Hello! Long time no blog. I really thought I would keep up my blog posts once I did that blog meme awhile back….
So I’ve hit my usual “blog block” and thought I would try a daily word prompt. The word for today is “Termination”
Awhile back I took a break from my 52frames photo challenge group. Why did I do this? There are tons of reasons but my biggest reason was time. I was finding myself scrambling to get a photo taken, and also trying to find time to look through the album. What have I been so busy doing? Absolutely nothing I wasn’t already doing. I’m not sure whether this is a case of poor time management or just that I don’t feel like taking photos anymore. You make time for the things that are important to you, right?
I haven’t “terminated” my participation in this group, I am just taking a break. I most likely will not start back up at the beginning of January. I haven’t missed it at all, sadly. I thought that I would miss it. I actually felt “relief” almost immediately after that first week of “not submitting” a photo. I feel as though maybe photography is not my thing. Or that type of photography maybe wasn’t my thing. I’m planning to do my own version of a challenge starting in January. I am going to do 365 days of Sky photography. I’ve always liked the idea of one topic, many photos. Stay tuned. I hope to post some of the photos here along with my experience with this type of challenge. My main spot for posting the photos will be Instagram. Instagram users, should I create a new/separate instagram account for this challenge or just use the one I am using (thus keeping all my current followers?). Also is it easy to link my Instagram account to this blog? I guess I need to start researching this stuff.
The topic for this week was Beautiful Chaos. I have a lot of chaos in my house. I wandered the house yesterday shooting photos quickly of all of the chaotic spots in the house. I am too embarrassed to post some of them. This is the least chaotic chaos photo. I found this roll out/flat dish drainer thing a ma jig in an LTD commodities catalog. I love it. It lays across the sink and we can put all kinds of stuff on it to dry. Unfortunately it is just another spot for stuff to collect. There is always something on it. In this photo you will notice a dual side sponge, a new wine cork remover, a flower petal piece that can be used in Fiona’s water fountain, several bottle brushes, two blades for the nutri-bullet, and a coffee mug.
Lately I’ve been extremely frustrated with the state of our house. Clutter everywhere. Too much stuff. Lots of dust and grime. Not only is the house a total mess, there are too many updates and repairs needed to mention. I feel completely at a loss as to how to start to fix it. I am overwhelmed. How can this be fixed? Where do I start? I need help and my husband is completely clueless and could care less about the house. This makes it harder. Having a partner in the fix would be helpful.
The theme for 52 frames this week was Square. As happens with me every week, all I saw was circles. I wasn’t able to see squares worth photographing. Until I went into my craft room. I recently started playing around with painting rocks and I had a few sitting on the table ready to be decorated. One of the rocks was square! So, I perused Pinterest looking for some inspiration for decorating a square rock and came up with this idea. I’m not done with my watermelon slice in the center…I need to touch up the colors and add some black seeds. I’m loving playing around
I’ve struggled with photography lately. Every week I’ve thought about quitting. It’s becoming more stressful and less fun for me lately. Its been a long time since I’ve been happy with one of my photos. I cannot blame my iPhone either. I thought that only using my iPhone for 2018 would make things more exciting but that hasn’t happened. I miss my camera but it’s not about the tools. Its about me not being able to see art in the moment anymore, and not having the time to devote to finding the shot that will make me happy. So I just snap whatever is around me and find a way to make it meet the topic of the week. Maybe that is okay? I don’t know. All I know is that I am not a quitter by nature so it’s distressing to me to have thoughts of quitting at all. So for now I persevere. So for this week guess the flavor of pizza!
Yesterday I turned 54. The day itself was uneventful. I had the day off work, got my hair cut and highlighted, ate a berry burst chicken salad at Wendy’s (it wasn’t bad!), bought some sandals at DSW ($5.00 off coupon for my birthday), bought some supplies to do painted rocks at Michaels, and had dinner out at a local Italian spot where we could sit outside (salmon and greens with a delicious olive oil dressing).
On the day previous I had spent a lot of time thinking about my life until now. Doesn’t everyone do this from time to time? I feel as though I’ve accomplished nothing and I feel as though I’m just basically stagnant right now. I have a lot of ideas regarding things I’d like to do but the details of how to get stuff done remain sketchy. I feel as though I’m not contributing anything to the world, or to my country, city, neighborhood or even my home. Then my thoughts drift to the “what if’s” as they always do. What if I hadn’t gone into nursing school? What if I hadn’t married my first husband? What if I hadn’t married my second and current husband? What if I had been more assertive in my younger years? What if I had stuck with Weight Watchers longer the 3rd time I went? What if I hadn’t trained for that 10K 10 years ago (then I wouldn’t have injured my hip and knee and maybe would still be running today…) Thoughts like these never lead to anything positive so I decided to re-frame the question. What can I do today? What can I do this month? What can I do this year? What can I do for the rest of my 50th decade?
So now you’re wondering what I came up with, right? Ha. Nothing. I did download a bucket list app to my phone and I plan to categorize and list the things I would like to do. I’ve hesitated to start the list though, for some reason. I guess putting it on an actual list (rather than remaining in my head) makes it more official or something.
I also researched (ok googled…I wanted it to seem more sophisticated) people who’ve done great things at age 54. I wanted inspiration and evidence that it’s not too late for me to do something awesome.
I learned about Annie Jump Cannon. She categorized stars at age 54! Her photo is above. Here is a blurb from wikipedia:
The challenge for this week for 52frames was “100 steps from your door.” I decided to play around with this during a conference I attended this week so I took 100 steps from my hotel room which brought me to the yummy chocolate chip cookies which were placed in the hotel lobby every afternoon. While I was carefully framing my photograph some dude just reached in to get a cookie, completely oblivious (or else he just didn’t care) to the fact that he was ruining my shot. I decided to keep the hand in the photo to help tell the story. I applied a preset filter in Luminar and added some sun rays in the background. This was not the best photo I took this week but it had the most interesting back story.