I’ve been to multiple shrinks since 2016 to help me with my mental health. For seven years I’ve been misdiagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder until last year when my current psychiatrist finally figured out that I actually had Bipolar Disorder. This came as a breath of fresh air to me since this actually explains a lot of what was going on with me for the longest time. For the most part, I’ve never been completely comfortable with my previous shrinks. I’ve always been aloof and shy to open up to them. However, I didn’t seem to have this problem when I started with my current one. And I lik ..read more

It’s hard to tell random people my story through a phone but here it goes. As a child my dad was my hero, and during sometime in my childhood, things happened with work and as a kid I watched my hero lose. He began drinking heavily, prescription pills etc. parents got divorced at 14, I had to kick him out. So I’ve been the man of the house since then (25 now) with my mom and sister. I have a burning passion for being the upper echelon/successful person. If I don’t have a son, my last name is gone and all I want is to not put my family through what I went through as a child and leave a legacy ..read more

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I stopped doing coke a couple days ago and I got my refill on my Vyvance. I feel like this is a way better to get what I need done and not have any negative effects similar to what cocaine does. The only slight issue is that I am abusing my Vyvance. I’m due 40mg a day but I double. I know that my brain is probably still recovering from the cocaine abuse but could it also be a chance that Vyvance doesn’t work on me and I should try another ADHD medication? I just switched from Ritalin to Vyvance recently as I was taking 50mg of Ritalin but also was taking extra. I guess I kinda answered my que ..read more

I’m a diagnosed bpd as well as my partner I have very high addiction factors due to my family history+bpd , and my partner does drugs regularly ( gets addicted easily to substances) , to give you a better view i grow up with a drug addicted parent whom i lost recently to addiction . Im really i love with my partner but i feel my self pushing them away because i fear losing him to his addiction one day , i feel lost and i really don’t know what to do , he is a really good person and the most genuine person i have ever seen and im 100% in love …. But this is effecting me and him and most import ..read more

I've been taking benzos recreationally for three years, Ativan specifically. I've gotten so fucked up on them that I've made a fool of myself, blacked out at a family function and spilled a milkshake all over myself. Blacked out and called my friend at 3 AM, muttering nonsense about how I hate myself to her. Super embarrassing stuff. Recently, my tolerance has gotten insane and I've had to stop taking Ativan, bc it's just straight up not working anymore no matter the dose. I weaseled my way into getting prescribed Lyrica, and now I've been trying to use it as a replacement, but it's not as ef ..read more

If tagged incorrectly, LMK. growing up, and I mean middle school, I had a very close friend who I sadly lost all contact with, We lost contact because he fell into serious addiction very VERY young, my mither had gotten multiple tattoos resembling addiction and people she’s lost, but I personally want something for my friend, But I don’t know what, I don’t want a semicolon because it’s not me, I just want apart of him always with me, and I told him when we were young I would do exactly that, And now the times come, I don’t want anything too large or stereotypical, but I like lyrics and extrac ..read more

I straight up cant stop no matter how toxic it is, i need it, i feel so sad when i stop it feels like im gonna kill myself submitted by /u/Awkward-Pipe2768 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

For the past 3 years I've been using m3th. The last 7 months has been riddled with attempts to quit. Going to rehab, going to a mental hospital, attempting to go cold turkey, but nothing has worked. The truth is that while I'm super motivated to help meditate the problem that is "addiction" for the world.... I'm not quite ready to let go of it for myself. I like just sitting around getting high. I enjoy the rush and staying up nights on end. However I don't enjoy the constant psychological issues, the social issues or the time wasted. I'm trying one more time to do this for real, to get sober ..read more

Since I was a kid the idea of substances really got in my head, seeing my parents drunk and stuff, for some reason I wanted to explore them, how they feel, I just always chase a new feeling, never felt before. I’m not really addicted to anything besides cigarettes, which I use to cope with my mental health mostly. About 8 months ago I started smoking hash, which isn’t addictive from what I’ve heard, but I really enjoyed the feeling, made me feel like I was falling, vision blurry, my body more sensitive than ever, sometimes felt like I was teleporting, I enjoyed it. While it did kind of give m ..read more