The past two weeks have taken its toll on our strength and sanity. With immunotherapy treatment comes with immunotherapy side effects. I thought since we had made it a couple of months with minimal side effects, that was it......... Pulmonary issues...steroids Steroids.......steroid induced hyperglycemia Steroid induced hyperglycemia.......violent side effects. Vomiting, diarrhea, rash, crankiness, forgetful, loss of appetite. He has become the new seven dwarfs. Don't judge because there are only six. We have spent two weekends in the hospital. It is exhausting for both of us both mentally and ..read more

Ok. I admit I am new to this and don't really know how to handle certain situations. Through the good days and the bad days, I want my husband to be comfortable and make this as easy on him as possible. I am only going through this journey emotionally and mentally. I watch, as an outsider, daily. I watch him do nothing, and by nothing, I mean absolutely NOTHING. Is he going through self doubt, having a pity party. Is this going to pass? I don't expect him to do a lot, but at the same time, I want him to get out and experience things and spend time with his family. All he wants to do is sit on ..read more

Everyone has went to bed. I remain awake and tidying up the house since I am hosting my sister in laws baby shower in just a few short weeks. My husband is turning into a zombie. I wish so bad that I could take his pain away. It eats at me mentally, emotionally, and physically. Allie is starting to ask questions. How do you tell a 5 year old what is going on without breaking her precious heart. I have been coping with everything using retail therapy. I don't buy stuff for me or Shane, I buy everything for Allie. I have, however, been purchasing scrap booking supplies. I want to put some books ..read more

He had a rough day today it seems. Lots of excruciating pain, violent sickness. He had a great appetite though. He goes in tomorrow for genetic testing to see if he is one of the few people that carry the cancer gene. Never knew people could ally be a carrier. Thankfully it is not like an STD, but unfortunately it is a gene that can be passed down to any offspring he may produce. If he tests positive as a carrier, we will have to get our baby girl tested to make sure she did not inherit that gene from her daddy. Scary and worrying. Wednesday is the first round of treatments. We don't know what ..read more

Where do I even start. We are on the beginning of our journey. Diagnosed in December. We are scheduled first round of treatment on Wednesday the 11th of January. It has been a roller coaster of emotions on both parts. He has been doing well, so far. He will not let me see his fears and anxieties. We have an outpour of support. We have his family, both blood and brotherhood. I have my loving family, adoption for many years ago. The future is unknown. The fear is real. We have A beautiful baby girl who has a big, tender heart. We try to keep her in the unknown, but if for some reason things go c ..read more