“The man just opened his mouth, which meant that all kinds of secret doors in his body gave way. He did not sing so much as let his soul free.  - Ray Bradbury, "Green Shadows, White Whale"   Pausing is dangerous.  Free time is my enemy.  Boredom is not an option.  Downtime cannot be considered. Last night I was restless.  Those are the worst nights, huh?  When you are quite ready to embrace a good nights sleep and the wide-open-eyed event begins.  I’ve heard some describe it as a blessing.  One individual that I knew who suffered from insomnia dec ..read more

via GIPHY Puedo Escribir Pablo Neruda Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche. Escribir, por ejemplo: 'La noche está estrellada, y tiritan, azules, los astros, a lo lejos.' El viento de la noche gira en el cielo y canta. Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche. Yo la quise, y a veces ella también me quiso. En las noches como ésta la tuve entre mis brazos. La besé tantas veces bajo el cielo infinito. Ella me quiso, a veces yo también la quería. Cómo no haber amado sus grandes ojos fijos. Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche. Pensar que no la tengo. Sentir ..read more

“Nothing is so painful to the human mind as a great and sudden change.”  -Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley, Frankenstein I had decided that Hoarsely Cry was keeping a corpse propped up in the corner of the house.  Boldly proclaiming to be “over her” had some truth to it, but I humbly admit that I’ll never completely be “over her”.  And, although this had become a project of curating beautiful poems, songs, art, and passages of truth - the real truth was that I kept pretending like the corpse was six feet under.  So, I quit. This weekend, I ran into a friend I had not seen in ..read more

It is an absolute fact that I loathe the mother of my children.  It’s not the best place to be in.  I was taught to love everyone regardless of who they are or what they have done.  I think that you can both loathe and love, but I’m not at “love” with her yet. Have I forgiven her?  Probably not.  These reflections still exist - although no longer daily rants, they still exist.  In “Plan B:  Further Thoughts on Faith” Anne Lamott writes, “Forgiveness means it finally becomes unimportant that you hit back.  You’re done.  It doesn’t necessarily mea ..read more

Sophie Calle, Take Care of Yourself . Installation View . Paula Cooper Gallery . 2009 . Image:  Paula Cooper Gallery “You talk when you cease to be at peace with your thoughts; And when you can no longer dwell in the solitude of your heart you live in your lips, and sound is a diversion and a pastime. And in much of your talking, thinking is half murdered.” -Khalil Gibran, The Prophet "The one who has knowledge uses words with restraint,     and whoever has understanding is even-tempered. Even fools are thought wise if they keep silent,     and discerning if they ho ..read more

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“All goes onward and outward, nothing collapses,  And to die is different from what any one supposed, and luckier.”  - Walt Whitman ​  “Life is for the living. Death is for the dead. Let life be like music. And death a note unsaid.” -Langston Hughes I shared lyrics to a song a couple of weeks back that has become my most recent life anthem.  Girls “Hellhole Ratrace” is a beautiful ‘end of credits’ type song that gives me a sense of mission - a feeling of wanting to engage and make a difference and embrace everyone I love at the same time.  This is a rare selection t ..read more

“True spiritual love is not a feeble imitation and anticipation of death, but a triumph over death, not a separation of the immortal form from the mortal, of the eternal from the temporal, but a transfiguration of the mortal into the immortal, the acceptance of the temporal into the eternal. False spirituality is a denial of the flesh; true spirituality is the regeneration of the flesh, its salvation, its resurrection from the dead.” - Vladimir Solovyov, The Meaning of Love “After death something new begins, over which all powers of the world of death have no more might.” - Dietrich Bonhoeffe ..read more

                           Caravaggio . La Deposizione di Cristo . c.1602-1603 “An unbelieved truth can hurt a man much more than a lie. It takes great courage to back truth unacceptable to our times. There's a punishment for it, and it's usually crucifixion.” -John Steinbeck, East of Eden Black Saturday is a quiet day.  It is a day after death.  It is a day when you think that the story has ended.  It is a day when the story is beginning.  If you are brokenhearted, I hope you understand that, though th ..read more

    Cicada No. 7 . 24" x 24" oil on wood panel . 2019 . Amos Oaks “Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favourite wishes every day and death of your whole body in the end: submit with every fibre of your being, and you will find eternal life.” - C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity “Remember Jesus of Nazareth, staggering on broken feet out of the tomb toward the Resurrection, bearing on his body the proud insignia of the defeat which is victory, the magnificent defeat of the human soul at the hands of God.” -Frederick Buechner, The Magnificent Defeat I make effort to deliver col ..read more