Bilis ng panahon. Parang kelan lang, I was celebrating my birthday. Now, it’s the middle of February already. Before you know it, maririnig na natin si Jose Marie Chan. This year started quite well for me. I spent the New Year’s Eve with Anika and Pineda’s family. Sa tagal na namin friends ni Pineda, it was the first time we had Media Noche together ever. Tuwang tuwa kaming dalawa ni Anika. Isabel and Faye are in New Zealand na and wala namang kapatid tong si Anika so I was grateful she had people from her generation (haha) na nakasama nung salubong. The next day was my birthday and for this y ..read more

There are so many hotels in Tagaytay now. Just recently, I was looking for a place to stay and I was surprised how expensive they were especially the hotels overlooking the Taal Lake. This afternoon, I was browsing through my drafts folder here in the blog and found this blog entry that I started writing 2 years ago. When one of my childhood friends, Marianne, came home from San Francisco back then, Pam and I took her to Tagaytay with our daughters. Pam is good at looking for affordable but really nice accomodations. I really liked the hotel she chose because it was clean, nice and not expensi ..read more

“I know you thought the breaking was the most painful chapter. It wasn’t. Turn the page. The next part is much longer. It’s the healing. The rise. The comeback. It’s the birth of the new you. And it’s not easy. But you are strong and brave and worth it.” – Stephanie Bennet-Henry Hi, guys. It’s been a while. Three months to be exact since I wrote the Elephant In The Room blog entry. So many things have happened since. I completely weaned off all meds last October. I won’t detail it here again because I know you guys know how hard it was. Never take Alprazolam for too long. Dapat daw maxiumum o ..read more

Written last May 2022 and stored in my blog drafts: A few days before Anika and I left for our one month US trip, I was in a mall. I was walking towards the restaurant where I wanted to eat. In front of me (around 3 meters away siguro yun) was an old couple. Mga in their early 70s siguro na sila. Matanda na sila. They were walking to the direction where I was walking too. Suddenly they stopped and faced me. The lolo was holding his cellphone up and was gesturing to his wife to look at his phone because he wanted to do a selfie together. I stopped walking too and waited so that hindi ko sila m ..read more

Written last May 2022 and stored in my blog drafts: A few days before Anika and I left for our one month US trip, I was in a mall. I was walking towards the restaurant where I wanted to eat. In front of me (around 3 meters away siguro yun) was an old couple. Mga in their early 70s siguro na sila. Matanda na sila. They were walking to the direction where I was walking too. Suddenly they stopped and faced me. The lolo was holding his cellphone up and was gesturing to his wife to look at his phone because he wanted to do a selfie together. I stopped walking too and waited so that hindi ko sila m ..read more

A day well spent last year. Haha. This blog post has been sitting on my drafts for over a year already. I still want to post this blog entry kasi it was the first time I ate at Wild Flour and the first time I tried the massage at Breeze Oriental Spa and Massage. Outfit of the day muna. Top: Uniqlo Shorts: Forever 21 Sandals: Renegade Folk Bag: Tory Burch I miss umawra ng ganyan. This photo was taken before I took the anti depressants. I shouldn’t have taken it. Hindi ko alam if hindi ko naman talaga siya kailangan or I cannot tolerate any AD. Pero hindi talaga siya nakabuti to me. I became li ..read more

I can’t eat chocolates. I love them but I can’t eat because caffeine makes me palpitate. This was why I was hesitant to try eating here at Auro Chocolate Cafe when Barbie said na dun daw kami maglunch with Doc Rache. Buti na lang I went, guys. A little background muna. Auro produces artisanal dark, white, and milk chocolates in different forms. They have chocolate bars, spreads, ice cream etcetera. Their cacao are locally sourced in Davao and they support the farming communities there. The branch of Auro Chocolate Cafe that we went to was in BGC. This is their flagship store. Their first cafe ..read more

This photo was taken when Anika and I visited my good friend Abby in California last year. We were in her convertible and we were driving to San Diego. Namimiss ko na yung ganyang ngiti and feeling. Yung masaya, nagaayos and nakakapagenjoy. But I was drinking meds that time. 3x a day. All my feelings were suppressed. Kalmado. Masaya. Hindi pala cool yun. You have to wean off from them eventually and then biglang sasampalin ka nung totoong feelings. When you are going through deep grief or trauma, the medicines do not cure you of it. It can only help you cope day to day. Some people naman drin ..read more

I promised Leah that I will try to blog everyday. Kahit short lang. Pineda wants to plan a Mommy Fleur Day. I said better siguro if I blog more muna before the meet up para maramdaman niyo muna ulit my presence. Ang dami kong churva, I know. I have been stalling. I have been postponing. Hindi ako sure if I am ready already though I am feeling better compared to the past 21 months of talaga naman I cannot find the right one word to describe it. I want to use the word hell pero hindi naman ganun ka-akma. I have Anika and my loved ones so it must not be hell. Close to it lang siguro because of t ..read more

A day well spent last year. Haha. This blog post has been sitting on my drafts for over a year already. I still want to post this blog entry kasi it was the first time I ate at Wild Flour and the first time I tried the massage at Breeze Oriental Spa and Massage. Outfit of the day muna. Top: Uniqlo Shorts: Forever 21 Sandals: Renegade Folk Bag: Tory Burch I miss umawra ng ganyan. This photo was taken before I took the anti depressants. I shouldn’t have taken it. Hindi ko alam if hindi ko naman talaga siya kailangan or I cannot tolerate any AD. Pero hindi talaga siya nakabuti to me. I became li ..read more