The vision to be the place of peace for those like me who seek. seek purpose seek change, internally, externally, not about to let the adversities distract us from our divine selves, reaching the highest of highs despite fear and the parts we can't control....reaching, grabbing, clawing in faith...it shall be where we shine divinely as we.
We are all here, right where we stand at this moment for a divine purpose that only we can fill, let’s make it count! There is no one on this planet that brings your unique perspective and talents everywhere you go. To me, this is a truly amazing concept to understand. It really means that no matter how many people there are that may have similar backgrounds as you, love to do the same things as you, have similar ideas as you, it doesn’t matter!!! No one can do it like you….period. I can clearly remember going to MAGIC in Las Vegas as a young adult. My boyfriend was designing and selling clothes at the time.
I often battle with the young woman I have been in the past, the woman I am today :), and the woman I am striving to become for just this reason. I want to make sure I move with integrity, love and compassion. It is a conscious choice that I may sometimes fall short of reaching, but as I rise every morning I begin fresh with this mission.
“We will be known forever for the tracks we leave.”- Dakota Indian Proverb
These tracks can be in any direction we choose. The idea of choice can choke us up, but when you are still, clear and free of fear the right one is undeniable. Even the choices that lead to undesired effects are useful. They build character, they guide us and teach us. Sometimes it’s painful, sometimes it pleasure. The beauty of it all is that we can change direction as we please to create new and improved. The tracks we leave are our unique stamp on the world, that says I WAS HERE! It is an amazing opportunity to love, be loved, be hurt, forgive, recover, learn, triumph and do it all over again.
I have learned not to take it all too seriously, but to make it intentional. Striving for clarity, understanding, compassion and resilience. May the tracks we leave inspire others to trust themselves, step outside the box, challenge norms and trust their journey.
It’s so amazing how I have spent my time up until now in search of something bigger, better and brighter. Words can’t even express the yearning in my soul to be at peace on this journey. I have pushed through prejudging, judging, regretting, blaming and every other negative feeling you could imagine. All in self-sabotage. So stuck in the entitlement of what I thought I deserved. Until I was humbled. Oh and when the Universe comes with it’s humbling gifts it can be quite brutal.
I remember the desperation vividly. Why did I have such grandiose ideas of who I should be? Why does it feel so close but yet so far? So many times it felt as though no one understood where I came from, how I have defied the odds thus far, how lonely I have felt even surrounded by people. Continuously victimizing myself and falling deeper and deeper into the darkness.
Up down around and around. Surviving while striving for this mystical magical feeling/ way of life that I know exists somewhere. It seems like the more I moved toward the life I desire the further it feels. I continued to search, read, listen, meditate, cry, laugh, smile and pray. Until one day, I just let go. I let go of my expectations of myself, others, the environment, my career and my path. I simply surrendered to the moment, every moment. In real time.
Then like magic the entire Universe began to surrender to my mission. I know it may sound corny or taboo but it is the truth. I was introduced to Nichiren Buddhism. I practiced for maybe a year, but the tools I acquired from this experience are priceless and will last me a lifetime. I learned about mindfulness, detachment, faith, broadened perspective, commitment and most of all my ability to be the co-creator of my life. These are not the words that were used in the practice, but the best parts of the practice in which I could relate.
Now here I am with the clarity of vision for today. My immediate goals are attainable and I honestly feel empowered. I am empowered with the realization that i don’t have to have all the answers right now. I can know the goals for today and tomorrow and that is ok. The journey is the goal. Enjoy every moment. Allow the beauty of the Universe to unfold.
I am new to the freedom of the mind. However, more than grateful to be here. I am free. Living in the present moment with faith in my potential for the future. Calm loved loving creative open and at peace….
So many boundaries placed around us as we grow. Some of us can live and breath within the confines of the expectations of others, while some of us feel suffocated and restricted. The truth is the boundaries initially placed on our lives by the likes of loved ones, society and eventually ourselves are not real. They were created for many reasons, intentions good and not so much. It is the voice inside of you that knows where your path shall lead. Will it be the one that was carved out by someone else or will it be the one you carve for yourself? Listen to those around you. How do their words resonate with you? Do you feel inspired, moved and/or motivated? Do you feel fear, anxiety or anger? Our feelings are our guide as to where we are right now. They have the ability to be the wind beneath our wings or the ball and chain keeping us stagnant. It really is up to us. I do my best everyday to understand there are only possibilities of greatness in my path. That is what I choose to see. The societal expectations/boundaries do sometimes get to me, but I know better. I do my best to live from the inside out. What do I feel? How can I steer my life in the direction of what will make me happy and fulfilled? Then I move accordingly. It’s not always easy because I am creating a new path, breaking the mold of following the easiest path. However, I can already see it is so worth it!!!There are only possibilities! I feel them, and I will walk confidently in faith toward them.
So often I decide what I want and I plow toward the goal. I can remember instances where I have felt so desperate that I took what I could get because I wanted whatever it was NOW. In those instances I was never really satisfied. I took what I could because I felt like I had no options, even though in my heart I could feel my limitless potential. I shared some of my goals with my loved ones, and they shut my ideas down. I was vulnerable, and doubt took over my mind. Next thing I knew, that doubt sent me into a world wind of negativity. Once my mind would pick up momentum in that direction, nothing of greatness was recognized. I did what I had to do, no doubt about that. However, what if I choose better as opposed to now? What if I had followed the feelings I had to expand with faith and clarity? I can only imagine where I could be. I can imagine where I would be, and it isn’t too late to get there.
I want to change the process of how I used to think and move. I dedicate time everyday to transform this pattern of thinking. This morning I listened to Abraham Hicks discuss whether we want what we desire now or do we want it better. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNijzKL_r5c&t=401s
As I listened to this, a light went off!!! Don’t you LOVE when you get it!!!
I could have what I want now of course, but how much sweeter is the fruit when it is ripe!
My intention has been set.
I recognize that I deserve all that I desire.
I can have and be whomever I want.
I am the Co Creator of my life.
I have faith.
I will enjoy and feel as though all that I have intended has already been manifested.
I will proceed as if success is inevitable.
Everyday I will watch it unfold piece by piece, as I celebrate the magic of manifestation.
One of the keys to my happiness has been to mind my business and meditate. There is a serious overload of information everywhere. We are obsessed with our phones and all the apps that connect us to the people. If we are not careful it can cause us problems. Maybe not serious problems, but definitely knock us off track of what is important to us. Personally, I already know how sensitive I am, and it can be a gift and a curse.
You ever notice how we can be so full of suggestions for other folks’ lives, and confused as hell about our own. Before I recognized how relevant this was to my life, I sure had an opinion about what everybody else was doing. More time than I would like to admit was spent comparing what and how I do to others. It took a while before I realized, I needed to seriously mind my business and meditate! This time and energy spent on critiquing what others is taking significant time away from my dreams and goals.
Meditation allows us to connect with the energy of the Universe/ God/ Inner Self etc. This time we take out of our busy day can help us see problems as well as goals clearly. When we see clearly, things become less stressful and the best solutions become obvious. If we are focusing on personal goals and dreams there is very little time for judging how others choose to live. Instead we can have compassion and understanding for THEIR journey, and be grateful that we are conciously choosing to focus on our own.
Even though we love our family and friends, we all have a unique journey and purpose. Devote your time and energy to yourself.
P.S. I will be posting more info on meditation soon!!
The purpose of this life is to be happy and love one another. For some of us this may be hard to believe, because of how hard our lives have been. But really, those parts of life that break our hearts are the moments that can breathe happiness into us, if we are willing to let go of the pain. The messy times can show us what would make us happy, if we let it. It’s never too late to live happily in love….on purpose. Take time to recognize the beauty in nature, art, animals, children, music etc.
Choose what you think, who you spend your time with, and how you spend your time. Anything that does not serve your best life is truthfully preventing you from getting there. It is your divine right to be happy and enjoy your life.
Of course, there are things in our lives that are out of our control, however you can always control yourself. That is each of our Super Power!
It is our perspective that has the ability to navigate how we feel. Focus on what makes you feel good. Put the work in to see the brighter side of all things. Tell yourself how amazing you are! You are here on this planet right now for a divine purpose that only you can fulfill. Your unique life experiences will guide you toward the unique purpose of your life.
Find joy along the way. Decide happiness is what you desire. Allow the path to will unfold before your eyes.
When I realized I had the power to be happier, more confident, peaceful and move in line with my dreams….I spent 5 minutes a day for 21 days writing down what I appreciated in my life. These 21 days of gratitude was the best investment I could make into me! 5 minutes of gratitude in the morning set the tone for my entire day. There was a sense of clarity, patience and appreciation that increased daily. Little things that previously irritated me, eventually made me shake my head with a chuckle and I brushed it off. Opportunities that were in direct alignment with my goals began to appear. And above all else I began to consistently feel good!
The way we feel has a direct connection to the energy we exude into the Universe. It often seems that life throws things into our path that slows us down or even worse, turns us around. The key is to see beyond the unwanted circumstances, into the greatness we do want. The only way to transform these experiences is to SEE them differently. So often we are consumed with what we don’t want to happen, but all that does is create worry and stress us out. Focusing on our blessings and what we DO want, creates clarity and happiness. Feel good about that! When we feel good, we attract more things that make us feel good. Just to show you, I’m not the only one who has experienced this, check out this article about how giving thanks can make us happier!