My Testimony For 17 years I was an addict. During that time carried boat loads of pain, anger, confusion, sadness, and a deep wanting of purpose I never felt worthy of. The day I decided to follow Jesus is the day that I also stopped using mind altering substances to numb the pain. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. Mostly I was scared of how to deal with all the trauma without drugs. Well, now looking back that was the easy part. I had a deep understanding of Jesus and that is how it was so easy for me to never look back.  You see, even when I didn’t know Jesus; even when I did ..read more

My Story If you know me personally you know I struggle with crippling migraines, horrendous neck pain from a compressed neck, and anxiety through the roof. I have been on every medication known to man for my migraines and not much helps them unless I am in the ER with a cocktail of morphine and a bunch of other drugs. However, as a recovered addict I try really hard not to go that route and just stick to Excedrin, Motrin and Fioricet. These drugs barely phase my migraines and pain but I take them any way because I am scared of what will happen if I don’t. Well anyways, a good friend of ..read more

Dear My Precious Daughters, There will come a time when when you out rank me in coolness, but one thing I can promise you is that I will always out rank you in experience. There will be times that you have done something wrong and you will be afraid to tell me. Tell me anyway. Anything it is we can get through it together. If you try to hide it, it will only get worse. My daughters, there will come a time when you are stuck in the middle of still being a kid but feel like you are grown. This time will be confusing, and hard, and emotional; for both of us. I promise to be patient wit ..read more

Um… What? Forgiveness is tough when we feel we have been wronged. It is hard with an apology, but it is even more difficult without one. The truth is, when we have been the subject of some form of trauma at the hands of someone else, the chances of hearing an apology are slim to none. Kudos to you if you have received one. I know that forgiving without an apology can seem like a ridiculous thing. But it is everything. The forgiveness is not for the person that hurt you, the forgiveness is for you. Sounds crazy right? Let me break it down for you. Why Would I Forgive Without an Apolog ..read more

I have had many toxic relationships over the course of my 35, almost 36 years walking this Earth. Toxic relationships with exes, in-laws, parents, and relatives. Sometimes it can be hard to define a toxic relationship when you are in one. It is even harder to break free when its family, or someone you love. But if you read nothing more I ever write, please receive this: God loves you more than the toxicity you are allowing for your life. Now read that again. Signs that You are in a Toxic Relationship Your Boundaries are not Respected. We all need boundaries in life. Most importantly in ..read more

The Rumors are True We have all heard the rumors about the tween years being hellish, especially with girls. As a mama of 3 daughters I can tell you, this happy time of life begins roughly around age eight. Yes, you read that correctly. At 8 years old your once sweet, adoring, innocent, fun-loving girl changes rapidly into a snappy, crabby, irrational, confusing, hate you one minute and love you the next type of monster that most certainly came here to keep you guessing her every mood. Just when you think you are making some progress with her and she’s your sweet girl again, BAM! Something ..read more

Five down. Forever to go.  On Friday July 5th my husband Kyle and I will have been married for 5 years. I was pregnant with E when we were married, and just a month later on august 5th she was born. We were married by Kyle’s mother, who is a pastor, in a small Connecticut church with just my dad, my brother, their wives, 2 friends and all of our 4 children.  5 years later we no longer speak to any of those people. 2 of our 4 children we haven’t seen in a few years. We never had a honeymoon, (or time alone) let alone the honeymoon phase. We have had one uphill climb after the next. We’ve ..read more

No matter how old you are, you can still grow. You can still learn, you can change and adapt, you can still dream and fulfill those dreams. I know for me especially, I still have a lot of growing up to do. Sure, I may be 35 but in Christ I am only 3. I have been following Him faithfully for 3 years. It is through my four-year-old daughters eyes that I have really come to understand the Lord. I have 3 biological daughters and 2 step-children (you can read about our Family Tree here). However, with my youngest and last there has always been something different. If you are a parent of multipl ..read more

Before I begin to name some awesome sober-tivities you can enjoy I want to address the FOMO. For those of you who don’t know what FOMO stands for it is “Fear Of Missing Out”. I am finding that so many of my newly sober friends are suffering from some deep FOMO. My question is fear of missing on WHAT?! Missing out on not remembering the night? Missing out on being blacked out? Missing out on waking up and not knowing where you are? Girls and guys you have to get over this FOMO B.S. and start getting EXCITED for your sobriety and all the things you can actually enjoy now because of it. Be proud ..read more

I find it utterly disturbing how we are normalizing the “mommy wine culture” in this country. It’s every where from the t-shirts at Target , to the television shows and movies we watch. All of this propaganda is making woman feel like it is normal to have a few glasses, or bottles of wine to “deal” with life and or their children. That we somehow need wine to feel good about ourselves, and life is “no fun” without it. Alcohol abuse disorder in women has increased by 83.7% between 2002 and 2013, according to a 2017 study sponsored by the National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism (N ..read more