I keep getting distracted from today's goals, I think maybe there is something to be learned from these digressions. I know what it was like to have purpose without meaning. Here is the latest, from Aeon Weekly: The enchanted vision. Put another way, love was considered a universal force and a matter for knowledge, integral to the warp and weft of reality, not just a beneficent feeling or costly duty, practised at a personal level in acts of compassion or charity. When someone received love or gave it, they aligned themselves with the fundamental vitality pulsing through them and everyth ..read more

 Just a little bit of fun I started months ago and now don't have the time to finish.p sch ..read more

 I played lawyer for the very last time in my life this past Wednesday. It had to do with my trust. For three years, I have been trying to get a fix on assets and values. I go that much. I filed a complaint before the hearing in two different courts. There is something on electronic filing service that I have not looked at. That is for tomorrow. Neither of my sisters knew what was in the trust. No one had received any information from the trustee. The taxi got me there hours early. So early, I needed more calories. I found a place called MoJoes on the east side of the courthouse. My Lente ..read more

 I need to write one thing this day, and I need to do laundry and get a better grip on the email. Those are the day's goals. These have been the detours. DYING CITIES: ON THE LONE BOOK OF 'LOST' NOVELIST ELAINE PERRY Perry is a wonderful stylist, a vivid writer whose prose unspools like a European art film inspired by American pulp fiction with a soundtrack by Tricky working with the Berliner Philharmoniker. The respected Poets & Writers journal called the book “tragic and haunting…exceptional (and) daring,” Another Present Era is also one of more ambitious novels ..read more

I still feel the effects of Wednesday. Worn out enough that I would have stayed in bed for the past three days. It was a struggle getting up this morning and I slept like 8 hours. This has been the closest to a serious relapse of my depression that has occurred since 2010. Prison was such a shelter from the strains stress generated by family. I came over to Bracken Library last night - too tired after work on Thursday. All I managed to do after work was get downtown to AppeThai. Great food. When I was done, I felt more like staying home. I was probably down by 7 pm. My oldest sister called me ..read more

 I fell apart yesterday - no liturgy at St. Photini's, no getting stuff mailed - thanks to the throbbing pain in my back. I got over to BSU tonight, got through the email. Got stuff finsihed for the hearing tomorrow. I expect they will make mince-meat out of me. Got to get back home. It looks like rain. More tomorrow. sch ..read more

 Yesterday was laundry, Payless, and Bracken Library. Oh, and my Gabb phone went berserk. I did a factory reset and now have lost all my contacts. Still needing a ride to Kokomo on Wednesday. Research done. I am as ready as I can be for the hearing. Today, it was cleaning what I did yesterday. Cooked at home. (Oh, yeah, if you come to Muncie, try Chava's in The Village - I blew up my Lenten fast there on Friday- very good burritos.) I managed to finish Plautus' The Braggart Soldier while doing my laundry. I have shelved Euripides for the moment. I kept seeing ways to burlesque him, a ..read more

 I finally talked to the attorney who had been representing me in regards to my father's trust. He told me that no longer felt it. Nice to have known this since there is a hearing next week. No apology for screwing things up, or putting me in a bind. I have no idea when he was going to tell me his plans. I had written an email on Wednesday night and got gibberish as a response. That is why I went on the hunt. Well, I got no answer to my telephone calls, either. I spent yesterday morning working on things legal at Bracken Library. I managed to stay there 3 hours soaked as I was through my ..read more

 What I thought would be dull as dishwater turned out to be both fun and a timely source of information. I have already noted When Theology Fuels the War, but I will repeat myself. It may even be better to read the latter while listening to the former. This is why Trump could not settle this war, and it is why Americans think Putin thinks like they do are fools. Dear Evangelical Protestants, you are heretics. The one way to fight a religious war is to stop the aggressor, or else they think they do have God on their side. sch  ..read more

 Worked, went to see the lawyer, did not find lawyer, came to Ball State, read email, and now am tired and want to go home. And now I want to head home. Too much to do, and too little time. Even less energy. sch ..read more