Healing, recovery, and the journey towards self love, it is not linear. I have to remind myself of this often because I have this horrible tendency to get down on myself when I am not practicing positivity in every facet of my life. When I find myself slipping up I tend to go further down the rabbit hole by criticizing my own self- proclaimed failure, versus recognizing my imperfections as merely human tendency and moving on.  I have to be honest with y’all, I have done this a lot lately. It is not something I am proud of, but it is what it is. 2020 has been one hell of a ride, for all of ..read more

Growing up, I had always dreamed of being a mom. I loved playing babies, barbies, and house. I would always pretend to be the mama caring for my little babies and children. My dream has always been to be a mom. It has been my highest destiny and calling. When I met my current husband I knew I wanted to have babies right away. I was pregnant with our daughter Kaelynn when we got married. We went on to have a second baby girl when Kaelynn was two years old.  For the past four years, I have stayed at home the majority of the time while my husband worked. While staying home with the babies I ..read more

There is seriously nothing like starting on a new crisp journal. Something about it feels like I am setting out on a new adventure and the empty … Journaling ..read more

There is seriously nothing like starting on a new crisp journal. Something about it feels like I am setting out on a new adventure and the empty pages symbolize endless possibilities. I will admit that having a fresh journal is a good feeling in itself as well because truth be told, I put my journals through it. I take them everywhere with me, hiking, camping, traveling, to appointments, to work, to school. I love the accessibility and convenience of having my journal close by at all times in case a big thought (or a little thought) comes to mind and I feel compelled to jot it down.  Typi ..read more

The other night I went to a yoga class- I had had some apprehension about going in the first place because I have become a major homebody, raising two babies at home allows little time for mom to get out and practice self care. I was feeling insecure about doing yoga in front of others and I was also feeling anxious about leaving the two babies at home. I went anyways, after all, what kind of hypocrite would I be telling others to practice self care and to take care of themselves and then when it comes down to it, allow a little apprehension and invalid fear come between me and my much needed ..read more

I used to be a self-proclaimed gym rat. I was obsessed with my appearance. I have always had serious control issues in my life and my weight has always been something that I could control when everything else in my life was absolute chaos. This obsession to an esthetic ‘look’ is beyond unhealthy and it took me a long time to overcome my insecurities with my body and to appreciate health and fitness for the benefits it provided to my mental clarity and overall psychological well-being.  I started to workout when I was around 13. I had an obsession with Christina Aguilera and I was sure tha ..read more

Let’s talk a little more in depth about affirmations. While I have mentioned affirmations rather frequently, I have not spoken enough on the practice of affirmations and the groundbreaking shift in my own perspective that I can confidently attribute to the implementation of consistently utilizing positive affirmations.  The first time I had heard of the term ‘affirmation’ was about three years ago. This is also around the same time that I began incorporating positive affirmations into my daily life. Initially, I did not understand the science behind affirmations or the practicality behind ..read more

As a momma, I find it nearly impossible to get some time to be alone in peace and quiet. This kind of solitude is critical for mental clarity and well-being. Some days I move through life so quickly I blink and it seems like we are in another week. That is what my life looks like when operating under stress, deadlines, and pressure without taking time for me. Knowing that taking time out for reflection, journaling, and meditation are crucial to my development, I have started to set aside about 20 minutes every morning (ok…ok… nearly every morning) to set my intentions for the day. I recommend ..read more

Body, I hated you for a long time. You were never enough for me, never thin enough, never full enough in the right places.  I allowed you to be used, the more I allowed, the more empty I felt inside, as if being used in such a selfish way removed from me the parts that were human, the parts that could still feel. I filled you with poisons to numb you and to quiet you because you were always there, begging me to love you, begging me to love me. I had to quiet you because I felt that I did not deserve love, I was not worthy.  Body, I hated you for a long time because you did for me so ..read more

Don’t get me wrong… I absolutely adore my children but having two so close in age definitely has it’s downfalls at times. I definitely feel that my toddlers conspire together so that when one is having a shitty day, the other jumps in the mix with a meltdown of their own just to keep things spicy and keep me on my toes. Today is just one of those days. My three year old had a massive fit early this morning over her iPad and it took me a while to talk her down and to comfort her. Almost as soon as her fit was over with, my one year old decided that Wednesday (today) would be the day that mom lo ..read more