Dr. Psychobabble | Through the looking glass of a psychiatrist
I am a public and emergency psychiatrist working in New York City. This website began as an attempt to chronicle my experiences as I made my way through a psychiatric residency. I then continued to blog during my journey through fellowships in public and emergency psychiatry, and now write through the lens of a semi-seasoned attending psychiatrist.
“Just as ripples spread out when a single pebble is dropped into water, the actions of individuals can have far-reaching effects.” – Dalai Lama A little over three years ago I had an idea. I wanted to create a non-profit organization, focused on bringing a “face” to homelessness in New York City. I encountered many homeless individuals in my work as an emergency room psychiatrist and on my daily walks in New York City. I had huge aspirations, very little resources, and a nagging dream. In the fall of 2015, I founded Faces in Between, a non-profit organization which I hoped would “provide outreach, social resources and engagement to homeless individuals living in New York City.” I hoped to “inspire and empower people who are struggling with illness, poverty and homelessness by equipping them with tools in order to create a ‘face’ for their world.” Sadly, after founding Faces in Between, I left New York City in the fall of 2017 in order to move to Virginia to start a family and a psychiatric non-profit organization. At the time, I thought my dream of Faces in Between would die with my departure. However, an extremely amazing human being, Danielle Levin
“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.” ― Rob Siltanen I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately on my life, my choices, my journey, and the universe. I realized today that I will ALWAYS be a “chronic dreamer” and I will also always continue to thank the Universe for all its amazing glory and inspiration. Leaving my last job and starting my current practice was one of the best decisions I ever made. It has been a journey full of fatigue, failure, success, and inspiration at every turn. And it has led me to the beautiful place that I currently exist. As I’ve said
I am massively excited to be a part of an amazing grassroots project to help save suicidal doctors out there. As you may or may not know, doctors have the highest suicide rate of any profession. And the number of doctor suicides is more than twice that of the general population. My friend and colleague, Dr. Pamela Wible has been leading a crusade against doctor suicide for years. She is actually responsible for my own exodus out of “mainstream” psychiatry and into starting my own, “dream” non-profit, Free Range Psychiatry. She has now helped to spearhead a project to write “love letters” to doctors, as part of her continual dedication to helping ebb the tide of doctor suicides. I was massively excited to join this movement! I have now completed her “doctor love letter kit” and will be putting it in the mail for her to distribute to doctors across the country. This project matters! And it brought me the most profound level of joy (and tears!) to write these letters. I thought that by sharing them on my blog, I’d hopefully reach even more doctors out there who could benefit from reading them. Please forgive my handwriting (I’ve never
Can you lie next to her And give her your heart, your heart As well as your body And can you lie next to her And confess your love, your love As well as your folly And can you kneel before the king And say I’m clean, I’m clean Tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart Oh tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart – Lyrics to “White Blank Page” by Mumford & Sons I have one billion things to say, but not the time or energy to write even one thousandth of it. I realize that my last real post here was almost one year ago when I was about 5 months pregnant. One billion things have changed in my life since that post. Here’s just a sprinkling of them: 1) I am a mother! Not only that, but I’m a mother of the most precious, most beautiful, most wonderful, most perfect, most inspirational baby girl who ever graced this planet (biased much?). Becoming a mother has forever changed my life, for the much, much, much better. Words really can’t express the love in my