14 or 15 I swear I had a plan. That rare venom, a dozen or so lines sewn indivisibly onto the out ers of my innards. And at work the ladies give themselves away in the most amazing ways. How to pretend the office is abuzz, humming a pre- quake brainstorm. The men’s upper lips doinked up and down while, like puppets, their lower lips stood as still as the rim  of this godforsaken canyon ..read more

How Not to Be Bitter first thought, best thought. no judgment. keep self in check (self worth, self es teem, self effacement, no self loathing, no self agg randizement). do this all with an open mind that ably accepts criticism. heart crit. need i say only from good hearts? are there bad ones? last re search i conducted, living well, much less nicely, wasn’t automatic, re quired about as much heart as being utterly malicious. with wisdom you’ll know the difference. allow your values to shift. invite karma. live object ively, but with conviction. and be transparent, which shifts an enemy ..read more

Glitter-laden FedEx Employee The laptop I’ve named Algae is in the bottom left drawer next to a blue handkerchief and a signed photograph of Tim Conway. It resides in an eerie box, mostly given all of the glitter, but needless to say, glitter not withstanding, swear to god it’s ready to go to Jack ..read more

Luck of the Draw lots of people have bad experi ences some of the time. Know ing no differently, perhaps they ass ume this is just a characteristic of being human. the human con dition. or just conditioning. some might think this is just the way it is, we gen erally are blessed with a larger amount of good luck, while occasionally exper iencing some un fortunate events or time periods. do you know any one at all who only ever has good luck? or only ever has bad luck? i have lived a life that can be most easily described as mostly filled with good stuff, inundated with it, even. up until i tur ..read more

Strobe Light Special tonight i want to read up on the whole strobe lights causing seizures for people with epilepsy thing. i have seen, to the best of my knowledge, two per sons have seizures in my presence. When i describe these events to my best friend he says it sounds like they were stimming, and his tone comes across as is he is describing a pleas ant walk through the garden of eden. my instinct says nothing could be further from the truth. there’s also the notion that’s stuck inside of me that seizures usually involve hard and/or illicit drugs. in my aforementioned experience, drug ..read more

The Winter Months are hard to be distinguished from all of the other months. sometimes around here they are perceived neither warmer nor cooler than the same duration of summer months. what’s more, the autumn and the spring, while often celeb rated with gusto in various ways, more often than not seem to have no discernible differences from these seasons, or even from each other, as well. there was a bag of truffles on the living room coffee table. the coolest days here are always my favorite. i know a man who, when he visits at that time, warms the entire climate with his very prese ..read more

Brow-beaten Sometimes do I hit my forehead. with the soft parts of my clenched fists? I do. I see this happen to others occasionally – either in reality or in the various fictional avenues of art and literature. Miri am Margolyes eats an onion and then pounds her breasts using the finger- face of her fists like an ape, a seemingly similar feat to the brow-beating, but I couldn’t begin to tell (although I have my ideas) which of these two boxing styles are more painful. Which is likely not the point. I mean, the real pain has already occurred for one to beat themself up so, it surely seem ..read more

Skin-tight Rainbow A palette with a bunch of humps. A beanie of silk atop each of the humps. Atop the palette – a make shift mattress – there are two men lying. Soon they are writing through the humps with silk beanies, all one hundred of them (100 humps, 100 beanies) the caps sewn together in the manner of a 100-bos omed bra worn as a slinky dress that’s showing lots of skin. This is the kind of sex with styrofoam that drives you back into my memory, the one I built a wall around just in case this might eventually be attempted. I keep at these things as everyone else keeps finding new ..read more

i dance so that you won’t fade away let’s be at peace enlivened as you no longer are and revel in what of you—having been taken from us—we still have of your joie de vivre as you fly to all of those               faraway places we’ve yet to encounter ..read more

Spinning My Tale One More Time Just for You i shall tell today’s story all cheeky with humor and happy and lighthearted levity and that means without any arc  of severity rendering this chip that’s been stuck in the craw of my shoulder non existent but hell it’s still here and it hurts it exists but that doesn’t matter tonight so i whisper my fairy tale day in all of its glorious detail into your ear come over here i whisper the closer you get the tale that into your most notable ear i do whisper and whisper and whisper til all that is left of me is but that whisper a story that c ..read more