All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time. -Mitch Alom
you are a horse running alone and he tries to tame you compares you to an impossible highway to a burning house says you are blinding him that he could never leave you forget you want anything but you you dizzy him, you are unbearable every woman before or after you is doused in your name you fill his mouth his teeth ache with memory of taste his body just a long shadow seeking yours but you are always too intense frightening in the way you want him unashamed and sacrificial he tells you that no man can live up to the one who lives in your head and you tried to change didn't you? closed your mouth more tried to be softer prettier less volatile, less awake but even when sleeping you could feel him traveling away from you in his dreams so what did you want to do love split his head open? you can't make homes out of human beings someone should have already told you that and if he wants to leave then let him leave you are terrifying and strange and beautiful something not everyone knows how to love -Warsan Shire When I lost you, I found myself.
As most everyone has seen on facebook and Instagram, I gave birth to my daughter, Johanna, on June 14th.
I want to give all the details and I will eventually share her birth story. It's a doozy. But with consideration for the other issues in my life, I want to keep her sacred and safe and untainted by that bullshit for just a moment longer.
For that same reason, I don't really have any photos or details to share. I can tell you that she's the absolute best baby in the world, that my (ex-ish)husband and I created a tiny goddess who already exceeds everything he or I were otherwise able to achieve, and that I would take bullets for this little girl. I loved her from the first moment I knew her inside me and that love only grows every day. She's drastically changed who I was as a person in the best way possible. And I'm excited to be the one who helps her grow and develop into a functional human being. It's an honor.