"Who is that?" That question can be asked in two different ways; it can be a "who is that?" uttered with pity and even disgust when at thirty you look back and see your 25 year-old you being a loser in a dark room. But also, it could be a "WHO IS THAT?" uttered with surprise at thirty looking back and seeing a young man taking control of his life. I want to be able to ask that question in all-caps, as a new man, a succesfull man, a free man, someone who I am not today. This is like the... Read more ..read more

Day 1... New month, new start... Haven't been on here since September 2023 but a new month has led to me starting over on here. It's really helped in the past but I quickly got out of the habit of writing on here. I think journalling helps...I'm putting down thoughts and feelings that I cant say to anyone else. Personal life situation hasn't changed from previous posts I've logged here but addiction is still present in my life and I hate it. Reading other people's posts about how they've... Read more ..read more

Hi and thanks for reading. 04/25/2024. I want this to be the last (and first) day of my new life. Have been fighting porn for years. Probably like a lot of you here. I actually had a thread in the 20-29 group, but as it does, porn has stuck around, and I've got older. So time to join the next decade and throw myself back into the fight. I realized today, after my PMO, that I really. do. not. want. to. live. this. life. (of porn use that is). I'll be honest, I PMOd today for roughly... Read more ..read more

Hello, I have some questions, briefly, I went straight to flatline after pmo a few years ago to shrink cold dick, no sex libido, I feel no pleasure, because years of pmo, I feel numb to porn, when to porn also need manual stimulation, but now I am doing nofap, My current symptom is emotional numbness like a robot, unable to feel happiness and pleasure. What I want most now is to restore this sense of pleasure in daily life. I am wondering whether the long-term dopamine stimulation... Read more ..read more

Today marks a new start, again. After many new starts, but each time I bring with me new experience and (hopefully) all my pre-acquired wisdom from previous attempts. I'm not sure I like the word attempt though. I've recently quit coffee and, I don't like the term quit. A more accurate word would be, I replaced it. The same applies for porn. If you aren't putting something else where you open the void back up, porn will fill it back up. Even more so at times. So why am I back here... Read more ..read more

Hi guys, this is gonna be a diary for me to help stop my porn addiction. I’ve seen multiple threads from guys posting their journey and I think it would really help me along the way. By all means comment on your own experiences ..read more

Hi. I was here sometime last year and faded away and returned to unhealthy behaviors. I can’t guarantee I’ll be the most reflective and responsive on this forum, but I can guarantee I will give my best effort to eradicate porn from my life. My wife and I have been working hard on our relationship and are making great strides. I’m ready to make this positive change in my life starting right now. I’ve got all I need sleeping next to me ..read more

This day was amazing and one serious attempt where I felt like my body was really hating me for denying it the dopamine. Luckily and amazingly it really worked and I didn't relapse which I am thankful about. Now it's time to continue. Let's all continue pushing through even though we all know it's hard and frustrating, we'll just do it small by small and we'll surely succeed. Good luck to everyone out there who is trying ..read more

I have played enough hide and seek with rebooting. I just did a clean 5 day streak and damn it was it amazing. Usually when I lie to myself that it's working. I've just watched porn but not MO even though it's literally the same as one can't exist without the other. I did 5 clean days, no porn browsing and nothing else. But now I just failed 2 days after the streak. I'm starting this journey for me to be able to journal everything for myself and the others. This was just an introduction ..read more

I start this journal not on my first day, but one month after the beginning of my no-FAP experience. I turned 60 this April, and I always had a regular and satisfactory sexual activity, which has been harmed by my inclination towards porn. For many years I was single, and visited FKKs in Germany occasionally. My last intercourse with ejaculation goes back to more than one year ago, and it was with a girl in a FKK. Since the beginning of the year I have a gf my age: this has changed... Read more ..read more