Yes I'm back In one piece Just about I guess it's nearly a year since I stopped writing I thought it was over I thought it had come to a natural end But It seems that's not the case I never forgot you Every single one of you I missed writing I missed you I'm not sure what this blog is going to be now I'm not entrenched in the illness the way I once was I have a life now I have a job I have a car I'm doing a course I have a wonderful man in my life Who deals with my crazy ass every damn day and still hasn't walked So I guess it's a case of let's see where this goes Seven years since I stArted w ..read more

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Hello friends I’m afraid that time has come  Time to say goodbye  I rarely check blogger now And life is shooting forward so much so that I don’t have time to write  I may come back  I may start a new blog I don’t know yet What I do know is that thi blog  That I started writing in 2012 Is no longer a necessity in my life And blogger seems to be dead in the water anyway I guess this is a good thing  I no longer need the support of writing  I used to write every day religiously  About my ED But EDs no longer interest me the way they used to When I was unwe ..read more

Hello friends Apologies for the lack of posts in December It was a tricky enough month Which saw me have a few drinks  And then promptly stopped when I realized it was becoming more than an occasional thing Christmas came and went  I had one small meltdown  Which didn’t last long and I got over it fairly quickly  Food wise  I am doing ok Got out of routine g over the holidays  But am now back on track I saw my doctor yesterday  While I was in the waiting room I met a woman who I have seen in about a year  She said to me ‘Have I got the right person? Are ..read more

Another month Another update It's strange to think that I used to blog every single day  Without fail And given that I had no life to speak of I don't know what I had to write about  But as you know  EDs are all consuming  You eat or not eat, sleep and breathe it  It's everything and yet it's nothing  It seems to be the only important thing  But when you take a step back  You can see it for the life sucking, draining vacuum that it is I don't preach  And I don't tell people what to do recovery wise I know everyone has to live their own life  An ..read more

Hello friends I don't know how many people still read and follow this blog It still gets a couple of hundred hits a day  So I'm thinking there are still a few of you This blog has changed since its birth some five and a half years ago It was an ED blog Thenna recovery blog But now it's more like a life blog  A living blog A keep going despite everything blog A don't give up blog Life is good for me And might I add I am the heaviest I've ever been and I couldn't give a hoot When they need to remove a wall from my home to get me out of the house with a forklift  Then I will worry ..read more

Don't you just love Autumn? I think it's my favourite of all the seasons Today is the first of October The leaves are falling  The colours are beautiful It's cold enough to wrap up in warm jumpers and scarves Love it all! September was a month of highs and lows I finished work I celebrated my birthday Then On the 17th I travelled three hours away to Westport for a little holiday  I've been talking about this holiday for quite some time It's a package where you stay three nights in the hotel And the manager of the hotel also owns stables so you can do a mountain trek one day And a bea ..read more

And so it is September Where did the summer go? I finished up work last Thursday  So am a free little bird again  I thoroughly enjoyed work this year Once I got in to it And got over my anxiety I relaxed  And just went with the flow No panic No stress No worrying and questioning myself  Not taking myself too seriously  And just enjoying it It's a lovely place to work I made new friends  My manager is a very fair and sound person  And there is a very friendly and informal atmosphere  My manger asked me if I was willing to do some work in the residential h ..read more

I can quite believe that the summer is over I finish up work next week But my manager asked me if I was interested in doing cover for employees going on holiday  I said I would as I think it's a good thing to get my foot in the door there I think back to May When I was just starting  I honestly thought I wouldn't get through it I thought my anxiety and fear would get the better of me But four months later  Here I am finishing up And feeling so good that I stuck it out  And got through it  And do you know what? I thoroughly enjoyed it I made some new friends  Got t ..read more

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