The first time I "suffered" of an eating disorder was when I was 14. It was nothing really serious and I recovered without having to seek external help, but it happened again the next year. Both times I completely recovered on the "eating" side, but I've always hated my body. Last year during a stressful period I stopped eating again, but this time the ED was quite severe and quickly developed into bulimia. It took me a while to recover but I did it and now I should be fine, but I can't stop feeling like it's still not over and it will happen again. Last december I was about to relapse, luckily my parents noticed it in time and got me help, but now I don't live with them anymore and I'm scared it will happen when I'm not with them. I'm still obsessed with being thinner than my friends, with eating less than them and looking like someone that has control over food. I'm not underweight right now but I wish I was. I wish I was thinner and this is a problem.
I just wanted to know if it's normal to feel like I'm always about to relapse even if recovered and if the feeling ever goes away. I don't wanna live like this.
I’ve been anorexic and bulimic for years now. I’m 21 and I remember purging since I was about 8 and would hide it from my friends and family I went to severe lengths to do anything and everything to make sure they never knew or would just think I’m carsick or something. I’m able to pretend loving to eat and being full but it makes me feel so so disgusting. From ages 8-15 I didn't gain much weight at all. After that when I finally made it over 100 pounds I lost myself. Not to mention my parents kicked me out of my home for being transgender the same year. I was homeless and had to drop out of college and am stuck with severe debt. I moved into a college house and since I had no money it was easy to starve and not really do anything about it since I kept to myself. I started working, and I would walk 3 miles to my job and 3 miles home 7 days a week I started drinking and smoking weed. I used to wake up in the morning and take shots. I spent almost 200$ a week or even more on weed instead of food. I barely made rent. I cut myself all the time for pleasure. At this point I started dating my current partner who was unaware I had these problems and they just found out in the past few months. I lied to them about eating today and got caught, I gaslighted them by saying “didn’t you hear me say I was going to go eat? I had a peanut butter and jelly” and they saw that the seal of the peanut butter was still closed. They are super upset with me and I can’t deal with my life being like this anymore My head always hurts my body so weak, even when I haven’t eaten in days I still puke mucus and bile or sometimes(most of the time honestly) I dry heave for 5-10mins every hour or 2 I stopped with my drinking and smoking about a month ago but now my head is clear I’m in even more dismay. I know I was hurting myself with drugs but they helped me not feel like shit. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to help myself I get suicidal for wanting to eat for to get better. Ive taken to snapping rubber bands on my arm instead of cutting but it doesn’t help. I feel like I’m constantly making the problem worse every day with my self destructive behaviors
My s/o has been dealing with ED (bulimia / anxiety-nervosa) for most of her 20's. We are both in our late 20's now.
She is my best friend. There is no other like her.
At the same time, I don't know if I can be her rock. We moved into a nicer/larger flat about half a year ago which has caused a bit of financial stress on my half, but it's not a major problem. My issue is I feel like I'm always walking on egg-shells with the ED she tries to hide from me (I'm not upset that she hides it, just more curious why she feels ashamed). Sometimes I feel like she flips a switch and is entirely unhappy in life, and now I'm questioning my sanity of whether this relationship is a good idea or not. My own generalized anxiety is low level, but it's been on the rise the past few months.
I don't know where to draw the line between prioritizing myself, or prioritizing us. I suspect I'm the type that will always jump at the chance for self-sacrifice, but not sure if this is a good idea long term. I want to be with her, and I hope it's just that I need someone to talk to as I have no positive support network to discuss these things.
I just want the two of us to be happy, but I don't know if I'm going about this the right way. I feel extremely guilty for thinking I could help with her problems, as she did divulge her condition to me early on in our relationship. Just very uncertain.
My friend contacted me today about something she went through in class. They were weighing people in her lab class. She wasn't comfortable, some of the students started laughing at her. Her teacher made her stay after and use the scale. I don't want to go into to much detail for the sake of my friend's privacy.
I just don't know how to help her. I don't know a lot about this. I've had a running with depression and anxiety so I know how to help with that but this is different.
I have compulsive overeating/ binging issues and I notice that there are OA meetings locally. I am interested in checking it out, but I have some concerns.
Are they legitimate and use real science and psychology to help people who overeat? I know they are a religious organisation, and I don't want to enter anything overtly cult-like or too focused on religion as the basis of coping.
If anyone has any success or stories about their experiences at these meetings, I'd like to know. I want to know what kind of things they do and talk about during the meetings, if there's 'homework' etc...
This is one of the things I'm struggling with most during recovery, despite having read Tabitha Farrar's posts on the topic. How does your weight normalise again? Women, how and when did weight redistribute and return to your breasts, and leave the tummy? I know that it happens eventually, but I'm still afraid of it!
So um I've been having difficulties with eating for about a year or so... I'm now just only eating one meal a day give or take and in the past I've gone for the most 2 days without food. I want to get better and in the habit of eating again in a healthy manner but... I'm just at that point where I don't like food and just don't feel ok with having it in me, I just feel guilty about it... Is there a way to change my thinking? Like to view it as a positive thing more than a negative? I don't know... Any help would be much appreciated
She's been struggling for 8-9 years with these eating disorders and obviously its quite dangerous but what really gets to her is the binge eating sessions where she stuffs herself with a lot of different foods including candy and junk until the point where she gets so sick to her stomach.. even worse she gets very depressed and down and self-destructive.. I don't live in the same country so I'm not around her most of the time and is on her own quite a lot.. When she's not binging she is eating pretty okay but is still restrictive with her foods (she's a vegan) and underweight..
I want to help her somehow but i know its really up to her.. she's traumatized from the last place she went to treat her eating disorder but we're going to a dietician and psychiatrist in a few weeks.. I really hope she can get better some day but it feels hopeless at times.. and although its good that she eats, those binges mess her up pretty bad... she should eat more than she has in the past but binges are not the way to do it ultimately... What to do about her situation?
I'm currently 24f, and my eating habits have been fine for the last several years, but recently I've started relapsing. I feel like a lot of my life is out of control at this time, but at least I can make myself thin. I've been skipping meals and limiting my food intake and I've lost weight faster than is healthy, and I can't stop thinking about weighing myself and trying to make the number lower - I don't own a scale, but my roommate has one and I can't seem to stop myself from using it. I just ordered my favourite food because I want to be healthy and I've eaten very little today, but I'm afraid I won't be able to eat it at all.
Is this bad enough that I should seek counseling? Can anyone offer advice on how I can bring this up to my roommate and maybe ask her to move the scale somewhere that I can't see it? I don't know if she will understand. I feel like if I no longer have access to a scale that might at least help with my obsessive thoughts about my weight.