Thank You Body For Loving Me
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COVID-19 Quarantine (8 months since attempt)
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COVID-19 Quarantine  8 Months Since Attempt Picture taken today :) The COVID-19 pandemic will definitely make history and it has made for some interesting experiences. I am the type that likes to be out of the house and stay busy because if not busy, I get lost in my own thoughts, I get bored, and then I become "lazy" and I hate the feeling of doing nothing. I feel guilty if I am just sitting there. During this quarantine, I have had to face some of my biggest emotional fears while Ian still goes to work and I am at home. At first I was so nervous that I would revert back to m ..read more
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Moving forward from suicide and all
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It has been about 3 weeks since I experienced my first genuine happiness in such a long time. I am glad to say that the happiness is still there and I am enjoying the feeling. There are still days when the depression takes over, but I feel like I am able to overcome it quicker each day. I am still finding motivation from day to day. I find motivation to complete my homework and do house work each day.  I am so grateful that Ian and I moved and that we have been able to find peace. It's definitely still not fine and dandy, but it is getting there. I feel like Ian and I are able to grow cl ..read more
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Genuine Happiness
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This week has been an incredible one. After a few conversations and situations the past few weeks, I have been able to process and come to terms with some things in my life. On Wednesday, February 5th, I woke up with the best feeling. I woke up feeling happy, actual genuine happiness. I haven't felt genuine happiness for a very long time. I forgot what happiness felt like. I was on my way to work and I teared up thinking about what I was feeling and thought, for the first time in forever, "I am so glad to be alive and to be here." I have had energy, motivation, and a desire to do my homework ..read more
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Today, I choose.
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Today, I choose It's interesting how some things affect you. For example, one word said to you could be a trigger, could be an insult, could be hurtful, could be a compliment, or doesn't have to mean anything at all. This week has been very eye opening for me with conversations I have encountered. This week has been healing, eye opening, and even hurtful. I want to make something clear about mental illness. Someone can struggle with mental illness for days, months, and years, without letting anyone know. It takes a lot of courage and strength to let someone know. To tell someone, for me, was ..read more
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New Year Goal: Continue on Living
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New Year Goal: Continue on LivingNo one ever tells you about how hard the life struggles will be. I don't think any of us can truly comprehend the difficulty unless we are going or have gone through trials. We may be able to imagine, but, for me, I don't think I never really knew. As the new year begins, everyone is making their goals and posting on Facebook, stuff like, "It has not been an easy year, but that's behind me now." Or, "I made my weight goal, now...." I honestly have no idea what I want my goals to be. I guess, one of them, I want to feel good. Feeling good, for example, would b ..read more
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The move to Spokane: Scoping
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The Move to Spokane Scoping Depression is interesting. It can hit you like a brick or it can hit you like mist. Some days, I feel the depression so strong that it is difficult to want to do anything. I'm exhausted. I have definitely felt the depression more strongly since we got my anxiety under control. This move to Washington was great, but it has also been one of the most difficult things I have done. It is the first time, since my LDS mission, where I have moved away from family. It is the first time I have moved somewhere because I wanted to and because I had to. It is the first time I h ..read more
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Not so Stressed Out: Road to New Adventures
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Not So Stressed Out Road to New Adventures I have been impressed with myself. Moving is not easy especially adding selling a home and moving across state lines. However, I haven't experienced increased anxiety revolved around moving. I have been able to take it one step and one room at a time. I haven't had to make a list. I have been able to make Christmas treats for my friends this week, I have been able to relax, I have been able to do laundry and pack up most of the house. I haven't been stressed at all this week. I went to dinner with my book club and they mentioned that I don't se ..read more
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Pros and Cons List For Living: Thoughts and Update on My Success
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Pros and Cons List for Living Thoughts and Update on My Success Christmas Day will make 5 months since I attempted Suicide. Ian and I have made a lot of decisions since then and we are making progress. We went to a funeral in Washington in November for Ian's grandma. While there, we loved it and we talked about living there. When we got home I began my job search and got offered a job within a week. With that news we began planning. Our house is up for sale and we found a place to rent in Washington. Everything has been falling into place and are ready to move middle of December. Overall, we ..read more
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The Suicide Note: Feeling Guilty that I feel Guilty
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Feeling Guilty that I feel Guilty The Suicide Note Ian's grandma passed away unexpectedly on Monday. We made flight arrangements to attend the funeral this weekend. I couldn't help think, "I wish it was my funeral he was attending." "I wish it was me who had died." I haven't told Ian any of these thoughts because I feel it would be selfish to put that on him while he is mourning the loss of his grandmother. In therapy on Tuesday, we did more empty chair therapy with recognizing my "guilty protector." In doing so, I didn't want face the thought that I feel guilty about wanting to die and I fee ..read more
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