Have you ever missed a person so much it physically hurt you? And just seemed to drag you down further into the oubliette of internal darkness you can’t escape? With no solution, no cure, no way out. No way to fix it. And the worst part is - the person still lives. I don’t know I’ve ever heard of something as cruel as that. I am grateful for the good, and the love, and the positive I do have in my life. But this void often feels heavier than anything else. I can’t breathe. submitted by /u/JeanHarleen [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

After high school everything just went downhill. The public school system is the only structure I’ve ever had. Yet at the same time, I hated school due to being forced to learn subjects I had no interest in. By the time I was in college, I had no idea what I wanted to do and still don’t. Deep inside, I think I would rather die than slave away to an unfulfilling life. Even literally, my vision has been fading away. I believe I developed depersonalization because I feel like I’m watching myself live, never truly in the moment.. I think I’m at the end of my rope. submitted by /u/PresentBeing686 ..read more

I’ve been depressed for a little over 6 years now, but I can never even really remember being happy in the first place. I know I could never actually do it for fear that it wouldn’t work and that would just be embarrassing. I’m in my senior year and I have no clue what I’m going to do. I can’t remember a day where I woke up and didn’t think “hopefully this is my last day”. I’ve always felt out of place in social settings and with my family. I have nobody to talk to about this shit and I really don’t know what to do. My life just feels so incredibly meaningless. I have no aspirations or hobbie ..read more

today I brushed my teeth for the first time in a while, and put on some fresh, clean clothing. I had to wash my comforter yesterday too, so things are a little clean :) It feels good to be in something clean. If you need a little push, here's your sign to go brush your teeth if you can. submitted by /u/Kind-Wave-4851 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Hello! My problem is that I used sertraline for 8 weeks and then paroxetine for 5-6 weeks in about 6 months. Although my anxiety decreased a little bit in both of my ssri experiences, the unbearable side effects were always there and I had more symptoms of depression. I had no desire to get out of bed, shower, play games or watch movies or videos. If it wasn't for my gehb medication, I wouldn't have even been able to do gaming and movie activities last time when I was taking paroxetine. What is the reason for this? When I told my doctor, he was very surprised and recommended duloxetine, a snr ..read more

im 19 and have never had a job, never attended college, and have never had true meaningful friendships at any point of my life. my parents are getting sick of me not doing something with my life and I can’t blame them. i’ve lost any motivation to pursue anything in life years ago and i don’t know how to tell them that. they have more than enough to stress about and I don’t want to add this burden onto their list. I wish i could get better but i have no energy to better myself and struggle taking care of myself on a regular day basis. all im capable of thinking about is how my childhood was an ..read more

My dad died in 2022, about 2 months later I had to have an abortion. I had to move states which forced me to leave my car, my home , my job where I was getting a promo, everything I had. My dads passing forced me and my very solid bf to move to my home state that I hadn’t been too in 3 years, to be with my mother. I remember when I had my first panic attack when moving. I also remember during that time I’d have panic attacks in loud areas or couldn’t carry a convo with my partners family, it’s been a year + and if anything things have gotten worse. I feel like I’m running in place, I have no ..read more

It only started this month, but she’s been really distant, and when I do something that isn’t done in her very specific way she calls me stupid and hits me because “I deserve it” it’s been a pattern like this for a month, where she calls me dumb and hits me. Last night she told me that her life sucks because of me. I told her, do you want me to die? And she says “Do whatever you want. My intrusive thoughts come out and I’m on the 12th floor balcony thinking about jumping. All she does is look at me and says she hates me, and when we argue she says I victimize myself all the time. But, am I no ..read more

Every fucking day, without fail. Nothing good ever happens to me. I can’t even remember the last time I felt happy. From the minute I wake up to the minute I fall asleep, my life is nothing but empty meaningless pain. submitted by /u/Distinct-Rooster-449 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I’m 24(m) I go to a big power 5 college, was a Recon Marine, traveled half the world, in great shape. But I feel absolutely nothing. I’m the only one of my friends/ family to even make it a year in college, so they all tell me they’re proud of me and how much I’ve done. But they don’t know I joined the marines to die and not end it myself. I chain smoke cigarettes and routinely put them out on myself, a couple hours ago I grabbed my knife and started to stab where my heart is ( not enough to bleed) and started smiling & laughing because I felt something. I drink so much I started counting ..read more