I just had this call and I was so nervous it wax all bad I am not getting this job Statistics: Posted by failedatlife — Thu Apr 25, 2024 12:21 pm ..read more

I feel so nervous right now as in an hour or two I am about to do a language verification call in German in order to have this new job and I am preparing but I feel like I will bottle all up and not get to the interview or even if I get I will bottle up there and not get the job and I feel this would happen even if I write about it here wish me luck Statistics: Posted by failedatlife — Thu Apr 25, 2024 11:13 am ..read more

Little wrote: hope it's ok that we write, just wanted to let you know we support you and hope the best for you. i relate to the struggle with alters co-fronting etc. hope you have a nice day Jen / co It's fine if you want to write on here and thank you for the support. The real pain for us is when we're trying to do two things at once like Bridgette was trying to talk to our friends while I was gaming. It gave us a headache. Statistics: Posted by ViTheta — Thu Apr 25, 2024 4:32 pm ..read more

hope it's ok that we write, just wanted to let you know we support you and hope the best for you. i relate to the struggle with alters co-fronting etc. hope you have a nice day Jen / co Statistics: Posted by Little — Thu Apr 25, 2024 4:11 pm ..read more

we're kind of okay and yet not. so much happening today that we weren't prepared for. trying to make the evening somewhat bearable. hope you all have a good day! Jen Statistics: Posted by Little — Thu Apr 25, 2024 4:07 pm ..read more

Thank you. One of the things we've figured out is that we are always more than one alter at a time fronting but it isn't really a positive thing as it's like fronting is a stage and some of our (now) 47 alters are standing there on stage trying to present a single, coherent person. It sometimes feels like this means that we aren't always able to catch everything. Why does it feel like the longer we poke at things and think about them, the more things aren't what they'd always seemed. We've realized that the reason why things 'don't hurt' isn't because they don't hurt...it's because we're so ..read more

Shorter note....after commenting on another post..we have just realised that we're always going to switch frequently while ever we have the constant Tinnitus to deal with. We've always had sound sensitivity from a very early baby (prob due to the autism even before any social awareness developed) so having a constant sound that can't be turned off at all or even reduced other than putting hearing aids in (so replacing one sound with another slightly easier to cope with) is like torture and is probably also the cause of the permanent chronic fatigue symptoms. The T was never this bad througho ..read more

Sorry I didn't relaise the natural versions would interfere ..as we use them instead of....rather than ..with. Our father used to shout too, our bro is the same. For us it was our mum who used to shield us from him, she was quietly spoken. our (internal) version of her speaks quietly too as do many of our teens shaped by her (in real life) and little Susie ..(always only whispers). People shouting (and other really loud noises..traffic etc) out in the real world makes many of us instantly feel anxious. I think this is why 'Deaf Thea' developed then others could 'switch out' and just turn the ..read more

Zor wrote: GENERALLY when others come out... I'm doing whatever... then next thing I know, I am somewhere else doing something else. Sometimes it's a short duration (as short as 5-10 mins), other times it's been a LONG time (several hours, or even the next day). But for me, it's a lot like falling asleep in a car and seeing a sign saying X city/place being 100 miles away... and waking up later IN THAT PLACE and feeling like no time passed, unaware you'd dozed off. THAT is how being "away" feels for me. -Zor Jess says this is how it was for Maddie (a past host) when Kit or others used to ..read more

Absolutely true. Something known here and I guess at other forums for maybe a decade or more, but it was anecdotal evidence. So glad it has moved into mainstream. We here have kicked around (mainly in messages) that the abuse has an effect on a girl such that she does not have the same "proximity " messages. The way they make eye contact when a predator male meets them , maybe even the way they walk and "hold themselves", showing a lack of confidence. Yeah, abused girls I believe are more at risk of being raped, not to mention partnering up with a abusive male. This stuff is not just someth ..read more