Being vulnerable is one of the most important and also challenging and scary things for us in life.
I always knew that I felt more like my true self when I was being open and honest with myself and those around me. But that doesn’t make it any easier to show vulnerability. Seriously, I understand this 100%.
As I’ve mentioned before, I was part of a group layoff at my previous job. I never thought I’d talk about that as much as I have been here on this blog, but it’s what feels right to me so I’m just trying to follow my intuition.
I’ve undergone quite a journey of self-discovery over these past five months or so. Most of it has been overwhelmingly positive, but there have been a few things I’ve learned about myself that aren’t super great or happy.
And that’s ok. In fact, that’s great!
If I never took the time to be vulnerable with myself, I never would’ve realized things like this:
— I was very complacent and coasting at many of my jobs in the past, which made me unhappy
— I’ve always wanted to be a leader, but I told myself no one would listen to me or care since I was bullied so much when I was younger, so I never tried
— Blogging about my personal life and struggles has been really great. Don’t get me wrong, it’s had plenty of ups and downs, but I’ve connected both with my friends and people I don’t know in real life because of the things I’ve shared here
Basically, I think we all need to be more honest with and true to ourselves. If we don’t face our real selves, how can we ever change or grow? It’s scary as hell but so, so important.
I dare you to be vulnerable today, even just a little bit. Start a journal and share your real feelings in it. Or finally put up that website or blog you’ve been wanting to start. Or tell someone how you really feel.
I realized I never really put myself out there before I was let go from my previous job. I wasn’t really challenging myself or daring myself to be better or stronger. Part of me feels disappointed in myself for not “waking up” to this fact sooner, but we can’t change the past, so there’s no use berating ourselves.
Be vulnerable. It can be really scary, but it can also be really rewarding.
What’s something vulnerable that you’ve done lately?
Becoming who you were always meant to be is a very long process. Some days are freaking amazing, and other days are tiring and frustrating.
I still don’t know 100% what my true purpose is or if I’m doing anything right, but each day I make a commitment to keep trying to get out of my comfort zone.
I believe we all are just trying to do our best. I need to believe that. If you believe it, too, then I hope you practice and exercise compassion. Some days I’m really great at this and other days I have such a short fuse that it’s ridiculous.
To be honest, I haven’t been trying the best I can these days. I’ve been slacking. Self-improvement is hard work. Blogging is hard work. Life is hard work.
It’s okay that we’re not perfect all the time. We can’t be perfect all the time, but we can try our best and realize that other people are just trying their best as well. Be compassionate with others as well as ourselves.
Part of being vulnerable means admitting when things aren’t going great or perfect. I’m far from a perfect life, but I love it. I’ve also realized how many grudges and how much resentment I’ve carried for so many years. It’s too much.
As I mentioned in my recent favorites post, I’ve been working my way through Soul Coaching by Denise Linn. I believe this book has been absolutely invaluable to me because it’s made me think and rethink myself, my past and my present. Frankly it’s made me more uncomfortable than comfortable when reading it, and I’m grateful for that.
As that well-known quote says, life begins at the end of your comfort zone.
As uncomfortable and emotional as I’ve been while reading this book, I can just tell that I’ve grown so much. The book really makes you think about beliefs you hold, when you first started to believe them, how those beliefs have shaped the entire course of your life, etc.
It’s just very startling to me because you believe certain things for so long, without really wondering if they’re actually true or not. I wouldn’t change anything about my past because it made me who I am, but it’s crazy to think how different my life would be if I’d read this book or challenged my internal beliefs sooner.
This book has also gotten me on a very deep cleaning and de-cluttering rampage. Josh and I have donated, sold, gotten rid of or tossed so many things, and it seems like that process is just never ending.
It feels so incredibly good to get rid of things you don’t like anymore or that you just don’t use anymore. I got rid of quite a few pieces of clothing, too. I didn’t hate everything I got rid of, but I just wasn’t feeling them anymore.
For the items we’ve kept, we’ve done a lot of reorganizing and I’ve made spreadsheets for what books, movies and TV shows we own so we don’t accidentally keep buying duplicates. I plan to do the same for all the games we have soon.
Basically, this book has made me take stock of my life for what it is right now. It’s been a great blessing to see what’s been going really well and what areas I can still improve in. I’m definitely not perfect by any means, but I’m getting closer to finding and becoming my true self, and that’s very exciting.
I used to have a 101 in 1,001 post, but man that’s a lot of goals to try to accomplish! That’s a very daunting number and it overwhelmed me instead of inspired me so I decided to mix it up a bit.
I commit to accomplishing 18 goals in 2018. That’s a more manageable number, and then the goals will be more meaningful rather than random just to meet a quota.
I’ve been on a self-love and self-development journey for quite some time, and I’m ready to really start stepping up and getting bold.
For too long, I’ve been scared to be seen as weak or vulnerable so I haven’t shared many aspects of my life on here or on social media. I’ve slowly start sharing more and more, and man it’s been really freeing.
— Declutter every aspect of our apartment by the end of the year.
I feel like this is a never-ending process, honestly, but I commit to really focusing on it and making it a priority this year. I’m getting married this fall, and I know we’ll be incorporating exciting new things into our lives. Why not start making room for it all now? I’ll focus on one area at a time so I don’t overwhelm myself and end up doing nothing.
— Read 50 books.
I’m off to a good start because as of February 22, I’ve read 16. But soon I’ll have a full-time job again and won’t have as much free time to dedicate to reading, so I adjusted my goal accordingly.
— Build up my Facebook group organically.
I’d felt the call to do something more to really connect with the women in my life for a long time, and I finally took one small step to making that a reality. I made a Facebook group! I was actually really nervous about making it, but then I figured that if it failed, who would even know or remember it? Kind of a pessimistic viewpoint, but it worked for me to get it up and running! I want to really nurture and build up the community of amazing women in that group to help us all connect, grow, learn and more.
— Get a pen pal.
This is something I’ve always wanted to do as an adult but I’ve never taken the steps to find one. I feel like writing letters has definitely become a lost art form, and who doesn’t love getting letters that aren’t bills in the mail?!
— Get a new tattoo.
I’ve had a few ideas floating around for new tattoos for quite a while, but they got put on the back burner when other life events keep popping up. I think it’s time for me to finally get a second and maybe even third tattoo this year. I’m putting it out there so we’ll see!
— Start doing tarot readings for other people.
I’m pretty new to tarot and oracle cards, but I really want to learn more about them in general and the two decks I have. As I get more comfortable doing readings for myself, I’d love to open it up to other people to help them as well. This will probably take me a little while, as I don’t want to rush the process, but I feel called to do it.
— Learn how to cook and bake better.
Josh is better at cooking, and I’m better at cleaning. It’s a good system for us, but I want to get better at cooking and baking because I see how much fun he has creating things in the kitchen.
— Create something tangible.
I’m not sure exactly what this means, but I was inspired to write it. Maybe it means a book or digital course or something completely different. Even though I don’t 100% know what it is, I want to focus on making it happen and see what the universe has in store for me.
— Write in my journal every day.
I feel better about myself and my life in general if I can write down what I’m feeling or worried about. I can tell that when I haven’t journaled in a while, I feel all jumbled up and cluttered on the inside. I’ve been getting better about this, and I want to make sure this habit continues. I think we can all learn a lot from ourselves, and journaling is one way to make that happen.
— Take more selfies.
I’ve noticed that for a long time now, I rarely take photos of myself. I’ve come a long way in my self-love journey, but this is still a struggle for me for some reason. It never occurs to me until later that it would be fun to have photos of various moments in life, including of myself. I commit to taking more photos of myself and my surroundings instead of just books, coffee, candles and my dog (although I will definitely still take photos of all of those things).
— Finish my vision board.
I got a good start on it in January, but then my interest just kind of died out. I want to continue having inspirational things all around me, and I know that’s a big chunk that’s missing from my life. I’m going to figure out exactly what I want on there and I’m going to make it happen.
— Learn how to make my own candles.
I absolutely love candles, but I know some of them contain harmful ingredients and/or fragrances. It would be so fun to make our own candles at home and then be able to enjoy them without worrying about the ingredients affecting us or our dog.
— Revamp my relationship with money.
This has always been something that’s bothered me basically my whole adult life. I really hate money but I also need it to do any and everything. I think my negative associations with it have impacted more of my life than I realize, so it’s time (it’s beyond time) to get my finances and my feelings for it all sorted out.
— Learn more about crystals and their healing powers.
There’s a rock shop in town I’ve been to twice now, and it’s been so inspiring and uplifting both times. I’ve always been interested in rocks and crystals but I’ve never really looked into their benefits or anything. I recently cleansed and charged all of the crystals and rocks I have, whether I just got them or I’ve had them for years. I also got The Crystal Bible by Judy Hall, and it’s been so interesting to learn about crystals I’ve been so drawn to without knowing why. I want to learn more and incorporate them more into my life and even on my blog or social media in different ways.
— Find ways to be outside more.
I’m definitely a homebody who loves being inside, but I miss being younger and exploring and reading outside in the yard and just being in nature. It’s a little more difficult to do that in an apartment building, but I could still find reasons to be outside more for health reasons or even for our dog to explore more of our neighborhood or something. I need to be out in nature more, soaking in the sun’s rays and feeling the earth between my toes.
— Be part of a new book club.
I’ve been part of book clubs in the past, and they’ve all dissolved for one reason or another. I’d love to be part of a new book club that’s focused on spirituality and/or women. There’s so much out there to learn, and I’d love to learn and discuss with other people more.
— Spread positive vibes every day.
This can vary greatly from day to day, but I feel like all of us could use more positivity in our lives. Some days this might mean letting cars go in front of me in a parking lot or paying for someone’s coffee at Starbucks. Other days this might mean helping a friend with a problem or buying something just to make someone happy. There are so many different ways to spread positive vibes, and I need to get better at sharing my light with others as often as I can while still taking care of myself.
— Figure out exactly who I am.
I know parts of who I am, but I can’t confidently say I know everything about who I am as a person. I know we all change and grown throughout our lives, but I feel like I need a better grasp of myself. I’ve changed a lot even over the past few months, so I need to get reacquainted or even introduced to different aspects of myself. 2018 will be my year of self-discovery.
I’ve been really focusing on decluttering lately and I haven’t worn makeup much at all this month, so I don’t have many makeup favorites to share. But check out my other favorites now!
Colourpop Liquid Lipstick in More Better
As much as I hate the name, I just really love this color. I’ve wanted to buy this from Colourpop’s site for ages. So when Ulta started carrying some Colourpop a week or so ago, I knew I had to finally just buy it. I wasn’t wearing any makeup that day but I still put it on anyway and I felt like a bad bitch driving home with my sunglasses and this lip color on, #sorrynotsorry.
Pacifica Sparkling Clean Face Wash
First of all, I totally admit that I bought this based on the packaging alone. I love so many Pacifica products, and this packaging is just so adorable. I mean come on, it mentions crystals and it smells like watermelon. What, am I supposed to not buy it?! It smells just heavenly, and it makes my face feel clean and smooth without feeling tight or oily. Plus, the product itself is a sort of holographic purple/green/clear color. #sold
Dr. Dan’s Cortibalm
My all-time favorite Acure lip balm was discontinued a while ago, but I had a few backups so I was good for a while. But then the time came (passed, really) for me to toss those and find a new lip balm. My lips are basically always super dry, especially in winter, so I can’t use just anything. Then Josh reminded me about this balm, and everything was right in the world again. I used to use this a few years ago when I was on Accutane, and it was the only thing that worked for me. I’m not on Accutane anymore but I do have hella dry lips, and this has been such a godsend for me lately.
Book: Soul Coaching by Denise Linn
I picked up this book at Barnes & Noble, and I’m so glad I did. It’s a 28 day guidebook on how to discover your authentic self. Each day there is a lesson and homework, but the homework can vary from five minutes to however long you want to commit to it. I’m only a few days in so far, but I’ve really been enjoying it! I’ve recommended it to some friends, and I’m really happy I found this book.
TV Show: Grace and Frankie
I took a Buzzfeed quiz that told you what Netflix show you were. I got this one, and I hadn’t seen it before so I figured now was as good a time as any to start watching, and now I’m on season 2. Oh my gosh, I love it! I wasn’t sure what to think about it at first, but the characters are so different and human, if that makes sense. Frankie is just my absolute favorite and basically who I want to be when I’m older (aside from certain plot points, but still). It’s a very heart-warming and funny show with a very unique story line.
Playlist: Get Shit Done
This is a playlist I created that features a lot of hard rock songs with predominantly female vocals. It helps to get me in the zone and really get shit done, as the title implies. I listen to this a lot at work and also when I’m cleaning at home. And also just any time really because there are some really banging songs on there, if I do say so myself.
Since I was let go from my full-time job at the end of August 2017, I’ve done a variety of things to stay busy. I’ve cleaned, blogged, decluttered, journaled, meditated, watched a lot of TV shows and movies, done a lot of face masks and read.
I used to be quite the avid reader, but that’s dropped off in recent years due to a busy work schedule and just life in general.
But my friends, oh how times I’ve changed. As of February 20, I’ve read 61 books since September. Because of this, I thought it’d be fun to do a roundup of my favorite books I’ve read recently. I’m purposely not going to include books I’ve mentioned in previous posts just so I’m not repeating a lot of the same content.
So here we go!
— Hunger by Roxane Gay
I’ve read two of Roxane’s other books and really enjoyed them both, and this was no exception. I’d say this is probably the most personal of all of her books so far, and I really enjoyed this vulnerable peek into her life. As someone who’s been overweight nearly all my life, I could relate to several of the struggles and stories she mentioned in this memoir. Regardless of your weight, I think anyone could find something to relate to this book, if for nothing else that we’re all human and we all have struggles.
— Mean by Myriam Gyrba
As I’m sure you know by now, memoirs are my favorite kinds of books to read. I really enjoyed this one, but some parts of it were hard to read because of physical and sexual abuse. I love Myriam’s writing style, and I really connected to her story from the very first page.
— How to Murder Your Life by Cat Marnell
This was one of the first books I read after getting let go, and it still holds a special place in my heart. It’s another memoir, and I didn’t know anything about it before I started reading. For every other book on this list, I’d heard good things from at least one person before reading. This one just caught my eye when I was at the library one day, and I’m so glad it did. This book has very mixed reviews from what I remember, but I really enjoyed it. It’s about someone who worked their way up in the entertainment/magazine industry and had problems with drugs and such. It can get a little high brow and name drop-y at times, but that just added to why I liked it. Sometimes you just need a good juicy read that isn’t super intellectual or full of twists and turns.
— I’m Just a Person by Tig Notaro
Tig Notaro is an amazing comedian, and if you haven’t heard her stuff before, I definitely recommend looking her up on Spotify and/or YouTube immediately. She came to Fargo last summer, and I scored Josh and myself front row tickets. She’s a hilarious and wonderful person, but she’s also been through a lot of shit and she’s been very open about nearly all of it. In one year, her mom got sick and died, Tig was diagnosed with breast cancer, she had a double mastectomy and more. And yet she stayed strong and pushed through and incorporated more of her life into her comedy. My description is definitely not doing the book or her story justice, so if you’re curious at all, I highly recommend this amazing memoir.
— Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur
I feel like I’d heard about this book for at least a year or so before I finally broke down and read it. I have no idea why I waited so long to read it, but I’m glad I finally did. It was full of great imagery, heartbreaking and heartwarming poems, a very distinct writing style and more. Poetry can be so subjective, but I really enjoyed this book and her second book, The Sun and Her Flowers.
— The Princess Saves Herself In This One by Amanda Lovelace
This was without a question one of my favorite books I’ve ever read, poetry or not. I absolutely loved her writing style, and I took so many pictures of quotes of hers throughout the book. This one also had very mixed reviews, but I personally really enjoyed it.
— We Are the Ants by Shaun David Hutchinson
I almost gave up on this book so many times before starting it. I don’t know why, but the description on the book jacket just really didn’t reach out to me. But then I saw on Goodreads that it has a 4.21 with more than 14,000 ratings so I figured I should at least give it a try. On paper, I didn’t think it would like it. I’m usually not big into science fiction books, whether they’re young adult or not. This is definitely a science fiction book, but it was so different than what I was expecting. Like I said, the description didn’t sound very interesting to me but the execution of the story and the subplots was very interesting. It definitely kept my interest right until the end, and I liked it much more than I initially thought I would.
— The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas
I’ve seen so many of my friends mark this as read or want-to-read on Goodreads lately, and that makes me so happy. I think this book is so important, now more than ever. If anyone thinks young adult books don’t tackle real issues, they clearly haven’t heard of this book. Not that you can always rely on or believe ratings, but it currently has a 4.58 on Goodreads with more than 100,000 ratings. The writing was fantastic, the topics were difficult but believable, and I think it’s just such an important book given the state of our world currently.
One thing I’ve really tried to work on in the past few months is letting go of things that no longer serve me or that I no longer enjoy. Slowly but surely, I’ve been doing my best. Some things are easier to let go than others, of course, but I’m trying.
Over the last few weeks, I decided to really kick that into high gear and I’m so glad. I’m really taking inventory of what I have and what I’m doing in my life to see if it aligns with me anymore. Not surprisingly, a lot of things are getting kicked to the curb for me.
Here are a few of the things I’ve stopped doing recently that made me happier:
— I cancelled my CoSchedule account. I’ve been an avid CoSchedule user for a few years now for social media management for my blog, but recently I started to feel like it just wasn’t a good fit for me anymore. I would feel guilty for not taking advantage of the different features or if I missed scheduling posts for a few days. I think the tool works just fine for social media management. It just wasn’t for me anymore, so I finally did something about it.
— I stopped using the planner I mentioned in my favorites post last month. Yep. I felt super guilty about it because I did love it for the first month or so. It was a great starting point in my mindfulness and self-development journey, but I outgrew it. I wanted to keep using it, especially since I had just mentioned how much I loved it, but I knew my heart wasn’t in it anymore. So I stopped using it!
— I unsubscribed from a lot of newsletters and email lists. I feel like this is something I’ve been slowly working on for years basically, but like I said, I really kicked into high gear lately. There were some newsletters I was subscribed to that I felt guilty about unsubscribing from, but I just wasn’t getting value from them anymore and they were cluttering my inbox. Not anymore!
— I stopped being afraid of expressing my true self. I read a book about psychic development, which at first made me worry about what others might think. But then I realized that if other people don’t like it, they don’t have to read it.
— I stopped being afraid of starting a Facebook group. I always knew I wanted to foster a little community of awesome ladies who want to grow and connect, but my fear was holding me back for years. If it flops, who cares? I’m just trying to follow my intuition, and so far, I’m really happy and proud of The Beyoutiful Tribe. If you’re looking for a group of awesome, supportive ladies, request to join now!
I’m currently working my way through Kyle Gray’s book Raise Your Vibration: 111 Practices to Increase Your Spiritual Connection. It has a message and prompt for each day for 111 days. To be honest, I’m doing more than one lesson per day, but I’m still trying to pace myself through it.
One of the lessons I did recently called for us to write a self-love note to our younger selves and give advice, healing and acceptance. Write about anything and then keep the letter, toss it, burn it, whatever. But before you do anything with it, read it out loud to yourself.
I’ve heard of exercises like this in the past, but I’d never participated before. It was very powerful and therapeutic, so I thought I’d share my letter here in case any of you can relate. If you feel called to do so, I’d recommend trying out this exercise. You might be surprised at what you write or how you feel.
You are so much stronger than you think. Your personality makes you different, and that’s amazing. You don’t want to be like anyone else. Stay secure in who you are, and don’t worry about the rest of them.
You are beautiful. You are loved. You are worthy.
Listen to your intuition. Stay weird. Just do you.
Their mean words will fuel your desire to help others now and in the future. Don’t let them break or define you. You are exactly who and where you’re supposed to be.
It sucks that people pretend to be your friend and then lie and/or bully you. Your weight does not define you, now or ever.
You’re turning into a strong, beautiful, loving and caring woman, and you will meet your soulmate. It will get better. You’re going to be okay. You’re going to go through a lot of things that you think will break you. They don’t. You continue to rise like a Phoenix.
I love your quirkiness, empathy, passion and hunger for learning. You are amazing.
I decided to not purposely lose any weight for my upcoming wedding, and this seems like a novel/revolutionary concept to some people.
I’ve attended a few bridal expos with my fiancé, and there are always a lot of gyms, weight loss management centers, etc. in attendance. If you want to lose weight for you, go for it! As long as it’s to make you happy and not because of anyone else.
I want to look like myself on my wedding day. Yes, I’ll be wearing a fancy dress with my hair and makeup done, but I’ll still look like me.
It never even crossed my mind that I should lose weight for my wedding. I held this same mentality in high school for prom. Several of my class mates would go on diets and start tanning, but none of that appealed to me.
When I ordered my wedding dress, the sales lady asked if I wanted to order it a size or two down because many brides do that since they plan to diet before their weddings. I respectfully told her no, but inside I was so surprised. But perhaps I shouldn’t have been.
I love someone and he loves me so much that he proposed. He knows what I look like, and he genuinely thinks I’m beautiful no matter what. He’s helped me think that about myself too.
I feel almost like I’d be doing a disservice to us both by trying to lose a bunch of weight just to be skinnier on our wedding day.
If you want to lose weight for your wedding day, please don’t get offended. I just felt the need to write this because I feel like it’s become the norm for all brides to want to lose weight, and I want to give a voice to the women and even men who don’t want that.
It’s okay to not want to lose weight in your daily life or for a big event like a wedding.
Do what makes you happy, even if it’s scary to you or frowned upon by others.
So here’s the deal. Now it’s time for Thoughts for Your Thoughts (bonus points for you if you got that reference) because why not?
I’ve been unemployed for just over five months now. I never thought I’d be let go from a job, and I never thought it would take me this long to try to find a new full-time job.
The job market is pretty tough right now, and I’ve wanted to give up plenty of times. Some days have been very, very hard for me. I’ve been rejected. A lot. Emails and applications have gone unanswered. My self-worth has been a roller coaster these past few months, and lately it’s been more down than up.
Despite all the tough days, I still think everything happens for a reason. I’m glad to have gotten away from my previous employment, although I wish it was on different circumstances. I don’t think I was challenged or invested enough for it to be a long-term situation, honestly.
I can definitely say I’m a different person now. Being home alone so much has made me focus on and learn a lot about myself. And my dog, but that’s just because she’s adorable.
I’ve made some big changes in my life for things that are no longer serving me. I’ve found new books and rituals and Facebook groups to help nourish my soul. I’ve spent a lot of time writing in my journal and on this blog, looking for clarity and understanding.
Sometimes, life just sucks. And there’s no other way to phrase it.
I’ve caught myself comparing my journey with other people’s, and that’s not fair for so many reasons. No two people ever go on exactly the same journey. Just because someone else might have more money or more opportunities doesn’t necessarily mean they’re happier.
Having all this time to reflect and ponder about things has made me realize what’s really important in my life. I’ve learned I need to focus more on my family, my wedding later this year, my friendships, expanding my knowledge, writing and laughing more.
I wasn’t living to my full potential before. I don’t think I’m there yet now either, but I’m definitely getting closer.
There’s not a really good moral to wrap up this story. I just needed to take the time to be honest and vulnerable and open.
I don’t know how long it’ll be until I find a new job. Most days, that’s downright terrifying because life doesn’t stop just because you have to deal with big obstacles. I have no idea what the future will hold for me. But I’m finally starting to become more excited about the possibilities than sad about the negative circumstances.
I will not let this period break me or define me. I refuse.
I hope that no matter what you’re going through, you find the courage to step up and make changes or find ways to make it work. Life just keeps coming at us no matter what, so I’ve learned that sitting idly by, so to speak, is no longer an option for me.
Somehow it’s February already, so let’s dive into my favorites from the last month!
ShiKai Borage Therapy Hand Cream
This stuff has totally saved my skin in the last few weeks since I’ve been using it. I notice a difference in my hands right away and over time, so it’s the perfect formula for me. A little bit goes a long way, and it doesn’t take very long to soak into the skin.
Transcending Waves Planner
I’ve been using this planner since the beginning of January, and I really like it! I write in it every morning and every night, and there are recaps to work on at the end of each week and each month. It sounds a little overwhelming, but I think it’s exactly what I needed. It helps me stay mindful, present and grateful.
I love this moisturizer because it feels more like a gel so it’s very soothing when applied to the skin. It absorbs very easily, and it’s scent free. It’s a very good moisturizer for both night and day because it’s not too thick but it’s still very moisturizing.
Pacifica Cocoa Rush Anti-Fatigue Mask
I’ve been trying to do more masks and wear less makeup lately to let my skin breathe. I really like this mask because it smells faintly like chocolate and berries, and it just soothes my skin. The packaging says it’s a pudding mask, and the texture is very light and almost whipped and very moisturizing. It’s been a really nice pick-me-up for my skin, especially since it’s winter.
L’Oreal 24hr Eye Shadow: Amber Rush
I haven’t worn a lot of makeup this month, and when I have, it’s been very minimal and basic. This is probably my all-time favorite neutral eyeshadow because it’s a beautiful color that works well on its own or blended with other shadows. It has shimmer to it, but there isn’t any chunky glitter fallout. Love it!
Angel Tarot Cards by Doreen Virtue and Radleigh Valentine
I’ve never included something like this in my favorites before, but I honestly love it so I wanted to include it. There are so many decks of tarot and oracle cards out there, and everyone will vibe with decks differently. This deck may work with you or not, and that’s okay. I love these for a few reasons, including that the cards are very sturdy and they have silver edges on them. The guidebook that accompanies the deck is very helpful and informative without being over the top. I’ve only used it a few times, but the cards have been spot-on. I’m very excited to learn more about this and keep using it in the future.
Book: You Do You by Sarah Knight
I know, I know. I mentioned this in a bunch of blog posts recently, but I can’t help it. I’m working on a new post about my favorite books I’ve read in the past few months, so be on the lookout for that soon! This was exactly what I needed when I found it at the library. It helped me learn to let go of some things and learn how to put myself first and not feel guilty or shameful because of it. It’s filled with amazing quotes, and it’s a fairly quick read.
TV Show: Crazy Ex-Girlfriend
I know I’ve mentioned this show before, but it’s still one of my all-time favorite shows. They’ve always been killing it, but it’s really gone above and behind this season. They tackle bigger issues than previous seasons, and the songs have gotten even better and also more ridiculous. For example, one character sang a song about his fertile sperm. Sounds crazy, but it’s amazing.
This is a playlist I created a couple years ago, but it’s always a work in progress. It’s been a quiet, tough month, and I realized how much self-love I was lacking/needing. There’s no shame in realizing you need some help in your self-love journey, and music is greatly powerful for me.