Someone just sent me a reasonable message that I so wanted to argue against for the sake of it, but I just responded “ok” Maybe tomorrow I’ll go visit a buddy of mine and see if I can hold my tongue when I don’t have that extra time to think before reacting. The five second “am I going to regret this later?” Test question. Working miracles for me since I implemented it at 4am this morning ..read more

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtYkyB35zkk Reality bytes. ;) Thank Christ the internet isn't ALL garbage. Sock 'em Tim ..read more

My transference therapist back in 2019 was all like you keep saying "you'll feel better when this is over. Then that happens and then its something else." Like I know things aren't going all that good for me right now but I'm not in all that great shape physically so I'm not even sure how much of it is just my mental health acting up. My current therapist said she'd be depressed too if she couldn't leave the house much cause shes puking all the time and is in pain. Idk. But yeah I do seem to be chasing one high after another a lot ..read more

Okay, this morning I was making blueberry chocolate pancakes for chica, her SO, and me. I felt like her SO was riding my *** and telling me I suck at making pancakes. Now, I consider myself a pancake making pro after having a period where I made various types/flavors of pancakes every day for like a month. Him: Those look like they're done Me: No, they're not. Trust me. Him: I don't want to eat biscuits Me: They won't be biscuits. I'm cooking them so they don't have raw batter on the inside. I know how to make pancakes haha. Him: I'm going to have to use a lot of butter. Me: You don't have to ..read more

To a frustrating point. My partner claimed they have a high drive, and they do, but it’s nothing compared to a hypomanic MuddyBoots. But seriously, is there any way I can not be a major horn dog? It’s been this way since I stopped taking Haldol. I know it’s probably linked to an elevated state in a bipolar way, but it’ll be a while until I can get back on meds as I do not have a treatment team ..read more

Is he overly sensitive to any criticism or is ot just me? Example, earlier this morning he put on some strong cheap cologne that smelled bad. I didn’t tell him that it smelled. I just told him that he used a little to much of it & to please use less next time as it’s very strong. He got upset & he told me to stop complaining He dismisses & gaslights me everytime I try to express any opinion or thought that isn’t 100% upbeat & positive. It’s like he expects me to be happy & not complain about anything at all which is ridiculous. He is a stoic person & he doesn’t like ..read more

There is a someone who came into my life recently, and through the insanity that I bring they have been a great inspiration. They said they care immensely about me, and that they would help me out in any way they can. There is reciprocity with that too. I am awful at maintaining relationships. I don't want to test them/push them away, or run away at the slightest hint that they're going to leave like I always do ..read more

I been on vraylar for around a month. Best I have felt in 15 years. It has been the only medicine that has lifted me out of this terrible depression. Im socializing again and living life. The last week and a half I have been seeing agitation in my moods. I been snapping more at stuff lately and yelling. Im really upset because I felt I finally found a medicine. Im currently taking it with Lexepro. Does anyone know if Dr's have been able to give something for the agitation side effect. I really dont want to be taken off vraylar ..read more

Hello, I’m in the process of divorcing my husband of 10 years. He is a narcissistic, controlling, misogynistic person. He believes in a patriarchal marriage where the man has the main say and woman has to follow. We got married when I was really young and fell for his charm. The catalyst for the divorce has been his cheating. We have 3 young children and he’s using them to manipulate me. He has never cared for them one bit - I have always been the primary carer. In his view the children are great for a cuddle every now and then and when old enough they make a companion for watching TV, but tha ..read more

Hello! Since my psychosis in October 2023, I have felt empty in my head, my emotions flattened, joyless, and listless. I isolate myself very much and can no longer have conversations. My creativity is also completely gone. does anyone know these symptoms ..read more