Friends, I cut my hair last night! Just like I would do in my 20s. I had reallllly long hair, past halfway down my back and when I put it in front, it fell beyond my breasts. Now it is kind of neck-length. Not quite chin-length, not shoulder-length. Kind of a bob, no bangs. Cut rather uncarefully and probably poorly, but it looks fine from the front. It feels very indie rock, which means that it feels like me again. I grabbed my big sewing shears and just chopped. They were very efficient. I sprayed myself with Ellis Bee perfume afterward, and this morning, I put some red lipstick on. A weight ..read more

Another late night here! My partner isn’t feeling well and wanted some company while he is up. I’m not working so it’s nice to have the flexibility to oblige.  It was a weird day overall. I woke up early to water our veggie garden, sat outside for a bit and then went back to bed. I ended up sleeping until noon! I mean, who cares when you aren’t on a schedule, but still. Wow! If I haven’t mentioned it before, I am a champion sleeper. I LOVE sleeping. Today, though, I actually had one item on my calendar: a meeting at 1:30 to discuss a possible freelance design gig! It’s probably one of tha ..read more

 It’s been a little while, my apologies if you’ve been waiting patiently to see what happens next! Believe me, I am there with you. Right now I’m sitting here on the couch and typing on my iPad, which I bought last year to use to start drawing on a regular basis. Instead, I ended up reading more which isn’t so bad but definitely not my original intention. Anyway, I’m still plugging along! But I also have news: I got laid off about a week after I last posted here. So I’ve had plenty of free time and have been thinking a lot about where to go next. I was really sad about it initially but no ..read more

 It's 1am and I am up after a few hours' sleep and a bad dream, waking up covered in sweat.  Thoughts raced through my head about a school assignment that is due today (or tomorrow, however you want to look at it) that I didn't complete. That I didn't even start. That's for a class that is important to me – it's being guest taught by a former editor of National Geographic and esteemed photojournalist, and obviously this is a person from whom I have a lot to learn from, and who has been so great so far. I can't even get my shit together for that. Also, I didn't get any financial aid t ..read more

 I guess technically today is Day One, ground zero. Right away, though, I totally forgot to step on the scale (just for reference, not for judgement) before breakfast. So I will do that tomorrow for sure.  However, I took all my vitamins! This includes for now a one-a-day and some vitamin D, along with a couple supplements that my mother-in-law swears by for her hair and nails (pumpkin seed something and biotin, I think?). Day one, vitamins! That is an achievement. I restarted my MyFitnessPal tracker to have a place to put my food. Right now I am just jotting down what I ate in gener ..read more

It's been a minute, as they say! But I think I am back. This time I am recycling some very old content, when I restarted back in 2014. I needed some guidance/inspo to get take steps again to take better of myself. I know it's not rocket science, but you know. It's not always easy to do the obvious stuff. So anyway... I'm a less than a couple months away from 51 now, and I have been feeling it! Weight-wise I'm back in the 340s (will weigh in officially tomorrow), but since I last logged in I've also been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, which has not been fun. The combo of that and the pandemic has ..read more

It's that time of year, isn't it, when everyone makes resolutions to lose weight or quit smoking or start exercising, etc. etc. We all know by now that resolutions generally don't turn out well and that people burn out on their intentions before January is out. That said, I still love to make a list at the end of the year of things that I would like to accomplish. I'm a list-lover in general, especially to-do lists! And I like the idea of challenging myself and seeing how far I can get with a new idea or something I've always wanted to do, or something that I've tried in the past but never qu ..read more

One of my favorite bloggers/online people asked the question: What is your word of the year going to be for 2019? It's a great question; better than thinking about the cliche resolutions for the new year, I think! And so I have been thinking about this a lot since I got Anne's email, and today, it just popped into my head on the way into work. Initiative. Because things have really been happening lately it seems. Part of it is stuff finding its way to me (more well-timed freelance work, for example), but a lot of it seems to be coming from my own efforts. In particular: + I finally worked o ..read more

So, that dress I bought on super sale at Kmart last I wrote? I finally tried it on and discovered that it is actually a romper. A ROMPER, folks. Ugh. Not to mention what I didn't notice when in the throes of olympic-level shopping (i.e. fighting crowds during a store closing sale) how crappy the fabric is. I mean, kind of duh on my part, but... another checkmark goes in the slow fashion column. Quality over quantity, dudes and dudettes. I don't know why it's so hard to get through my head! (It's not really... I think more than anything it's about lifelong habits going back to shopping at Hills ..read more

I’m going to be completely honest with you, as I always am here: I did go off the rails, post-Whole30. Let me share. I don’t usually post food logs, but today I will, partially to just make better sense of what happened. Well. First of all, I feel like this isn’t unusual. If I am embroiled in some routine that I feel resolute about sticking with, and then I let go? Something unhinges in my brain and it’s hard to click it back in place. I could feel that happen once I made the decision to stop doing W30. But, as you know, I also had a plan in place. I knew what I wanted my new routine/way of ..read more