It's been so long since I wrote. But then when I see people read my blog, and say how much they relate. It compels me to write more. I thought that I don't have much to write anymore. Same old issues, same old stories. I even didn't want to write thinking that the issues I mentioned would probably dilute the matter with too many posts. But then I write today because something recently struck me hard. A conversation with a love interest who is looking for a partner, realized that I talked a lot about my previous love .Which I didn't know was so obvious. But I clearly didn't move on. After may ..read more

Sometimes when you are gay, you are isolated, there are no mentors to guide you what is right and what is wrong. You have to tread carefully and move forward. With all the experience that I have gained so far, I would have to see what is gonna work and what doesn't. A few things that I would want to tell my younger self if I were to meet him. 1) They are as scared as you are - I remember the days when I used to ask a hundred questions before I share my photos. I was worried that I would be blackmailed, that I would be raped, and that the guys would kidnap and sell me off. Yes, all this does ..read more

To be raw about my feelings, you should know that I am a very normal person in real, and at times I wish I was a bit more comfortable with my sexuality. And it happens very rarely. Especially if I am with a Man. When I am with a sturdy man, I automatically feel so... Comfortable. I miss being touched around my waist. I miss the hands that hold my wrist while passing. I miss the gaze that hits my soul. I miss the short texts we exchange. The small fights we have, the small ways we get back together. How a simple hi would make my day. Something about how they are not desperate for you. Yet you ..read more

I must say that I honestly got into fitness because I got rejected from them all when I was young. How much ever I believed in love, I realized that at the end of the day in the gay world looks speak volume. From a fat ugly potato I trained. From a nerdy guy that I was I got into modelling. It was just recently that for a show I had to wear a loosely clad dhoti,and all those guys who used to  ignore me, especially this one accountant guy, who travels a lot, he and I used to text initially and then he seemed to be busy with all the other guys. Just after this, he starts to text and tell ..read more

Somewhere down the line, Karma started working in a completely different way for me. Something that is absurd yet logical. Every time I am in a situation where I am hurt or distressed, I used to want to see the other person go through the same agony as me, but what happens to me atleast is that I would be pushed to a situation where I become the other person, and I would be forced to make the same decision. For example, I was with a guy long back, who was dating a girl. Outside, he would show all this love to the girl and that would make me feel insecure. I eventually left him feeling bad for ..read more

usually walk of shame happens when you have had sex with a total stranger, and you just regret to have done that while getting back home in the morning. But, to me it was different. Some few months back, I met this guy, he was really smart. well behaved and very talented. Mind you, I didn't meet him on any apps, but for work. Everytime he comes to work, he gives special attention to me, while other men "see", he "watches" me. While other man just touch, he "feels" me. He used to openly make it clear that he is there to see me and me only. I used to feel so special. But I never had the guts to ..read more

I am usually someone who keeps it minimal when it comes to getting physical, and yet I can say that I have had the best sex, almost every time I have gotten physical. I take time to see if the person matches the wave length and I usually go for Versatile men, although some Tops and Bottoms do seem legit. Even in my relationships, I have believed that I hate sex, but I love "Making Love"!. I personally feel that making love is empowering and extremely good for the body and mind. Some Tips on how to make love that I found to be a great experience with men. Kissing - I love passionate kissing ..read more

Having written about people who have dated both younger and older guys, I felt that I need to talk about the younger guys. As I was younger, may be to my own preference, I didn't like to date younger guys, but as I grow older, I feel that they have more substance, than I ever did, back in the age, in fact, Some guys are much more mature and worldly than the older men. Energy - I feel that younger guys have a lot of energy. They want to do a lot of things, they can spend more time, and energy on you. In fact, they are not tied down by responsibilities of an adult that they are carefree and ha ..read more

Its very common for a boy to fall for those guys in class. To me, I have had many such crushes throughout my life. As far as I can remember, I have liked guys who are ambitious and cute. Guys who are sturdy and manly. One of those guys I liked when I was in 10th, used to sit next to me. I used to annoy him all the time. But he would still sit next to me. He wasn't the most good looking, but he was very smart, and ambitious. I loved that in him, but he never paid any attention to me than what he would give the others. Moving on, I was using the "app" with such disappointment, and there  w ..read more

Most the apps prefer dating older men. Including me, I would dated someone younger but I preer someone older as I feel that they are in my wavelength. But may be most people prefer for few the these reasons which I think you can relate to. Feeling of being protected - Sometimes we end up being a "grown up" all the time that you like it when someone else take that space. You feel like there is some one elder to you and that gives you a safe space. Whether they are really that way, is something to debate on, but being an indian, you end up giving them the due respect anyway. When someone elder ..read more