idk if this is connected to having bpd and that it’s common that a lot of people feel that they don’t have a sense of identity, but i have horrible imposter syndrome. i got an 80% on one of my finals and i was extremely upset for the entire day i didn’t touch any of my work or study for any other finals almost like a form of self sabotage. i still have an A in all my courses and my overall gpa is like 3.6 but it’s never good enough for me. i’m graduating soon and it means nothing to me. i like what i study, but i feel like it isn’t as challenging as other stem subjects and that it’s not reall ..read more

Just checking in- I decided to make an account solely for this subreddit so it doesn’t bleed into my other interests. I’m the one who made a comment not too long ago wishing there was a space for those diagnosed who are over 30 since we don’t really deal with the same situations or perceive BPD the same way. So, check ins guys? How are you? Me: I’m dealing with some insomnia and some psychosis. It’s a “ah here we go again, time to get snacks and put cartoons on until it passes” type of week but eventually I fall asleep. Not great sleep, but at 33, sleep is sleep. submitted by /u/offmychestpo ..read more

Why is every day a battle? The only friend I ever had in my life was my ex. Now they are gone and I have no one. I feel sick to my stomach. I wish I was normal. I cannot move on and forget them. I feel so alone in this world and it’s my fault because I push people away. I just want to cry. Things haven’t gotten better and there’s no words that could comfort me. I feel close to no one. I feel like I am drowning and the day will come when I can’t take it anymore and end my own life. I always delete my posts on here but if this one stays and my family sees it after I’m gone, know that I was in s ..read more

Anyone else TIRED after having a meltdown like you cry you put all your emotions, your heart it hurts you so much physically inside crying that when you’re done you’re just tired of all the energy you put into crying, just happened to me haha I was crying about, how could another human being was capable of loving me, and I pushed them away and I sobbed my heart chest hurt like someone stabbed me there as I was sobbing now I’m just tired, feels like a hangover now I’m gonna have a headache I’ll be dehydrated need to probably watch something to just get my energy back or sleep and need to eat s ..read more

my ex, who’s also my fp, is in the process of cutting me off and has been emotionally abusive to me while doing so. he doesn’t seem to understand that being horrible to me won’t help me move on; i seem to cling on even tighter. it makes me feel so pathetic and worthless. i just don’t know what i’m gonna do without him. i’ve tried to leave first, but then i end up texting or calling him again anyway bc somehow i still feel so abandoned. it just doesn’t make sense, even to me. i guess i do wanna stop talking to him because i know he gets angry, and i know i end up hurt. so why can’t i? submitt ..read more

Does it calm you down?? How does it help you in your day to day life? Does it make it worse?? Idk i need so thoughts about this !! I want to get into it but i dont want my bpd symptoms to get worse. Ive done it before and it made me feel like if you squished a bug and you look at it and its still like halfway alive LOL idk it felt good though because i couldnt think but like i still want to be aware and not drown my problems so that i couldnt think about them submitted by /u/drpwpperp [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I see so many posts about people struggling with breakups. Some people comment that they haven’t been able to move on from relationships that had been over for well over a year. This is making me so nervous because my fp and I broke up 2ish months ago and I am not moving on as fast as I have in the past. I’m worried I am not going to get over him. Has anyone here successfully moved on from someone? submitted by /u/dilf-loverr [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

i have a mostly DA attachment (i think) and no fear of abandonment i don’t think (i prefer for people to leave me/i leave them, i am wayyyy more afraid of engulfment) but im still dx bpd. wondering if anyone else can relate? i keep thinking in misdiagnosed and cptsd is more accurate for me but i also don’t trust myself. submitted by /u/consideredcritically [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I had a fp and he ended up cheating on me. Literally destroyed me and now i feel less empathetic towards everyone but he’s still my fp and i keep going up bc i love him and idk what’s wrong with me and idk if it’s normal or if it’s okay or if any of this makes sense. i’m sorry im overwhelmed rn. i think what im asking is it possible for the loss of a fp cause me to lose empathy, towards other people not even just him? submitted by /u/immalickyourbooty [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I only waited 2 hours. In retrospect that's nothing compared to how much time I'll spend getting lost in my hobbies. But when someone else does it I panic. I start crying and screaming into pillows and praying they haven't just decided to leave me. I think I must have said something wrong, I've offended them or scared them off for good, or I've annoyed them and they just silenced their phone and left to do more interesting things. I get furious and wish absolutely terrible things upon them. I wish for death, sadistic humiliation, I want them to come crawling back to me begging to have me back ..read more