I have taken buspar in the past, 15 mg twice a day. I didnt notice much of a difference at all for a while, buspar is a drug that needs to have constant, steady levels in the bloodstream to have any effect at all, so it takes some time to take effect. I never noticed anything life changing, it didnt make anxious thoughts go away, but it smoothed the jagged edge a bit, and i noticed less physical reactions to my anxiety. I noticed it more when i stopped taking it and the anxiety came back full force. If youre used to taking benzos, pretty much anything you switch to afterwords will feel like its not doimg nearly as much, but give it a while to see what it really does, its much less risky in the long run.
My room is always a reflection of my mood at any given time. One of my first indicators of an oncoming manic episode is when i have the sudden urge to detail clean my entire room, usually kn the middle of the night. Im a manic cleaner, Im a happy clam when i can do nothing but clean for hours 😁
The reverse is also true, when im depressed, its like i live in a barn. My room even kinda smells funky, some of you know the smell im talking about 😂😂
But studies have shown that clutter contributea to anxiety, and people report less depression when their living spaces are tidy.
If it bothers you, just start small. Start by taking all of the dirty dishes in your room to the sink next time you leave your room, sometimes just taking one small step will build you some momentum and youll find the motivation to do one more little thing, until you find its cleaner. At the very least, it will help with the smell 😂
Medication is supposed to help manage symptoms, which means you might not have any symptoms while on meds. After I found the right meds, I didn’t have symptoms and continue not to after almost a year. It can change, or it might not be as effective as it is for me right now.
It depends. I never told me therapist before I went to treatment, but that was due to my need to manipulate and remain hidden from attention, not direct fear of hospitalization.
If you’re feeling suicidal, even without a specific plan, I recommend telling your professional support, whether it’s a therapist or psychiatrist. They can help you manage it, whether that means hospitalization, outpatient help, more therapy sessions, med changes, etc.
I used to dissociate sometimes when I was having some sort of trauma reaction to a trigger, or when I was engaging in certain really unhealthy behaviors. I don’t know the medical aspect of it, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s a huge thing in bipolar.