I've been feeling very triggered for a couple days after therapy. I only go 2 or 3 times a month, and I'm not sure if it's because I suppress my emotions until therapy or something, but I always find myself in a tailspin of remembering things and feeling old feelings etc afterwards. Maybe I suppress all those things until I get to a therapy session, then she helps me let it out and it takes me a few days to get my walls back up? I'm not sure. I'm just wondering if this is normal or at least if it happens to other people. Since I've only begun experiencing trauma symptoms of a 13-year-old abus ..read more

Your environment has placed these landmines all over you. Making it hard for you to really be in touch with yourself and viewing the world in a neutral manner. You have to be on guard, being in a parasympathetic nervous system isn’t beneficial for you. You are forced to fight your environment, you are not allowed to rest. You are being conditioned, that resting is equating to being okay with a landmine blowing up in your face. This creates a dysregulated nervous system where you feel more safe in survival mode than in self soothe mode. This makes you attached to your trauma. The same story is ..read more

Hi, ive been reading "no bad parts" and learning about interanl family systems, however he talks about it but doesnt really give us any exercises to heal our exiles only to build trust with our managers and protectors.. can someone please point me in the right direction? submitted by /u/Socialmediasucks2021 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Before I go into my story. I'm just wondering, did/does anyone else suffer from Selective Mutism? I don't mind, that you trauma dump me either. I would really like to hear your story. Here's mine. I'm 31F. I know I did because I was sexually assaulted, when I was 6 to the day I left my family. I was sexually assaulted from 6-16 years by the so called dad. Also by my mother from since I could remember to 22, when I left my family 9 years ago. Every time I was sexually assaulted, it was hard for me to talk. It felt like I had a lump in my throat, so it just created this stutter and I couldn't t ..read more

It doesn’t get better. There is no such thing as a safe relationship. I don’t trust anyone. Not a single other human being. Every time I try to trust someone and develop any kind of relationship, the fact that I do not trust them ultimately leads to them leaving. This just makes the trust and abandonment issues worse in a hideous cycle. It does not get better. I don’t know what I am supposed to do. I am so angry at everyone who gave me this trauma growing up. I could have been normal or just had normal amounts of childhood trauma. Large portions of my memories are missing. I have zero reliabl ..read more

Its something i heard a while back idk where, that feeling your feelings is keeping you from moving on or something? Like it’s not actually helping you process the bad things? Does anyone know more about this or have any insight? submitted by /u/threowawae [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I just feel so lonely in the fact that my parents weren't authoritarian or directly abusive or stuff like that (but there wasn't much warmth either, pretty much uninvolved as well). It seems more common. But I've read research on it, and children with permissive parents have a harder time going through school, getting a job, all that kind of stuff than kids with healthy parents. Having had permissive parents feels like the most invisible trauma ever. It feels like it would take hours to explain why this kind of parenting actually can fuck you up real bad too. I guess most people just see lazy ..read more

I have been feeling so much anger against my father recently for being such a pathetic coward lil man, leaving me to the mercy of my schizophrenic narcissistic mother, constantly getting abused, in every which way. And he acts in such a spineless manner when held accountable for his actions like "what do you want me to do? I can't really change now this is who I am" and he has been constantly trying to weasel his way into my life, interfering with my sense of safety, healing etc because HE feels lonely. I feel so much disgust for him now and I feel like I will never be able to have sound rela ..read more

Title. I could use some support as I'm completely lost and dealing with a lot while being in between therapists. A month ago, my best friend of 10 years blocked me and the rest of my friend group ghosted, unfriended, and abandoned me without saying a word after I tried to open up about realizing I have some type of OSDD/DID that was realized when I started EMDR. A few months prior I was fired from my therapist. I got on the waiting list for a practice that specializes with dissociative disorders and CPTSD, and today I found out I mad missed calls as voicemails from them a bit over a week ago ..read more

Does anyone else feel this way? Im not dismissing anyone's struggles but I feel like i shouldnt possibly be alive right now yet here i am. How did i even manage to stay alive, idk. Disclaimer, i am not actively suicidal right now, but i casually entertain suicide ideation everyday out of habit. I dont even think too much of it. Like it's just a normal thing to do. Im 23f, i genuinely have nothing going for me, unemployable, didnt finish college, been on my own for a very long time. Traumatic backstory blahbla. Zero help or support. But i choose to stay, i guess as a form of punishment. I dont ..read more