So, not to say I am an expert on being sick, but as someone who has had both Covid and the flu (…I am writing this while I have the flu) within a 3 month span, I’ve gotten pretty accustomed to being ill. At the first sign of illness, take ColdEeze. Now, If you have never heard of these, be prepared for your life to change. Not only do these have a myriad of supplements and vitamins in them, but they have one key ingredient: zinc. Zinc has been proven to fight infections and reduce the amount of time you are sick. These genuinely have saved me so many times, sometimes they even fight off a col ..read more

Applying to college is hard. So, so, so hard. And, that is for many reasons. First, the actual act of applying to college is tough. Writing essays, figuring out common app, selecting your activities, all of those activities take hours. I knew going into senior year that applying to college was a hard process from the writing/application aspect, but what I didn’t foresee was the emotional toughness of the process. I don’t necessarily mean the emotions that come with getting a rejection (although that is also hard). I’m more talking about the emotions that come with the waiting for a college dec ..read more

What a weird post to be making. College has been something that I have been looking forwards to for years. Literally since I was 6-7. I’m thrilled to say that I am going to be attending Brown University in the fall! At first, I kind of thought I was going to go to FSU, then UNC, then boom Ivy Decision day. I got into both Brown and Cornell ( the 2 Ivies I applied to), but ultimately I knew Brown was the right choice for me. The first time I went to Brown, I immediately knew it was the place for me. The only reason I didn’t do ED to Brown was because I thought I had zero chance of getting in. B ..read more

I turned 18 this past weekend, and although I wasn’t really sure what I was expecting, it fell short of whatever that was. I didn’t expect to feel like an adult or anything, but I feel like the media hypes turning 18 up so much that I really couldn’t help but feel overwhelmed. And, to clarify, it’s not anything my friends or family did, they were great at helping me celebrate. My main theory is honestly me, like many teenagers, have felt like an adult for a long time. The only distinction is now I am seen as an adult in the legal sense. But I mean, responsibility wise I have felt like an adult ..read more

So, I’m a senior, right? That means I am currently in the midst of applying to college, which is a very hard, emotional process. Today while I was walking my dogs, that got me thinking about the evolution of what I considered to be my “dream school” over the course of high school (hint: it has been different every year of high school). Now I’m not trying to insinuate that you school have no preference as to where you want to go to college, that would be hypocritical and unrealistic. There are some schools that I can really “see” myself at more than others. Instead, what I am trying to say is t ..read more

Today I went to the gulf with the full intention of having my own Edna Pontellier moment, minus the dying. Unfortunately, the Red Flag warning and Rip Tide warnings deterred me from doing so. My whole high school career, and life to be honest, I have lived for other people. I have done what will make other people happy. I got skinny to please my mom. I recovered to relieve my parents. I took on extra articles in Newspaper to help last year’s editor in chief. This school year has been another constant bombardment of fulfilling other people’s requests, and that has built up. Putting Chloe down w ..read more

I think that we all have a tendency to think that losing a pet, especially a cherish pet, or even a “soul pet” is easier to deal with. While I don’t want to compare the 2, I think that society in general needs to have a little more compassion to those dealing with losing a pet. To recap, I had to put my 13 year old bulldog, Chloe, down this October by myself. It was terrible. My heart aches thinking about it. I still sometimes cry when I see pictures of baby bulldogs. In the nights after she passed, I remember crying about how quiet the house was without her snoring. Chloe was my first dog, w ..read more

Well, I’m back from my holiday hiatus. I think that one myth, that I believed to be true, was that junior year is terrible and then suddenly, senior year is sunshine and rainbows. Well, I think that myth is fake. I have certainly had some fun memories this year, but the narrative that life suddenly becomes a thousand times easier senior year, is fake. Senior year, in some ways, is harder than junior year. Completing college applications in itself is a daunting task, not to mention the waiting aspect. Waiting for colleges to determine your fate is really difficult. It causes you to become crank ..read more

I think that holidays can be a really bittersweet time of year for many of us. While they can be incredibly happy, they can also bring a lot of us a lot of stress. Holidays are very stressful for those who have/had an eating disorder, and that’s because a lot of holidays are centered around food. Thanksgiving, for me, has always been the most fear inducing holiday. It combines two of recovering peoples’ worst nightmares: eating lots of high calorie food and eating around lots of people. With this in mind, I’d like to give some tips and advice that may help those struggling with an eating disor ..read more

I would like to extend a warning of sorts, in this post I do talk about my experiences with Bulimia and purging. I thought that this post was important as even though I have discussed my experience with Anorexia a lot, I haven’t really addressed my experiences with Bulimia. I would say that the hardest part about my Bulimia recovery was dealing with the feelings of discomfort. You see, Bulimics get almost addicted to purging. Not only does it become compulsive, but it also releases dopamine. Which is why when you stop, it can be incredibly uncomfortable, like a smoker craving nicotine. That’s ..read more