In the days after his passing, it felt like the world was spinning too fast while I stood still. The grief was suffocating, leaving me gasping for air. Every moment without my son reminded me of what I had lost and would never get back. The post <br>A Million Pieces: One Month After SIDS <br><span >Every moment without my son reminded me of what I had lost and would never get back</span> appeared first on Still Standing Magazine ..read more

She may not have been alive to comfort me when Alex was killed, but I know, that for me, had I had to see my mother grieve not only his loss but also my suffering, it would have been doubly unbearable. The post When You Lose The Person You Love Before They Die appeared first on Still Standing Magazine ..read more

With the death of my son, I lost Christmas. And consequently, so too did my surviving teenaged children. The post Redefining Christmas And The New Year appeared first on Still Standing Magazine ..read more

Today many of us in the loss community read your article on having a miscarriage and the memories it brought up of "being ok." I know many of us, including myself, read your words with a deep ache of understanding - our memories brought back to us of those moments when we just knew something was wrong. You may face an onslaught of lash back from those outside the loss circle, those who can't fathom why anyone, and especially Meghan, Duchess of Sussex, would want to share about miscarriage and child loss - something so personal, so private. I'm sure you already are bracing for this in light of ..read more

These last months I've watched how the daily mortality figures dehumanize the truth that lies behind statistical graphs – that each number is a person, someone's child, parent, partner, or friend. Theirs is a death that's occurred in isolation, hidden from families who were unable to impede it. The post I Did Not Get To Say Goodbye appeared first on Still Standing Magazine ..read more

Then came the fallout. Panic. Fear. Knowing that I have (in my mind) failed three times as a mother, most recently to my stillborn son. I was unable to protect them, to carry them to the finish line. I lost them. How can I trust that I can keep my living children safe at this time? The post Never Alone; Grief In Isolation appeared first on Still Standing Magazine ..read more

by Cari Cornish I once lived in a lively forest. A forest full of robust foliage and critters. My daily life revolved around caring for our beautiful, disabled daughter. She was a joy to care for. Sweetest personality in the forest! She was born with a rare disease, and we were told when she was ... Read More about Living In The Rare Forest The post Living In The Rare Forest appeared first on Still Standing Magazine ..read more

by Samantha Gorenstein I hate it when people say, “I can’t imagine what you’re going through.” I hate it because they are wrong. I hate it because they think they are right, but what they mean is, “I can’t understand.” Those two sentences might seem similar, but they are vastly different. “I can’t understand” is ... Read More about Why You Should Try To Imagine What Losing A Child Is Like The post Why You Should Try To Imagine What Losing A Child Is Like appeared first on Still Standing Magazine ..read more

I thought I threw them out. I thought any evidence of that baby, that first pregnancy, was gone. I remember throwing away the pregnancy tests. I assumed the ultrasounds went right along with the tests in my fit of rage after learning that baby wasn’t going to stay with us. While packing swimsuits for our ... Read More about The First Baby The post The First Baby appeared first on Still Standing Magazine ..read more