I know Anthony Trollope got a bad rep for saying he wrote so many words a day (10,000?). There was a while last year I kept track of the words done each, and gave it up as too much work. It was nowhere close to 10,000 (I went to double-check the number of words and found some interesting links: To celebrate Anthony Trollope’s 200th anniversary, writers choose their favourite novel, Anthony Trollope's literary reputation : its development and validity, A novelist who hunted the fox: Anthony Trollope today (wherein I found again the story and the number of words was 2,500 - still didn't hi ..read more

Well, the PO visited on Monday. He had a trainee with him, so it was back to the usual irrelevant questions. Well, irrelevant to my mind – one day I shall ask him what he means by inappropriate thoughts. I knew a woman once who asked me to tie her up. Is remembering that an inappropriate thought. Actually, there may have been more than one. There was one who asked me to leave a welt on her behind. Is that memory an inappropriate thought? I think he has not learned that what he thinks I think about is not, never was, all that interesting to me. Kevin Frone said I seemed to have known some color ..read more

Okay, I have collected some material since I left the motel which have not been included here. May you find them interesting. Items from The Guardian (I cannot find time to read the books at home, I have to read reviews!): Diaries by Franz Kafka review – caught in the act and ‘Six spellbinding and thought-provoking novels’: why we chose the Women’s prize for fiction shortlist; and film directors whose movies I've not seen (High-minded, progressive and literate, Laurent Cantet made a trio of brilliant films. From The Boston Review, I found Junot Diaz's review of The Ghost of Gabriel García Márq ..read more

 Okay, maybe you're not old enough to know David Cronenberg's The Fly or Videodrome. That is your fault, not mine. Today, I learned from The Walrus that he has a daughter. This daughter has made her first movie. Caitlin Cronenberg’s Humane Asks: Who Would You Kill Off in Your Family?  I think I want to see this one: INEVITABLY, Humane will get compared to the works of David and Brandon Cronenberg. When asked whether she’s working in the “family style,” Cronenberg demurs. “I truly see no comparison,” she says. But families, she acknowledges, have sensibilities. And the one ..read more

I keep getting distracted from today's goals, I think maybe there is something to be learned from these digressions. I know what it was like to have purpose without meaning. Here is the latest, from Aeon Weekly: The enchanted vision. Put another way, love was considered a universal force and a matter for knowledge, integral to the warp and weft of reality, not just a beneficent feeling or costly duty, practised at a personal level in acts of compassion or charity. When someone received love or gave it, they aligned themselves with the fundamental vitality pulsing through them and everyth ..read more

 Just a little bit of fun I started months ago and now don't have the time to finish.p sch ..read more

 I played lawyer for the very last time in my life this past Wednesday. It had to do with my trust. For three years, I have been trying to get a fix on assets and values. I go that much. I filed a complaint before the hearing in two different courts. There is something on electronic filing service that I have not looked at. That is for tomorrow. Neither of my sisters knew what was in the trust. No one had received any information from the trustee. The taxi got me there hours early. So early, I needed more calories. I found a place called MoJoes on the east side of the courthouse. My Lente ..read more

 I need to write one thing this day, and I need to do laundry and get a better grip on the email. Those are the day's goals. These have been the detours. DYING CITIES: ON THE LONE BOOK OF 'LOST' NOVELIST ELAINE PERRY Perry is a wonderful stylist, a vivid writer whose prose unspools like a European art film inspired by American pulp fiction with a soundtrack by Tricky working with the Berliner Philharmoniker. The respected Poets & Writers journal called the book “tragic and haunting…exceptional (and) daring,” Another Present Era is also one of more ambitious novels ..read more

I still feel the effects of Wednesday. Worn out enough that I would have stayed in bed for the past three days. It was a struggle getting up this morning and I slept like 8 hours. This has been the closest to a serious relapse of my depression that has occurred since 2010. Prison was such a shelter from the strains stress generated by family. I came over to Bracken Library last night - too tired after work on Thursday. All I managed to do after work was get downtown to AppeThai. Great food. When I was done, I felt more like staying home. I was probably down by 7 pm. My oldest sister called me ..read more

 I fell apart yesterday - no liturgy at St. Photini's, no getting stuff mailed - thanks to the throbbing pain in my back. I got over to BSU tonight, got through the email. Got stuff finsihed for the hearing tomorrow. I expect they will make mince-meat out of me. Got to get back home. It looks like rain. More tomorrow. sch ..read more