My childhood was both the happiest and darkest times of my life. The last time I felt true happiness. I had true friendships based on innocence and the purest of love. I still had untainted memories. Once I grew older and wiser, I realized how awful my situation was. I lost everything. I finally have agency over my life yet I crave not being responsible for my life. I miss not having the weight of the world on me. Had it not turned to a total nightmare, I could have had a great childhood. submitted by /u/Prestigious_Draft_24 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

- - - - I don't really know how to start this - but I need to know that i'm not alone. Ever since I hit the age of sexual maturity (and even long before that) , I have been in situations with Men where i've been pressured into sexual and intimate situations, and a few times have also been r*ped. I've never felt safe in my entire life when it comes to sex apart from my short relationship with a woman when I was 19. My current partner is an exception also. He never pressures, never brings it up unless i make the first move and is very respectful to my wants and needs. However, because of my his ..read more

About a year ago, and years of therapy later, I finally opened up to my mom about the sexual abuse I faced as a young child at the hands of someone who is very close to the family. She seemed like she was understanding and very upset. Said she never wanted to talk or see them again. Fast forward to today, she invites this person over to me and my sisters apartment to cook and give this person food “because they asked and sent $100”. I want to say I’m surprised but I’m not. My mom doesn’t have the best track record of putting my feelings first. Now she has always been a selfish person but this ..read more

Let me preface this by saying: I am not being PSYCHICALLY abused. I have grown up in an abusive house though. I (22)F have only ever know hate and fighting, my moms ex husband who we’ve lived with my whole life makes the most money in our house, if we were to leave we’d end up homeless, etc. I’m reaching a point (again) where I DESPERATELY want to confide in someone, and these past few months I’ve wanted to tell my professor (he’s a father figure to me who I feel safe talking to) about what’s been going on, the psychological damage has already occurred, I have anxiety, daddy issues, I flinch ..read more

I was sex trafficked through out my childhood and when I wasn’t being sold for drugs or alcohol I was being sexually assaulted by my father. I was reduced to an animal for 18 years till I finally was able to run away. I never got to be a kid and that makes me so sad, I did everything I possibly could I tried to reason with my biological family and I tried to find some way to stay and be strong for my siblings but I failed them I couldn’t stay there after my father found out I was trans. I was strong and I somehow I’m still here but it’s left me so messed up in the head, Im better at pretendin ..read more

I'm a senior at my school. We have a lot of people that go to this school like 4,000 and something, so everyone is always bumping into each other between classes, it's normal. The last few days I've been having nightmares and hallucinations related to PTSD, but I've been okay during the day, at school and in public. Except today, today I was doing my normal thing walking back to my class after dropping off my stuff and running to get a snack from the machine before class started. I bought my popcorn and swissrolls, but as I bent down to grab them a freshman who looked like he was 14 years old ..read more

I’ve posted about my situation a lot so some of you might be aware of it. I left my abusive ex (baby’s father) and went to a refuge. Then I had an emergency C section and because of how sore I was I moved back in with my mum straight from the hospital. I’ve been here 3 weeks and it’s intolerable. This is the second time that during/ after a fight my baby has cried either when changing a nappy or just fussiness.. and my mums response was to (literally) run out of her room over to me and ask me what I done to the baby to make her cry. I can’t take this shit anymore. All she does is criticise me ..read more

4.5 years ago I got a restraining order against my abusive ex. He conceded to the order and was only given a one year order and after it was over if he didn't contact me during that time it was removed from his record. At the time he lived in another state and over 6 hours away. He knew I had moved to a new city when the restraining order was happening because it came from the new counties court and he had to show up. Now after 4.5 years of no contact he has moved to my city. I got over my irrational fear of him just showing up wherever I was and being terrified anytime I saw a look alike ove ..read more

TW: Suicide or suicidal threats (please practice self-love and care and don't read this if you are sensitive to this sort of thing <3) 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline We can all help prevent suicide. The 988 Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals in the United States. ​ It has been nearly a year since I ended things with my ex. Granted, the criminal trial is still waiting to happen. The long story is not so short; I tried to end things with my ex. We bot ..read more

Sorry, I just don’t really know. I’m an adult now, and I didn’t remember my childhood for the longest time, but some things are coming back. I wonder if it’s abuse or not. If it’s not, I’m sorry. So, when I was a kid and teenager, walking around the house at night would get me screamed at. I couldn’t even go to the washroom. As a teenager, while the bathroom was being renovated, my dad didn’t let me use the washroom in their room during the night. I know it’s weird, so I’m sorry, but I had to use the washroom outside in the grass. This was during the winter and summer. I’d get yelled at a lot ..read more