Like the title says. How do you know if anything was real? Did I ever love was it just a symptom of the disease? submitted by /u/Main_Contribution879 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I honestly can't do anything right. ? I'm so confused because even when I have good intentions the other party gets mad at me. Also when I'm in a fight with this person she always tells me that I'm crazy, have autism, that no one likes me. It doesn't matter what the fight is about. Sometimes I don't even realize she's mad at me until she starts screaming. Meanwhile I'm just thinking we're having a discussion. She always talks about how she doesn't understand I'm depressed but her words really affect me. How can you expect me to feel great when you always let me know what's wrong with me. I di ..read more

How to know what is real and what I really feel? Im a bit new to the concepts of BPD, but I do think this is some sort of splitting. Most of the time I feel like I am pretty happy in my marriage (been together 8 years this year) and everything is fine. But then I get triggered by something and go into these spirals of nothing in the relationship feels good. It's been more of an issue recently but that is nothing new. Some slight work stress makes me more reactive. But how do I know which feeling is real? And how to make decisions when you don't trust your feelings? It's not really helpful eit ..read more

I let splitting ruin a relationship with someone who I thought I would marry, that couldn’t handle it anymore. Part of me blames her, most of me knows it’s my fault. She just got fed up and ghosted. We both have issues but I understand her position. She was trying to work with me and I just couldn’t stop myself that last time. I just saw her as the enemy and like it was all a facade. There is this constant ache for her. I know she’s never coming back this time. I don’t blame her. I just don’t know how to move forward and let go. That was truly my person and I blew it. I ruined my chance at re ..read more

This is a burner account. My wife and I are poly and we met a woman who became our girlfriend for a about a year. A few months in I started to notice a pattern of very aggressive behavior towards her family, but never towards us. I just figured she had a bad temper and was blowing off steam. She was never that way towards us until one day I made an unplanned stop at a bank to get cash and she just about tore my head off and said she would just walk home. I started putting the pieces together and asked her if she had BPD, because I had seen this sort of thing before. She admitted she did and s ..read more

I am unsure if this is something experienced by others in the BPD community or just a personal trait but someone yelled at me and now I have an overbearing desire to cry and quit. submitted by /u/Top-Albatross5623 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Today I was given a bus ticket home back to my family in Illinois. This is a blessing for me. It'll be difficult after being in Arizona since 2011. Time difference is going to be hard as well. I told my family I was homeless and well they told me to get my ass back here. My friend and my mom's friend were figuring out something and I even thought of stuff as well. I had to leave here. My ex is in this town I live in trying to find me to apparently kill me. Plus another guy I turned down last week is looking for me now as well. I couldn't go to the place where all the homeless sleep and hang o ..read more

I try to get better. I try to improve and be a better person, but it never works. I don't blame anyone for hating me. For not liking me anymore. I hate myself too. submitted by /u/darlingsolo [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Hi, first time poster here. I just wanted to please ask if anyone had any hand drawn drawings or links of your shadow people I am trying to explain it to my friends and family to get a visual, I've been looking online for a few hours now and have not really come across any good representation of it. I've seen them since I was 12 I have PBD and other mental health issues It gets worse the more mentally unwell I am but they are always there in my peripherals or if they aren't actually there, there's still an energy to them and some of them have different energies. None of them are dangerous, th ..read more

I never know if people are not right for me or if my expectations are too high bc I’ve been told that by partners. This leads me to question whether I’m pushing people away that I shouldn’t be…idk how to judge if someone is good for me or not… submitted by /u/Beginning-Leather256 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more