First thing that comes to mind is: do you have a pet? They’ll be messed up if you go away. You’re probably the only one who truly loves and cares about the pets. Do you like animals? You’ll never get to see or interact with a cute cat or dog again. That’s what keeps me going. Be good and kind for the animals.
Please if y’all don’t mind: pitch in reasons
If it’s urgent, if this is active suicidal, please please call 911/emergency services, I’ve been in psych hospitals, as long as you don’t argue back and keep your head down, they’re really not bad
20:01 - I’m just going to stop eating for a bit. I have to get checked at the doc in a bit and I need my body clean. They have this restrictive diet for me but I think I’m just going to do the liquids. I don’t want to do this, I’m just paranoid I’ll fuck up the results.
22:25 - I was particularly hungry today so I filled up on rice cakes, lentils, and a boiled sweet potato. I felt so gross that when I went to urinate I stood over the toilet to purge but stopped myself.
“You’ve already got a migraine brewing. And you KNOW if you purge you’ll just get even hungrier.”
So I didn’t purge. I feel good about this. I’m also going to see about eating more nuts.