When it clicked that I am not the villain I thought I was and that every word was to abuse and manipulate me... I was not only free, but I forgave myself and started to love myself. She pretends that I was a stalker yet she asked me for money every couple days. Initially I thought I was the bad person. No... before I'd be sad to find out she is the bad person. Now I know it's the cycle of abuse. We all deserve to be loved and they never loved us. submitted by /u/itkeepsgettingworse1 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

How do you forgive for being with someone you know didn’t deserve you? How do you forgive yourself for not standing up for yourself? How do you forgive yourself knowing what you went through? How do you forgive yourself for missing a person who cares so little about you? Who attempted to kill you? I’m tired of it all. I spend nights ruminating over the fact that someone I was with attempted to kill me. Crying as to why he would want to do that to me, why he would hate me soo much. I’m trying to forgive and be kind to myself but it’s so hard. I’ve been abused most of my life, I’m tired of it a ..read more

I've spent the last few weeks emailing local authorities from my burner phone and burner email address, explaining my situation, begging them for help. It's become apparent that they don't care about us. Apparently, according to the person I've been talking to, I only qualify for emergency accommodation if I have been made homeless by my abuser, or if I feel there is an immediate threat to my life. He said that, despite all the photo evidence of physical abuse, and the emotional/mental/sexual/financial abuse, its not enough and I have to be at risk of death before they'll help me because, and ..read more

Your words are not working... my parents love and support isn't working ... friends , psychologists ...nothing is working... my newborn baby isn't working ... Nothing is working to help me stop myself ... he is apologetic and he is saying he loves me and i just can't stay away from him ...i believe him that he won't hurt me again ... although i am still posting here so that something clicks .... but i am feeling so helpless .. i think his mom and granny won't let me get killed and will help me in not getting abused by him and will help in him not hurting my baby ... so yeah ... plus his mom i ..read more

I posted a few months ago about my abusive husband. He was physically, mentally, emotionally, and financially abusive. Today I got the email from the courts that I am officially divorced! I am so excited that I am free! I wanted to update those that were so supportive and let others know that you can be free too. It's not easy, it's stressful and expensive. But the relief I felt when I got the email from the court was more than I ever thought it could be! submitted by /u/TryingToEscape23 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

For starters this is kinda an update but not really. I last posted about my coercive ex texting me wanting me to “let him know how I’m doing every once in a while.” And would also stop working to try and have a conversation whenever I went grocery shopping. It’s been quite awhile now and I thought this “healing” was going really well, until I fucked up. I say “I fucked up” because I did. Recently, I was scrolling through TikTok endlessly, as one does, and TikTok decided to put one of his videos on my for you page and in my panic to get it off my screen I fat fingered it which opened his profi ..read more

6mo post ghosting/discard. I just need to rant. I’m so angry and the ruminating thoughts are awful today: I’m so angry. I wish I wasn’t anymore. I wish I was over him. He doesn’t deserve happiness for the pain he’s caused myself and the past women he’s used. I’m angry because now he gets to play “step-dad” and play house with his coworker who he left me for/cheated on me with. And it just fucking sucks she didn’t believe me when I tried warning her about his shitty, abusive behavior. And it sucks he blocked me when he found out I told his friends and exposed him. The fucking coward. He thinks ..read more

I haven’t talked to him in almost a year. There were things sexually that I didn’t want to do with him that he would hold me down and “surprise” me. I’m pretty sure it did damage - and today I finally set a doctors appointment to get that checked out. I’ve avoided it because It’s just embarrassing. I know they’ll probably ask questions about that type of stuff and I don’t really feel like having conversations about how I was not a willing participant. submitted by /u/msbelinda [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

My first abusive relationship was with a man, and I was young and madly in love and completely missed so many red flags. I don't think I was ever actually sexually attracted to him though, I think I've been a lesbian my whole life, and just had a romantic infatuation with this guy. He thoroughly ruined any notion in my mind of ever dating men ever again after everything he did to me, and everything he had other men do to me. So after I escaped, I started dating women. Who I've definitely always been attracted to, and it's been great sometimes. But twice now I've fallen for women who hurt me o ..read more

My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years. I love him very much, but I've always had the feeling that he's not normal. He gets angry very easily over small things, when we argue he raises his voice, yells at me, says a lot of hurtful things, constantly compares me with his ex saying that she and I are the same (in a bad way). He fought with me for the stupidest reasons ever. He got mad at me more than once because I accidentally fell asleep in the theater during a movie (I was hugging him while he was upset) saying I didn't care about him. He got mad and yelled at me for over 30 minut ..read more