Fat-Shaming  noun noun: fat-shaming the action or practice of humiliating someone judged to be fat or overweight by making mocking or critical comments about their size. "the star endured fat shaming and cyberbullying for the weight she gained while pregnant" adjective adjective: fat-shaming expressing mockery or criticism about someone judged to be fat or overweight. "she refuses to resort to extreme dieting because of fat-shaming bullies" Fit- Shaming:   Claiming that people who are active, healthy and God forbid have the slightest care about thei ..read more

Firstly, I apologize for such a tremendous gap in my blogs.  I literally have 7 drafts typed of material I have been waiting to publish, but as times change so do topics. Here is a boring blah synopsis of my daily life (skip this paragraph for less bordem), So currently I am sitting in my home- Week 3 of quarantine, laid off from work, let me remind you that in my mindset ( Every job that brings money to the table to support a family is essential for that household). getting stir crazy, the appeal of television, social media, and electronics have far surpassed the boredom stage.  M ..read more

If you haven't heard the news, God blessed our little Angel, Adley Rose Baxter, into the world on Monday, May 20th 2019.   4 weeks early (late term preemie) surprise that immediately brightened our lives.  The most eye opening experience for me being a new mom is how we do not give mothers enough credit at all.  The first week home the days, the hours and the minutes blurred together.  Night and Day meshed into one continuous day and soon enough Adley was already 1 week old. However. Although my bundle of joy is a precious gem and I love being her Mama - My mental ..read more

So if you haven't heard the news by now, I am pregnant with my first child. My husband and I are blessed with this miracle as I have been told since I was about 11 that I would never be able to birth children due to the extensive damage and Infertility damage I caused with my bulimia nervosa. When I first found out the news,  believe me I was in shock, I still am to an extent. Trying to wrap my head around the fact that in 6 short months I will be a Mom. As exciting as it seems, here is the fact. I am terrified of becoming a mother. I am terrified of knowing my life has to change. From e ..read more

Do you ever get that feeling that you are being a shitty friend? A terrible sister? A horrible mother , teacher, acquaintance, coworker...you get the point. We are all hard on ourselves. We critque ourselves harshly and judge others critically and at the end of the day we are living our life hoping to impress others. My grandfather- probably one of the most intellectual, blunt and honest man I have met told me- "We live our lives to impress others. We buy things we can't afford to impress people we don't like." I know this has been quoted over the years by many different people however this st ..read more

I have been getting more questions about my training lately and how I stay sane during my prep and keep my workouts up.  My mindset is simple. I train the same regardless of if I am in prep or not. I smash out heavy weights, maintain quality form and dont use the excuse of having "lack of carbs" prevent me from lifting what I know I can get.  I have pushed my body to extremes , but I also am very aware of pains and aches and will take rest days and back off training sessions if my body doesn't feel up to par.  I train hard.  I always do warmup sets of about 10% my max w ..read more

I have been having one of those weeks. A week where I am doubting my worth, my depression is elevated and believe it or not I have questioned myself as to whether I am even good enough to continue competing in the sport of bodybuilding. Here's the truth though - we all go through these phases. It's the hard part of prep. The part no one tells you about or talks about. I began to question my potential, I thought my progress had plateaued, I thought I looked fat, I hated myself for struggling through a workout. These are thoughts that many of us competitors have from time to time. Contest prep ..read more

Growth comes from getting out of your comfort zone.  Get comfortable being uncomfortable . I have been striving to become an IFBB Pro for along time. It's my goal and my vision and my dream.  My time will come and I want to ensure that I always try my hardest and push myself to my limits without injury. Bodybuilding is a journey of self discovery, of fulfillment, of accomplishing something that many do not have the mental capacity to push through it. This also means that you cannot be afraid to fail. You cannot be scared to let the weight fall. You cannot be scared if you accide ..read more

Prep season is upon us and many of my fellow friends and competitors are prepping themselves for their next season of competitions, I am also included with this group.  As we all wrap up the first few months  of the new year and venture harder into our diets and cuts for stage, I always like to make mention of some of the common issue I personally deal with during my prep season, which I am sure some of you can relate too. My family is very accustomed to my crazy diets for my shows. Personally, I try to warn my family about a month in advance so that they are aware of my food int ..read more

Do you remember how you started your fitness journey? Who was there along the way to help and guide you? Every one of us started out the same way, we chose a lifestyle change and did it. We all had to start out in a new environment and face the intimidation factor, the anxiety of starting something new and the chance to make a new hobby for yourself. As each of us go through our journey we meet individuals who support us and guide us into the direction that we are hoping to achieve. I wanted to bring attention to this because as we all go through our fitness journeys we sometimes forget how ..read more