITERALLY speaks to him via dreams, he thinks he has the power to curse people to die with words, he can't watch a horror film without going to sleep and literally dreaming that some kind of demon is trying to harm him supernaturally, he believes in the tales of fortune tellers - such as that he has an ancient Egyptian spirit or soul- he has incredible paranoia over the intentions of people who talk to him, he has no friends because of this paranoia, he is easily made angry and threatens people with violence, he is going through a divorce and he argues that he never was abusive to his wife or to his kids (when he was both physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive) and he makes himself a victim of his own bad behavior. If his wife condemns him in court, he acts surprised and insists that his abusive behavior was "all for the good" of his wife and kids. He has the ability to behave like a confused victim when he has to, but when no one outside his family is around him, he then behaves aggressively. As far as I can remember, he has always had anger problems and my mother tells me that he has had anger problems. He has a keen memory for events that were harmful TO HIM, such as when his brothers insulted his house, but he can't remember ever hitting me with his fists on my head as a kindergartner. He constantly goes back to times when his brothers did this and that to him (insult him usually) like it happened yesterday...
Honestly, I truly believe that there is something wrong with him and it could be genetic. His biological father was also physically abusive to his mother and this caused his parents to divorce and his mother was also hyper religious. He also claims to have been the victim of child abuse, with his sister hitting him on the head with her knuckles and threatening to hang him if he misbehaves... So if it is not genetic then it could be environmental, but whatever the case is, he has real problems and he can't see that his behavior is a problem.
What do you think his illness is?
P.S. I once asked him if he thinks that there is nothing wrong with him and I told him about how he thinks that God literally speaks to him in dreams and he quickly responded that "God hasn't spoken to me in a dream in years!" as if that makes it any better. He has a poor grip with reality, but I know he will refuse help.
I used to be really smart and I think I still am but as my depression got worse so did my motivation to do anything. I know I need to do well in my a-levels but I don’t really care at all. It doesn’t matter to me at all even thought it should. No one seems to understand when I say this and they just think I’m being lazy, how do I tell them my main problem right now is jsut staying alive?
I am a 25F and I feel 50 because of my depression and chronic back pain. I go to therapy I take a cocktail of medication I try to eat well and exercise but there are days when I’m just tired of trying to be well.
I want to wake up and not have my back crunch with every move I make. I don’t want to freak out at work because I was triggered by something someone said. I try so hard and I’ll never be normal. I look at my cabinet full of pills and wonder what went wrong. In reality nothing is inherently wrong but it feels that way. Something is wrong with me and despite all I do I can’t be fixed.
So I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and have been going through the steps to have fertility treatment. In April I saw a fertility expert and I was completely unprepared for my mental illness to be bought into it.
My treatment plan at the moment is first of all to have my husbands sperm checked, we've given a sample for that a few weeks ago, they said if the sperm is bad it's straight to IVF, if the sperm is good we go down the next path.. laparoscopy to see if my tubes are blocked, if tubes are not blocked then I will try medications to try and force my body into ovulating because I lack the hormone needed to ovulate naturally.
BUT none of this can happen until the mental health services clear me for the treatment. I had no idea that was a thing, anyone else? For starters I was discharged from the mental health services and instead see a private therapist, secondly, they barely know anything about me anyway so how do they get a say? Anyone else been through this? How long will it take for them to say if I can have the treatment or not? I don't want to wait much longer because it's been a year now. Thanks for any advice.
In case it is relevant I'm in the UK so it's the NHS I'm dealing with.