I did not mean for it to have been a year since I last posted. I have approximately 5 blogs that I drafted in 2020 that I never finished. And yes, I have many great excuses to not have completed any of them – like writing, finishing, and defending my dissertation, getting engaged, planning a wedding, getting married, searching for jobs, and most recently learning what it means to be a wife (all in the midst of a global pandemic…) — but alas it still feels like I have struggled with posting for different reasons. I created this blog (coamcf) in the end of 2015 as an “outlet to organize my rambl ..read more

I love Advent season. It might be one of my favorite times of the entire year. Advent is not simply a season to remember Jesus’s birthday (yes, although important!) …. It is a season to remember why Jesus came to earth. A season to remember why we do need a Savior. It is a season to reflect on our unquenchable need. I’m coming to realize that I have a lot of need… and I hate it. I hate that I am needy and can’t be self-sufficient. I hate asking for help. It is challenging for me to receive care. Why? Is it just the culture we grew up in? The value put on independence, or the “mak ..read more

Man, this year has been a whirlwind. As I introduced in my last post (see here!), I started going to counseling about 10 months ago. I want to use this blog post to expand a bit from the things I mentioned previously and to shine light on the things God has been up to recently. As you may imagine, I received quite the variety of feedback from my last blog. It ranged anywhere from “good for you” to “are you okay?”… So I just wanted to start here by commenting briefly on counseling and the stigma surrounding it. I, for one, am super glad that counseling is becoming more popular in today’s cul ..read more