I had a strong collapse following divorce and immediately visited a therapist (sessions 2x week). It started well, I dug out so much shit, wow… and I’ve been in therapy for almost a decade… At one point, I couldn’t take it anymore… impulsive behavior got out of hand, I wanted to leave my children, run away, I couldn’t sleep, fight-or-flight, everyone wants to hurt me, angry at my therapist, in my head he’s trying to dominate me, I have no control in my life, I have a mask why do I feel everything oh why is everything so false I’m fake… Anyways, I had to go back to meds and slow down like a lo ..read more

Then when I restarted my phone and turned my cellular data off so my phone connected to the modem only he said I mucked it up because I interrupted it. So I did it again and it didn't work. I let myself buy into the competition streak. I was like how do You know my Phone is the problem and how do You know what you're doing is going to fix it? That's my ego coming out, getting annoyed again, competitive. He wanted me to unlock my Hope and i said what are you going to do on it and he said I'm not going to read anything in an annoyed way, he got annoyed when I said how do you Know How to Fix it ..read more

I self sabotage myself in every relationship. Someone can truly like me but my NPD forces me to believe they have alternative motives. Like my mother. I really feel like she is against me and idk if its my NPD or the truth. My entire hs years I look back and realize how many friends I cut off for petty reasons. Because they wouldn’t cut someone off I didnt like. Because they wouldnt hang out with me outside of school. I am so childish. I look back at old pics and i was never ugly but that whole time I felt ugly. I fell into the fast life and promiscuity quickly at the beginning of hs which is ..read more

So recently I became mutuals with someone on TikTok for their disney Hercules art cause I thought they were cool, but seeing their stuff blow up and all these people in their comments while my posts I work on thru school and out through into have been getting 130-170 tops. And I wanna make more ideas so people can see them but it's like with art for the most part I can't draw anything more than busts and I feel so boring I wanna push myself to do more but right now my brain feels burnt and I have a headache. I just want people to see my work because if something Hercules related can get 40k l ..read more

I want to feel worthy regardless of if everyone else finds me amazing. Here's what didn't work: committing to hobbies - I just tried to be the best at them again doing non-competitive hobbies - felt like a huge waste of time getting a ton of approval - the inner void is endless So what is the correct way to go here? Obviously except for decades of therapy, but even there I try to be the best/most memorable client! submitted by /u/Project-XYZ [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

1 year after shrooms, how did the narcissist within me changed? I will try not to lie or exaggerate much so please bear with me as I edit the post to be comprehensive and truthful. I have never paid attention (or didn’t care and had so much hatred that I forced myself not to pay attention) to how I manipulate and treat people up until I married a woman that truly loves me and experienced shrooms 1 year ago. First I got into denial and started blaming it on my traumas then got into psychosis as my brain completely denied and refused that I might have been the problem all of these years (this w ..read more

Long story short, I'm 25F, been seeing this therapist for 5 months. When I started seeing her I was full vulnerable, in antidepressants withdrawal, suicidal asf, in complete isolation and fear. She was helpful but always felt infantilised by her wich made me resentful, but I felt like I needed to give her a chance, and kept seeing her. At some point I started questioning the therapy cause I felt like she wasn't taking enough in consideration my severe childhood trauma and SA experiences (no exaggeration), and wasn't really understanding how bad it was affecting me. Soo I decided to contact a ..read more

I've never talked to him before, I don't even know how he's like, he's attractive sure, but the reason I'm so obsessed with getting him to like me is that I view it as a challenge. My friend who's super popular with the guys has expressed interest in him, so of course the way I view it is, if I get him to like me then I'm better than her. I've been struggling to keep this friendship so freaking much, she's very friendly with everyone and super bubbly when it comes to talking to guys, I can't stand the attention not being on me whenever she's around, it makes me feel so insecure and worthless ..read more

When I was younger it more impulsive, I would always be mean when I was angry. I mean I had to wear the mask of a good person. So I had to be careful about being mean. But usually I would screw up everything by getting angry and being mean and having other people see me as mean. And then other people would not want to have anything to do with me. As I've gotten older I've gotten better. I'm more capable of resisting that urge. But let me tell you... Right now I am so angry because I am so hurt. It's such a small offense I know, but I have no doubt that most of you would understand. I'm not go ..read more

What type(s) of therapy are most effective for working through deeply ingrained NPD traits? Advice and personal experience would be very much appreciated. submitted by /u/TimatoTim [visit reddit] [comments ..read more