In my shawls came about as a surprise while watching the television, snacking and being a couch potato.This space serves as a creative
outlet for me after a long day of being real. Here is where I get to sometimes be someone else and be immersed in a play pretend character. Be inspired at your own risk.
It is no secret that I am a fan of makeup. I think I have some skill in me that I even did my own makeup for my wedding. As with all makeup junkie, I too love trying out new products.
I have heard and tried Palladio way before. I used to scour Watsons and Guardians and look out for Palladio. I would buy several products and still not break the bank. So when the team from Palladio offered to send me some of their products, I was thrilled!
I was sent most of the Rice Collection, Growing up in Asia, the Rice Paper packaging for some reason feels very nostalgic. So definitely packaging is a plus for me. It is definitely a conversation starter too. Perfect for awkward people like me.
Singapore is a very humid country, Makeup does not usually stay throughout. If it does, be prepared to have a face so oily you look like a greaseball. Therefore, it is very common to see ladies and men alike, carrying blotting sheets in their bag.
The generic blotting sheets not only absorbs the oil from your face, it sometimes removes and moves makeup around. Thus, the Palladio Rice Paper is very convenient as it absorbs oil as well as sets the makeup back in place. It comes in several shades but I prefer to use translucent.
Another product that I have come to love and eventually use on a regular, is the Rice Primer. It is so smooth and mattifying but not drying. It creates a beautiful velvet canvas. In fact, I used it all over my face before spot priming with my Porefessional. Foundation glides smoothly over the primer and my face stayed matte throughout.
If there is one product from the Rice Collection that I highly recommend, it would have to be the Rice Primer. At its price point, you get a primer that works just as well as any high-end ones.
If you follow me on Instagram (@nurfatiin), you would know that I stay away from matte lip creams because I have overly dry lips. The velvet matte lip cream is honestly one of my favourite lip creams. Funnily, I tend to gravitate towards drugstore lip creams more than high-end.
Palladio's Velvet Matte Lip Cream is exactly that. It is velvety and lightweight. Typically, I wouldn't last an hour in lip creams before my lips start cracking and wrinkling. But I wore this for at least five hours, ate oily wedding foods and my lips still looked good without reapplying.
In all, I really love the Rice Primer and I foresee myself heading towards the drugstore to repurchase.
My husband and I, we're both foodies. Or to be quite honest, he turned me into one. I typically eat whatever I can find. If there is a quote, mine would be-
I eat to live.
I love to cook. But I was always cooking for myself. Two years ago, I started on my diet. I had to meal prep. As fun as it sounds, it can get quite tiresome at some point. I would actually starve on some days because I was too lazy to cook. You would understand me if you cook for one. My family doesn't eat my foods so it gets pretty lonely.
Now if only I discovered Melvados sooner.
Malvados is a retail brand by Foodedge Gourmet, which is a Singapore-based food manufacturer that supplies food and beverage. Melvados was built to meet the rising needs of food-loving Singapore residents who are too busy to whip up a gourmet meal for themselves.
Melvados' halal and ready to eat meals was what enticed me to try them out. As a new wife who works full time, it was the perfect excuse for me to whip out a delicious, hot meal for my husband. What pulls me in further was the fact that all their meals are fully cooked which means it requires heating. Ok, please don't tell my husband I didn't really cook the meals. I cheated.
Tandoori Chicken Wrap
Melvados kindly sent me several food items and I was floored. Everything was so flavourful. Because the foods have no added preservatives, they have a shorter shelf life. That only tells you how fresh the ingredients are. My favourite were the wraps. It comes in a box of six and two. It was so convenient for me to bring it to work and have it heated in my school's microwave.
Brownie Brittle & Rainbow Cookie
Festive Sampler & Pistachio Tray Cake
My husband has a sweet tooth. He can't refuse cakes, biscuits and pastries. He devoured all the sweet stuff. His favourite is hands down the Pistachio Cake. We were sent the Festive Sampler cakes where all their cakes are in one box. It's perfect for the upcoming Raya. A whole box of an assortment of cakes for your guests. It couldn't get any simpler.
I kept my favourite for last. I have been searching high and low for interesting flavours of ice cream which are halal. Lo and behold, Melvados has them. Taste was amazing. The Salted Hazelnut Cookie Dough was so decadent. I was very surprised that I could taste everything the name of the product says. It was salty, sweet, nutty and all the delicious cookie dough goodness in one bite.
My husband and I indulged in this the other night and we agreed it was one of the best, if not THE BEST ice cream we have ever had.
Melvados has two retail stores. One in Jurong Point and another in Anchor Point. Else, you can visit their factory at-
26 Woodlands Terrace, Singapore 738449
With that, I am making a public service announcement. This Saturday, 12 May, Melvados will be having their Factory Sale. Please make your way down. With Ramadhan coming, I am sure their ready-to-eat meals will be a hit with working mommies.
What: Melvados Factory Sale
Where: 26 Woodlands Terrace, Singapore 738499
When: 12 May & 26 May, 10am - 3pm
Discounts: 10% off all tray and round cakes, 5% off everything else!
New items: Pistachio Tray Cake and Pistachio Rose Round Cake
Mother's Day is this Sunday so you know where to get your cakes. Please do try the Pistachio cakes. My husband and Mother-in-law can vouch for how creamy and delicious it was. Needless to say, we cleaned ours up.
It has been twenty four days since I got married. Granted, we're still an infant but it has been wonderful so far. Except for the part where we both caught the stomach flu bug right after the honeymoon. That, was awful. Now that aside, I asked if you'd like to know anything and everything and I think the poll went bonkers because the vast majority said yes!
I have decided to break this into three parts- How We Met, The Journey, The Wedding.
A few asked me if I met him on a dating app. Given my very public views and usage of dating apps, people would be wondering if I did meet him through it. But alas, the apps failed me.
How we met was hilarious, magical and definitely planned by Him.
August 5th, 2017
I was invited to a friend's wedding. Of which I attended the solemnisation, Groom's reception on Saturday night as well as the Bride's on Sunday.
Every chance I get to attend someone's solemnisation, I will make it a point to make a du'a. That day, I made sure all who knew me, made du'a for me. To be honest, I actually made them pray for me and a certain name to be together. Surprisingly enough, I made a different prayer.
"Ya Allah, please let me meet the man you've written for me soon. If he is near, let us meet quickly. If not, please plant patience in me."
Little did I know, my life was about to change that very day itself.
At the Groom's reception later that night, I was pretty much non-existent. I was there to accompany my girlfriend who was one of the bridesmaids. I took on the role of the nanny. Of which I happily obliged. Well you should know that I was nannying my favourite baby boy.
It was towards the end of the night and we sat right in front of the dais. Enjoying the live singing by two very talented duo. Also because we were gawking at the male singer. Can't help it. Single woman hormones.
Then suddenly, I heard the bride calling my name.
"Fatin! This one! Nak tak?"
Let me rewind to a few moments before the dinner reception. Right at the rehearsal. We were late. Everyone was waiting for us. I stood in for someone in the line and saw this one guy in front. I thought he was cute. So the bride actually tried to matchmake me with that cute guy.
Later that night, the bride texted us and asked if I would be interested to get to know him. She even gave us his instagram handle, of which I stalked (he looks really bad in pictures. He doesn't picture well at all!) and didn't really fancy. I know, expectations. Tsk.
The bride said that he is a nice man and very ready to get married.
That's a pre-requisite I need. If you recall, I wanted to skip the dating process and go straight to the getting married part. But even then, I went to bed not knowing that the next day was going to be even more epic.
August 6th, 2017
I recall saying this to my girlfriend that day-
"It would be so nice to have a man come up to me and ask for my number or something. I never get that."
Towards the very end of the day, he came up to me and tried playing with the baby given that I was with the little one all the time. At one point, he suddenly asked-
"You are a blogger right? My sister is a fan of yours. Can I take a picture with you?"
I didn't think much of it since I do get people asking for a picture occasionally. The moment I said yes; we had two phones, a dslr and swarmed by a group of people. Needless to say, I was turning red. Months later, he told me his sister doesn’t even know me. Worst but one of the greatest pickup line in my history.
Just before the bridal party left, I stood in the middle of nowhere with the baby. Turn left and it's the family room. Turn right and it's the bridal party with all the groomsmen including him. I knew for the fact that at that moment, he was going to come up to me. I quickened my steps to the left. I knew he was following me, fast. I literally ran with my heels and a baby in my arms to the safety of the family room.
My heart was beating really fast.
I knew in that instance, that he was either going to ask for my number or ask me out. I also figured, that Allah had paid me in cash again. I wanted someone to come up to me and ask for my number but when it did happen, I didn't know what to do.
I heard the door opening. I heard a voice. It was him.
I recall the lonely nights. Going to bed with tears accompanying me. My heart so raw it hurts every time I feel. Waking up before the morning dew to ask Allah for my companion that He promised.
I recall the empty texts. Typing 'Good Morning' on my iPhone notes. For nobody specific. My thoughts often wandered into the deep vision that is a dream. To meet the figure I'd spend my life with.
As I sit on my bed right now, the sight of my wedding outfit glimmered with hope. A sign of new beginning, a ray of possibility.
When I wake up tomorrow, I will be a few steps closer to completing half of my deen. A little nearer to sleeping and waking up next to a strangely familiar face. And a few hours short of ending my lonely days.
I agreed to marry you eight months ago- three days after talking on the phone when I have not even met you in person. Those who knew, thought we were a little crazy but we both believe in jodoh and that He willed it. Till date, you are still the best decision I have ever made in my life.
Another year will be behind us. Time moves really fast. I remember welcoming January like it was just yesterday. Soon enough, we will be welcoming 2018 with open arms.
I recall in the last moments of 2016, I hoped for an epic new year. Although it was not the epic that I had hope for, it was a pretty awesome year. There were lots of ups and downs, specifically in the last quarter of the year but it was one of the best things that has happened to me in a long time.
I don't have any resolutions for the coming year because I usually don't keep up with it. However, if I were to pick one out, it would be to be nicer to myself. I think a lot about what others think or feel. I know I shouldn't because nobody should matter.
2018 is going to be epic. For real. I know it will. I have a little secret that I can't wait to share with everyone. Meanwhile, thank you for sticking around till 2018.
I see the cup half empty. I have always viewed life like that since I knew what to think of it. It is really funny how I can give advices on my blog or pump someone up and telling them to be positive about life when I am always at my deepest pit.
The past few days, I have been feeling very insecure about myself. From the way I look, to the way people think of me. Every single day, I believe that I am burden to everyone around me. It is a sinking feeling. I sink to the bottom by the hour and I couldn't swim up to save myself. I constantly feel like I inject pain to people.
Today, my heart felt empty. Which is ironic because it has been the fullest that it can be since two years ago. I felt my heart closing up. I was not able to reciprocate my feelings. It was empty. I remember this feeling many moons ago but that was a given. My heart was lost. How can my heart be in pain now that it has multiplied?
A puppet with no puppeteer. I feel exactly like that. Lifeless and unmotivated.
I try very hard to disassociate myself from the person that I was before. Maybe in the quest to be different, I became such a negative Nancy. I am like an onion. Perhaps perfect from the outside. As soon as you start peeling my layers, your eyes sting. I feel like I have been like that to the people around me. People whom I love very very much.
It is a constant battle with myself. That I am not good enough. That I am not perfect enough. That I am a burden to the people I love. That I am a nuisance in their life. That their life would have been better without me in it.
The past few nights, I have been accompanying myself with tears. I blame myself for the failed or failing relationships. Sometimes, I wish I have issues with other people instead of myself. You can run away from people but how do you run away from yourself?
Today, I went back to the abyss. The dark and cold cave that I once took solace in.
I like sitting in a room filled with women who share the same passion and likes. Last Saturday, I spent my afternoon learning about tips and tricks from new and experienced makeup artists. Not only that, I get to meet inspiring womenpreneurs who are very dedicated and passionate about the products that they offer to the community.
Of course, my favourite part of the whole afternoon was the makeup demo. I love watching Youtube videos and makeup artists apply makeup because I feel like there are certain techniques that I can pick up and use for myself. Also, ALWAYS ask the holy grail products of them makeup artists! They can definitely be trusted.
Iqa, from @say.beautiful, has been doing her makeup on her clients using only Farmasi Cosmetics products. I was a little skeptical about the liquid foundation because naturally, I feel that natural products will not give me perfect coverage. Boy was I wrong! The model had troubled skin and blemishes.
Iqa used Farmasi High Performance Foundation #06, which you can get at My Little Cocoon for only $31. I was honestly impressed at the coverage. She mentioned that for blemished skin, apply concentrated amount of foundation on the blemishes itself and then blend towards the rest of the skin. Oh, she used no concealer. WIN.
Just look at that coverage!! Remind me that i need that in my kit.
For an everyday look that is perfect for work, Iqa went with a simple eye and defined brows. Iqa used all Farmasi products on the model's face. Floored yet?
There was a short skincare demo by Elsyle, products from Hokkaido. I picked up something very interesting yet never thought of, which I started doing last night.
Sis Khadijah was telling us that while applying our skincare routine, praise ourselves. Tell ourselves that we are pretty. That we are awesome and beautiful. It sounded weird but I realised that she's right. Self love begins with loving ourself. If we believe that we are beautiful, it shows on the outside. Let me know if I look beautiful the next time you see me ok? hehe
The next makeup demo was on a medium/tanned skin by a known makeup artist, Pippin Emerald. She used all products by Khadija. I was very happy that the techniques I used on myself is similar to that of a professional makeup artist. Maybe one day I can consider doing makeup for people, no?
The makeup artist used Khadija Loose Powder Foundation in Shade 11. I would have probably mixed in shade 11 and 13 but I understand that some skins oxidise more so I assume that was the reason for shade 11. She also used shade 13 as a contour shade!
Pippin Emerald also used products from the new brand that My Little Cocoon is bringing in, Isabelle Dupont. I am actually very excited to get my hands on it because the mascara Pippin Emerald used on the model looks very promising! She had lashes for days! Isabelle Dupont has liquid lipsticks too! Isabelle Dupont is not on My Little Cocoon's website yet, but when it is, I will let you know!
The finished look (which I stupidly forgot to capture) left the model looking chic for work and ready to conquer the world. Khadija powder foundation is really versatile for all skin tones. I suggest going down to My Little Cocoon's office to swatch the colours and try it on for yourself. Khadija is by far, the most full coverage powder foundation that is halal, vegan and won't break the bank.
You should really check out My Little Cocoon's website for more information on the products I have mentioned. Let me know if you would like me to make a video on Khadija and Farmasi products!
Congratulations Erianna and Aisha from My Little Cocoon for the successful event! May all of us benefit from the makeup sessions and support local entrepreneurs. These two, are saving our skin, one natural product at a time.
I was scrolling Facebook at half past one in the morning and I came across a post that I was not particularly excited about. Please do not mistake this post as a cry for feminism. I am just a woman who scrolls through Facebook past midnight.
1. Women wear makeup for themselves
We hear this way too many times. In fact, it sounds so cliché that men probably don't take that statement too seriously. Women wear makeup to feel good about themselves. I have pictures of me without makeup in the world wide web which we all know will be etched in the digital world forever. To be completely honest, I am very comfortable in my skin without makeup. Flaws and all. However, there are also days when I feel like looking good for myself. I want to look like the better version of myself.
Do you also know how therapeutic applying makeup actually is? It is my cure all for every time I feel horrible and I know I am not the only woman who feels like that. It is very satisfying every time I look at myself in the mirror after beating it to death. Trust me, I am not wasting my hard earn cash on you boys.
Haven't you heard? We actually wear makeup so that we can get compliments from other girls. Sorry guys, you are irrelevant.
2. "Nobody should (needs to) wear makeup"
You may not like it, I understand. You want your girlfriend, lover or wife to bare it all, go for it. But stop there. If you need to impose it on your significant other, then do it. Don't impose it on the general women population.
Yes, there are some woman out there who are not interested in makeup. Good for them! My best friend prefers 'Home Fix' to Sephora. But trust my little voice in this. Even the tiniest wing liner can make the masculine of a woman, happy.
So if your girlfriend says she don't like to wear makeup, that is probably because she don't like applying it. It does not mean she never wants to see herself all made up.
3. 'Posts articles of celebrities without makeup'
Oh yeah, they are born with beautiful skin. No wait, have you heard of...
And many many more?
Do you also know that these treatments are not easily attainable by mere mortal females because we are not Jennifer Lopez. We sometimes can't even afford a simple facial! You should probably equip us with the resources so that we can look like your favourite celebrities without makeup. Just saying.
4. "I like girls who look natural."
A whole lot of bull.
Make Up Atau Tak Make Up? - YouTube
I am sorry if you can't understand this but basically the men were asked if they generally like women with or without makeup. One said he likes the natural look. Another said he likes a woman who doesn't wear makeup but also doesn't look pale. Another insisted that he likes a woman without makeup.
They were then showed a picture of a very brave lady without her makeup.
Basically these guys flipped. They thought she would look better with a little bit of powder, eyeliner and lipstick. Honey, those are makeup.
So men, what is your definition of natural? Because my dear, to look 'natural' I need at least ten products. Again, if you want no makeup but without the pigmentations, dark under eye circles, flushed cheeks and lips, please go back to number three.
Let us do whatever we want. Let us wear makeup as thick as your Harry Potter book. Or as thin a layer as that shirt you are wearing today. In fact, let everyone do whatever makes them feel good.
Ladies, please don't ever let a man or anyone else tell you otherwise. If putting on a full coverage foundation gets you out of the house feeling like Michelle Obama then go for it. If having rainbow on your lids for your first date makes you less shy and more confident, then beat that face. If a tinted moisturiser makes you feel more fresh and lively, then show the world. If leaving the house without an inch of makeup (don't skip sunscreen though!) makes you feel powerful, I salute you.
Men, if you must, impose it on your significant other (although I feel sorry for her). Just don't impose it on the general women population, because I don't appreciate it.
Actually this is also for the ladies out there who doesn't wear makeup and diss us who do. Also, this doesn't stop at makeup. It'll be too long a post if I continue writing.
You do you boo.
Now, this woman has stopped scrolling Facebook. At two in the morning.
"Maktub," she said, "If I am really a part of your dream, you'll come back one day."
- The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
A few days ago, I woke up questioning God why He hasn't answered the one prayer that I have been constantly praying for. I prayed to be filled with happiness. In my mind, I hoped that He would gift me with the man of my dreams.
I woke up angry at everything. Perhaps I was just PMSing (which turns out to be what it was). I was angry at the world. I was angry at the little birds outside who seemed to be too happy about life that particular morning.
I consider this my relapse.
I have been perfectly content with myself for the past few months, enjoying the comfort of my own voice, the company of my own presence. I was actually enjoying being busy. I felt like I could now finally take over the world. Truthfully, it really felt like that. It felt like I had the world in my hands and that whatever I choose to do with it, can only be decided by only me.
At one point, I actually don't mind going to social events alone and be around friends and potentially make new ones (although that thought is somewhat nerve wrecking). I was at Singapore Modest Fashion Weekend and I actually felt fine going out alone albeit meeting a friend at the venue. It even triggered me to attend an upcoming social event by myself, without a plus one, which is hella scary for me but whatever it is worth I have to do it.
I was also angry at the fact that suddenly, I have no job offers. I applied for every job imaginable but none came back to me. I was very frustrated too because I was tired and I wanted to just do something. I was angry at the world for having it better than me.
Until I saw a post.
It was an a-ha! moment for me.
The reason I can get through life for the past few months because I believed in this. I believed in Maktub. I believe in what has been written. My mind has been at ease knowing that whatever happened to me, was written. I am now just going through life the way I was supposed to. But how could I have forgotten this? Why was I questioning Him?
It was not until I saw this that I remembered how I managed to find peace with myself. I let go. I allowed Him to handle my life. I am at ease everyday knowing that I am where He wants me to be exactly at right now. I am at ease knowing that the good things He has promised me is probably very near. All I have to do is be patient. Be grateful.
In that moment, I accepted fate.
Everyone needs a reminder once in a while. Me, especially. I am probably still out of job because I am meant to do something else. I am still single because The One is on his way and He has promised me the best person. Every new people I meet, is a given too. They are meant to breathe life into me. It is just His way of getting me to understand the world, and myself.
This morning I woke up feeling so grateful. I still get to hear my mom making so much noise outside. I still get to hear my brother playing games in his room and laughing loudly. I still get to wake up from my sleep.
"My heart is at ease knowing that what was meant for me will never miss me,