The fundamental challenge of initiation is to transcend confusion and establish order. With gate 3, you are an agent of change. The possibility of being a mutative force. This is an individual energy. A unique inner knowing. An energy of wanting to do things in a new and different way. With this gate comes a struggle. There is a period of chaos and "trying to figure out the best way forward." Life can feel confusing; being human is confusing. Being confused can leave you feeling like life is hard. The lesson to learn is that there is nothing wrong with being confused. It's all about what happe ..read more

Let it be said. A Manifesting Generator is not a separate type. They are a subtype of the generator type. There are 4 aura types in Human Design. Not 5. What are the differences between a Manifesting Generator and a Generator? Both have an aura that attracts life, which is open and enveloping. Both have a strategy of waiting until they have responded. Both have either emotional or sacral authority. Both are designed to work at what they love. An MG has the throat connected to a motor center and the sacral defined. This can happen in many different ways. A Generator will have the sacral define ..read more

Signature of Peace. God, did that piss me off when I first understood that I am here to be peaceful. I was never peaceful. I was angry, pissy, and ready to fight at any moment! As always, remember that I am an emotional manifestor settled on the roof as a 6/2 profile with the 19-49 design of a sensitive being, the 12-22 design of openness, and the 43-23 design of genius to freak. My experience might not reflect yours. And then I experienced it in the most mundane and, to my mind, insane way. I followed a nudge, an urge, my body being moved. It feels silly to even type this, but I was moved to ..read more

IMPACT [verb] - /ɪmˈpakt,ˈɪmpakt/ Come into forcible contact with another object "the shell impacted twenty yards away" Similar: crash into, smash into, collide with, be in collision with, hit, strike, ram, smack into, slam into, bang into, cannon into, plow into, meet head-on, dash against To be honest, there is not much to say about this topic. As Manifestors, we are not seeking to have an impact. We are impact. We impact immediately and all the time. It's our aura. We are constantly communicating, even when not speaking. Entering a room, we impact. The way we move, we impact. When we laug ..read more

I'm not sure how long this blog will end up; we will see.  Looking at the emotional authority is messy. Because the emotional waves are messy. Muddy. Most of the time, I am in some emotional state, consciously or not.  We are told to "ride our wave" and "wait for clarity": what does that even fucking mean?  Let's dig into my experience and see if you can find something there to help you on your way.  When I discovered that I have a defined Solar Plexus, which means that I am an emotional, passionate, touchy-feely person, it made complete sense. I was the kid who felt so d ..read more

When I was 10 years old, I kicked through a double glass door, shattering it to pieces. Why? My babysitter told me to go to bed before my regular bedtime. Manifestors all have the same Not-Self theme of Anger. And the signature of Peace.  And I know many manifestors don't recognize themselves as angry; they say, "I don't get angry." Ahh, darling, just keep kidding yourself.  Suppressed anger is dangerous... If you are a manifestor and don't find yourself in the not-self theme of anger - dare I ask, how is your health?  Manifestor Anger. I don't doubt for a second it can be a ..read more

Let's get honest. I have far more experience with lying than I do with informing. I learned that tactic early on in life.  Step 1. Tell them what they want to hear so they don't say no. Step 2. Go do what you want to do.  Step 3. Lie about it.  A manifestor child wants to do what they feel like doing. And hearing "no" often enough, well... That's at least how the story unfolded for me.  Like I said in the blog The Lone Wolf, we need to relearn the art of informing.  You find out you are a manifestor, and they tell you your strategy is to inform before ..read more

After the topic of repelling aura, the next obvious topic for me is the Lone Wolf.  I'm gonna share a few backstories, and I want to say: that I don't know or think that everyone experiences the theme of the Lone Wolf as hard as I do.  As with everything in Human Design, we must consider the entire chart. I am a 6/2 profile, and the hermit is a part of me. I am now an adult on the roof, and I absolutely love my lone wolf existence. The channel that makes me a manifestor is the 12-22; I express and act out moodiness, passion, romance, and drama. I think this can make that Lone Wolf f ..read more

It was November 2019, and I watched a free webinar on running an online business. A panel of people had gone through the program and been successful (looking back, there is no doubt the person running the webinar is a generator of sorts). There was one woman to who I was drawn to. She didn't say much, and what she said wasn't necessarily something I felt I needed to hear, but I decided to find her online and follow her. A month later, she writes about being a Manifestor and running a business like a Manifestor.  My open head & undefined g-center hooked up, and we went down the rabbit ..read more

Gate 58 - The Joyous - The Gate of Vitality A love for life, a zest for the beauty life has to give in each moment. You have pressure to correct anything keeping the collective away from wellbeing and health. The pressure comes from the need to satisfy a driving desire to contribute something of value. This is logical energy, and for you to see what needs to be done, changed, and torn down, is logical. Pressing up towards the spleen to gate 18, the gate of correction. When lacking gate 18, you might feel pressured to serve with your correction. But it might be hard for you to see what improvem ..read more