“When you survive loss… everyone is quick to tell you how strong you are, and how tough you must be. But actually, no one has a choice to survive grief do they… it’s not optional. You just have to cry in the shower, sob in your pillow, and pray you will make it” – Zoe Clark-Coates “Everything happens for a reason”… In the 6 plus months that I gained an angel, I’ve navigated a life waiting for the reason to come along. What I have learned is that all too often people do not speak of it. All too often people navigate through life feeling lost and alone. I swore when it happened, that one day I w ..read more

I need to start by saying sorry. Sorry to my readers, supporters, and friends that I have been away for so long. Life… that is all I can say. I hope you are all well and kicking ass, and taking names!!! Today on a day that sadness as found me, I have thought of loss. When one losses someone, it is customary to attempt to up lift them and tell them things that may support those actions. Often times it is something along the lines of “it will get easier”, “Time heals” or even Something like, “it’s going to be okay”. Well the more and more I have thought about it over the years, the more and more ..read more

Hello Everyone!  I hope that this post finds all of you having a fantastic and loving holiday season. I have been thinking what I can do new and I would love to offer one of you the opportunity to share your story or to write a post.  If you’re interested in being a guest writer, please email me a small snippet of your story or why you would like to share to: undefeateddiva@gmail.com.  The guest writer will be selected this Sunday night!  I can’t wait to hear your stories!!! Please don’t be shy to share. You can stay anonymous if you choose.  With so much love,  M ..read more

“Being Happy doesn’t always make us grateful, but being grateful will always make us happy” It was the day before Thanksgiving 2 years ago, when I first felt you. It was a day of first’s and a day that will be with me until my last breath. I am grateful everyday, but today I most grateful for that day. The day I felt you. The day before Thanksgiving two years ago, was the day I felt my son kick for the first time. I was sitting at the counter watching my mom cook when suddenly I felt my stomach drop. It was a feeling that wouldn’t go away, so I finally told my mom I was going to ..read more

Good Evening everyone, I have the most amazing support team, but I want to thank you all for being there for me as well. You’re wonderful and I appreciate you reading and showing me such support and love via emails and comments. So I wanted to share some beauty with all of you.  Here’s to another beautiful sunset! Although shadowed by the hospital, it is beautiful.  Happy Friday night my peeps. Tonight I shall Netflix and chill :). Oh and need I not forget nebulize/infuse.  Xo, Me ..read more

We all have our things, small things we can’t live without. When I am in the hospital, I need to be able to wash my hair (shhh random I know), I need snacks to balance the sugar drops in the middle of the night from steroids, I need my 10ft charger, but above all I need a good damn cup of coffee!!!! Truly any day I need good coffee, but more so when I am in the hospital or going through treatments.  Unfortunately, there is no good coffee place here in the hospital. So I’m feeling like my friend below! Please send coffee!  maybe the universe will deliver… or maybe I need to just go ..read more

You know you weren’t feeling well when you’re happy to be in the hospital… okay maybe not happy to be in the hospital, but happy to be receiving treatment.  After struggling for 8 long days with breathing problems, I drove myself to the ER. Having put myself on the regimen of steroids and Nebulizer treatements and only progressively getting worse, I  agreed to being admitted. Currently sitting in the dark looking out my windows thanking my higher power for the opportunity to receive treatment.  I can’t tell you guys how many times I’ve dreaded the hospital stays. Dreaded the ine ..read more

I know Hair loss is a characteristic of Lupus BUT I truly do not know how I have hair on my head! The clumps are getting worse and my bald spot is back.  I am in  search for new remedies, any suggestions? What do you guys do? Maybe bald is the way to go! Sincerely,  Undefeated me ..read more

Another night spent awake. If I was honest with myself, I would say it’s been going on for weeks. Waking up in the middle of the night/wee hours of the morning. I sleep maybe an hour or two straight and then wake. It has become utterly frustrating . I’d like to pinpoint why this round insomnia is happening, but I seem to be coming up short. Some nights it’s pain related, other nights my thoughts get the best of me. Then there are those nights where there is nothing… no thoughts, no excessive pain… nothing at all. I just lye here, awake.  Most wouldn’t understand. I’ve tried everything fro ..read more

Like so many people around the world, I have been glued to the Olympics as much as I can. I am a very proud Puerto Rican woman by nature, but I am elated to share… The first Gold Medal EVER for Puerto Rico was achieved by Monica Puig a 22 year old, Puerto Rican Woman!!!  http://www.justjared.com/2016/08/13/monica-puig-wins-puerto-ricos-first-gold-medal-at-the-rio-olympics-2016/ Screaming from the rafters!  Xoxo, Me!  ..read more