Hi! I am new and fresh to the sobriety community. I have tried a few other times to get sober, but the last time I tried was a year ago and made it almost 2 weeks before I started drinking seltzers and then wine and then a 1.5 liter bottle of a wine everyday. I convinced myself that it was ok and better than what I was doing a year ago which was finishing a handle of whiskey every 3 days. At the last time I tried sobriety I was just diagnosed bi-polar and was just beginning meds (which is why I think I was able to kick the whiskey). The shakes stopped and my depression and mood in general impr ..read more

I have almost 8 years clean and sober from Heroin. My clean date is July 8th, 2016. I am so happy I can say I have that much clean time from Heroin. 2 posts - 2 participants Read full topic ..read more

I am feeling exhausted, I am feeling that I can’t sober, I have to addict again, I can’t control 3 posts - 3 participants Read full topic ..read more

I just went to my first AA meeting. I struggled so much with labelling myself an alcoholic, but after listening to other people share their stories, it was insane how much I could relate to. It really reinforced for me that I was indeed in the right place. The only thing I’m wrestling with a bit right now, is that I shared a bit about my childhood and the emotional struggles that first drove me to drink and I feel like it really brought up these emotions that I had buried for so long. Now I’m craving a drink, because I’m reliving the trauma that I first learned to use alcohol to cope with. I’m ..read more

It’s almost 6 days running…I am feeling fresh today, but sometimes when I was used to taking weed , like traveling, before inter to home , before inter to campus I used to take cigarettes and weed, this time I am dealing difficulty… What should I do ? 2 posts - 2 participants Read full topic ..read more

Continuing the discussion from Checking in daily to maintain focus #65 - #2526 by GOKU2019. Previous discussions: Checking in daily to maintain focus #31 (Part 1) Checking in daily to maintain focus #31 (Part 2) Checking in daily to maintain focus #32 Checking in daily to maintain focus #33 Checking in daily to maintain focus #34 Checking in daily to maintain focus #35 Checking in daily to maintain focus #36 Checking in daily to maintain focus #37 Checking in daily to maintain focus #38 Checking in daily to maintain focus #39 Checking in daily to maintain focus #40 Checking in daily to mainta ..read more

Struggling today. 20 days with no alcohol and feeling down. I have always dealt with anxiety and depression. I had hopes that as time passed it would get easier and it’s not so far. I get discouraged when I read a post that the feelings never go away and it’s a daily battle. Just needing some help today. 5 posts - 5 participants Read full topic ..read more

Hi All My name is Bob from Northern Ireland. I visited my GP last week after never being to a Dr in over 4 years, I had suffered depression from my late 30’s from business stress but never used alcohol to mask it . I was on all types of antidepressants that never worked till I realised I suffered SAD seasonal effective disorder so moved to Spain which cured my depression. The big problem was my mother fell ill and I returned once the winter hi here in Ireland my mood plummeted. I was then having to live in a house 60 miles away due to having my dog . It all started when I was in isolation had ..read more

I fricking thought i could be strong once i got thru the suboxone side effects but i realized i was still too vulnerable & relapsed hard on Coke & dilaudid & ive been activately using for a week now & still going to school everyday like i wake up feeling shitty as fuck but i fight thru it & feel better once i start getting going like walking & interacting will people but i know i cant keep doing this to my self! Cant i please get some advice cause i cant talk to my family about it or anybody else where i live to im begging for prayers & motivational advice my friend ..read more

5 minutes of bliss. Maybe 10? Once I’m “high” I’ll definitely tell myself I’m about to quit. Maybe I’ll give mom a call before this wares off and I don’t want to talk to anyone. Personality? Gone. Let’s put some more visene in my eyes. Lot of cops around hope I don’t get pulled over! Feeling sluggish, smoking again will bring 2 minutes of bliss this time. I’m barely human now. I walked from the customer’s yard to my car to grab a tool but for the life of me I can’t remember which one. By the time I get home to my pregnant wife I won’t have much to say, so a few shots of Jack will take care of ..read more