Hello! It has been a while since I last posted a blog on here, so long it seems that even our world is in a very different place to what it was one year ago.  Coronavirus aside (as I am sure we are all fed up of hearing the dreaded 'C' word) I wanted to update any person who has read this as much as possible and hopefully give you a little lightness, good news and giggle along the way.  I have never really considered myself as a ‘blogger’. I had envisaged using this platform as a way of producing transparency into my thoughts and feelings for my friends and family to get a real ins ..read more

‘A body without bones would be a limp impossible mess. So a day without steady routine would be disruptive and chaotic’ What we sometimes misinterpret and are unwilling to accept is that routine really does play a key role within human lifestyle. Take routine away and there will be an initial gain of freedom and opportunity which over time quickly turns monotonous and unvaried. My privilege of routine was seized from me in conclusion to my retrograde amnesia and this was leading me into a very dark world.  As I have already mentioned in my previous blogs; I now accept that I most definite ..read more

Today, 3rd March 2019 is just an ordinary day for many people. But for me this has been a distinguishable date of anticipation over the last couple of years. So much so I have made a point of over indulging in pleasurable activities on this particular weekend. This time last year, I was on the slopes tackling my first ever (after memory loss) ski lesson - in the words of my dad ‘it was like a duck taking to water’. This time two years ago, I was filled with anxiety prepping for a masquerade charity ball (blog to follow!) I had organised in order to raise funds for The Brain & Spine foundat ..read more

Where would we be without our wonderful friends? The people who weren’t born to be a blood relation but are destined to be our family by coincidence and choice.  ‘My friends are like fairytales, they’ve been there since once upon a time and will be there until forever after’  In this particular blog post, I want to introduce you to some of my friends that I met in the first and second week of my diagnosis. I am blessed to have all of the friends that I do and will be forever grateful that they were willing to take the time the befriend me once again. Evie, the first friend I shed rea ..read more

Social media has become a routine for many of us to visit regularly throughout the day. It enables us to express our opinions, join new communities, interconnect with people from all across the world and much more. The initial platform for social media was to interact with friends online. Now many businesses delegate huge spends into it and use it as a tool to promote themselves or products. Never did I realise the huge impact social media beholds over us, until the story about Bish (Richard) and I went viral.  The 8th February 2017 was the date my story became common knowledge. Overnight we ..read more

Although it has nearly been three years since my initial hospital admission for retrograde amnesia, I feel that I am still trapped in the world of seizures and memory issues. I am still recovering to this day and I am not afraid or ashamed to admit that. But what is recovery?  The Oxford English Dictionary explains it as ‘A normal State of Health, Mind or strength’  On the outside, I probably look ‘normal’ or fit society’s expected perception. When you first speak to me, although initially a little slow and unable to form a coherent sentence (and sometime struggling with lethologica ..read more

People often ask ‘What is it like to loose your memory?’ In which I used to find hard the words to describe. But what do they really mean by ‘your memory?’ Memory: The dictionary definition is – the faculty by which the mind stores and remembers It’s coming up to two years since my life went into turmoil. Questions that both you and I ask still have no answers and I often wish I had a sign over my forehead or scar across my face to remind people that I am still in recovery. I am that girl that suffers with retrograde amnesia and the hide and seek illness that is epilepsy. People often ..read more

It’s amazing how anyone can adjust to a life long illness. I, back in 2010 was diagnosed with frontal lobe epilepsy. Epilepsy:  For those of you that don’t know, it is aneurological disorder marked by sudden recurrent episodes of sensory disturbance, loss of consciousness, or convulsions, associated with abnormal electrical activity in the brain. After fighting a loosing battle with many medications I finally settled on two that gave me the least side effects in 2015, Levetiracetam and Lamotrigine. At the beginning of this year, I had a massive seizure…typical! Start the year as you mea ..read more