So nearly two weeks ago my doctor wanted to know the number of calories I was eating. Not the points. The calories. So I dusted off the MyFitnessPal app and logged back in. Recreating favorite foods and recipes is a pain in the tush but I'm not losing on WW so I need to suck it up and recreate everything. So I've lost weight. I'm eating way more points and getting my calories towards 1500 (dr. said 1200 was too low for the step count I keep up). And voila, a little (little is the operative work) weight left. I'm hopeful I won't find it tomorrow. Actually since the switch, I've notice a steady ..read more

I have logged all the food from vacay and that took a while. I'm up 2 pounds. Why is it so easy to gain but not to lose? I ate my weeklies but barely snuck by with some fitpoints left. So that means it wasn't horrible. Considering the vacay was downhill skiing and I don't sit in the lodge, it is frustrating. It is ALWAYS frustrating. I'm doing a stupid insurance sponsored program called VLM that this morning said I should have lost 9 pounds not gained weight by now. Well if I had a metabolism I'd be dam skinny by now. But I don't and the best I can do is try. They can take their poorly designe ..read more

And I'm guessing overeating failure is also on my horizon. I know myself and I promised to be honest with myself. I'm a day away from being honest with my eating and thoughts for 3 months. That is truly becoming part of me. I wish that not wanting cookies and chocolate would become a part of me but I believe that is just not realistic. I don't care what "experts" say. A habit might be formed in 21 days but I say that a habit can be broken at the drop of a hat when the basic personality of a person lives for foods rather than eats to live. I love food. What I'd give to eat pasta, bread, cookies ..read more

I. Am. Frustrated. I think that sums it up. That doesn't mean I'm throwing in the towel or plan to resort to starvation, but it is so irritating that the same pounds come and go no matter how I stick in my points or how many steps I get. I've averaged over 13K steps a day and never dipped into the fitpoints. I did, however, use more of my weeklies that usual, but I didn't use them all.  So GRRRR! Starting Saturday, I won't be on point but the exercise should be higher. A ski vacation! Yay!!!! Fun and away from work ..read more

Family visits equal more points. Visiting my daughter, I was determined to be in points. But no, I was over three days. Ate into my weeklies.Thankfully I'd rolled over enough points last wee to cover the first two days and then I started a new week and got into those weeklies. On the plus side, the last couple days I've been rolling some points over to build the weeklies back up. On the plus side, I didn't have any chocolate chip cookies while skiing. (Thank God since then the points would have been atrocious). Heavenly makes angelic like cookies and I love to have them on a ski break. But ins ..read more

Its been an interesting week. No so much with my diet and exercise, but with the scale. It is a flipping teeter-totter. Up down up down. I looked at it this morning and shook my head. I've been under points most of the week except Wednesday but it was still a blue dot day. Anyway, I am liking my response to whatever number it pulls from the sky because overall, it is not going up and it is a small downward trend. That is good but my reaction and mental health are actually so much better. To me, that is major. I'm not reacting the way I used to. With the weird week, I had a minor surgery on Tue ..read more

So yesterday I had my big decision about munching knowing the 2 point FitJoy wasn't planned in my daily allotment. I'd decided that was good enough. Then the day happens and not only did I make it with my 30 points, I was under by 2 points. I guess the Quest would have been just fine. my weight is not going down. I have been an angel and it just won't budge. But it isn't going up and maybe that needs to be my new expectation. That I dieted forever going up and down, killing what metabolism I was born with. Since that could be my future, I will just keep not gaining. I can live with that. I'd s ..read more

So I'm at my desk, I have my points planned out for the day but I have the munchies. I made a decision. I could eat my Lily Chocolate that is for mid afternoon, have a Quest bar for 4 points, or a FitJoy bar for 2 points. I chose the FitJoy. I made a thoughtful decision that wouldn't break my plan. The Quest bar would have been fine but I wasn't hungry. I was munchie. I'd tried choosing peppermint gum to make it go away but that didn't work. Sipping my coffee isn't helping. I would say the planning in the morning of my points helped make my good decision. Because I could have wandered across t ..read more

So it dawned on me yesterday that my misguided expectations are causing some of my eating issues. I'd identified that my visiting family needed to have comfort types of food on the holidays. I think part is realistic and part is wrong. Black or white isn't a good idea. I was 100% thinking it has to be comfort (aka fat and calorie filled foods) instead of looking for ways to cut the comfort ingredients for healthier ones. So what does that mean for future visits and holidays? I have no clue because I want to give my family the best. And really butter vs light butter in foods does not taste the ..read more

The holidays were once again evil to my WW goals. But actually it was more the combo of the holidays and having visitors, then travelling. I gave up and went off track. Being honest with myself, I know I enjoyed it, made the choice to go off and then paid the price. So I pick myself back up and try, try again. I've been on track for a week again. So what is it about visitors that makes me think I should feed them like royalty instead of staying with healthy food? That one I don't know. I have clues, but the true answer I don't know. Some of the clues are the allergies and food dislikes, the ho ..read more