This is an old photo from before my eye surgery. I've been wearing glasses since I was 3 years old. Around the age of 15 I was told that if my eyes continued to deteriorate so quickly I was probably going to go blind. Fortunately, this has gradually started to stabilize and it was said that with implant lenses I probably wouldn't have to wear glasses anymore. It was also said that there was a possibility that I would be able to wear glasses again at a somewhat older age. But of course like any operation there were conditions attached to it, so I had to be stable for a year of my sight and hav ..read more

It is now at the time of writing this eight months and 14 days after the procedure. I feel really much better now, a big change has happened. I am finally who I am, namely woman. Life as a woman suits me better than life as a man. Of course I still have to dilate every week, although that doesn't happen every week if I can be honest, although I should. Every day I still have to take hormones as normal because my body cannot produce female hormones on its own. Every now and then I have a conversation with the sexologist just to check. My hormones are now checked annually by the endogrinologist ..read more

You already know that I have also taken up a new hobby now that I am a hell of a woman, namely Mermaiding (Swimming like a mermaid). I made an Instagram account just to share photos and videos about my hobby and through there I got to know new people. One of the professional mermaids then contacted me and we swam together I was so happy to have this opportunity. Of course I still have to check up every other year for my hormone treatment and I have to check again with the plastic surgeon. After the procedure I still have trouble urinating. Furthermore, I am well accepted as a woman in society ..read more

Ever since I was a kid, I was crazy about the mythical creature they call mermaids. If my sister had a Barbie doll like that, I wanted it too. Finally I got one from my parents. So many years later I now have a small collection of mermaid dolls. But it didn't stop there. I also asked for a mermaid tail. One that you can swim with. I already gave them my 1000 meter swimming license and I was in a swimming club for two years. Can swim quite well. We have a pool here at my house. So I have already learned a lot of tricks and so in the water also something that you should be good at holding your ..read more

I haven't told you much about after the surgery. After the operation I was released from the hospital. I couldn't walk properly yet and quickly became dizzy. So my parents came to get me in a wheelchair. It was the only day it snowed. I was still in a lot of pain. It was a long and bumpy road back home. Of course that didn't help with the pain. I almost passed out and I was still in so much pain. At home, of course, I still spent a lot of time in bed and taking a lot of painkillers. It was also mentally difficult, I was in a lot of pain and I still had to dilate for an hour up to 3 times. Aft ..read more

It's been a while since I gave an update on this. Of course, the voice is also something to look at in male to female transgenders. (MTF) I have been taking Tem speech therapy for about eight months. After the 7 times she said that my voice already sounded quite feminine on its own, I was very happy to hear that. Of course, there could still be changes here and there. I've been working on that lately before my surgery. It doesn't just stop with the speech, it also comes down to the posture, for example hand gestures when talking and the way you speak also lets you know whether it is feminine ..read more

I was told by the website FeedSpot. When I was looking at this I came across some well-known trans people who were mentioned on this website. I also wanted to be mentioned on it, but I thought with a brand new blog then I will never be chosen to be mentioned in it. I am not as well known as Nikita Dragun or Jazz Jennings. Haven't been into programs and stuff like them either. I had just started my transition even when I started this website Fleurtje. So I decided not to give up on my blog after all. I thought I was never mentioned on the FeedSpot website after all. Suddenly I saw that my blog ..read more

When I woke up to the surgery I had 2 infusions and a bladder tube hanging on me. I was on a low fiber diet. The first 3A4 days you have a flat rest and you are not allowed to get out of bed. In the first moment you start to wake up, you slowly feel that your genitals start to hurt. If it gets worse they will give you painkillers. The first moments you don't really realize that your gender has changed. That only comes when you are really fully awake. After the 3A4 days you can get out of bed and start learning the care such as learning to disinfect and dilate. That had to go really fast in Gh ..read more

Before the surgery I was a bit nervous and had some questions. How is it going to feel? Honestly in the beginning, when you wake up after the surgery, you don't really realize that your gender has changed. And you are still very tired. Once the anesthetic has worn off, you will feel a lot of pain. But they do give you painkillers. But even then you don't realize that your gender has changed. That only comes after a few hours when you are really fully awake. Does it hurt a lot? I have to answer yes to that myself ..read more

The day before surgery I wasn't really nervous. I was a bit scared I didn't know what to expect. But already in large parts thanks to the information sessions that UZ Gent has given about surgery. I had to go in at 2 pm. I signed up before 2 pm I was allocated my room. After 15 hours someone came to help me with the preparation. I thought that was exciting, it's finally happening. I was also told that I am scheduled for surgery around 11:20 the next day. I woke up the next day. And the first thing I was told was that my surgery had been brought forward. Around 10:20 am they came to get me for ..read more