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Adoptee Voices Blog
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Sara Easterly is an award-winning author of books and essays. For Adoptee Voices, Sara leverages her experience leading one of the largest chapters of the Society of Children's Book Writers & Illustrations (SCBWI) as well as her background in author publicity supporting multiple New York Times best-selling authors and their publishers.
Adoptee Voices Blog
1M ago
YOU WERE BORN FREE
BY a.p.
“I think being adopted was a gift…” are words that I never NEVER would have imagined saying out loud. And certainly wouldn’t dare utter in mixed company. I’ve learned that most kept people (the antithesis of adopted people) suffer from chronic misinterpretation when engaging with anything adoption-related. And there I was, just a few weeks ago. Saying these words out loud, for the first time. With zero irony and an ease that I thought could have only found me in this tiny Zoom room with other queer Korean and American adoptees who also mostly have estranged r ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
1M ago
SAUCE & MUSK
BY CARRIE ANNE TOCCI
Sauce
Since the pandemic, instead of hand-washing my dishes, sometimes after dinner or later in the evening, after I pour crystals into the small portal in the door of the dishwasher, I let the thrash and roll of water lull me to sleep, sometimes worrying plastic items might overheat and catch fire, because as an adult adopted person, like the younger adopted person I once was, I am always on guard, anticipating the unexpected, lying in wait for an unwelcome surprise.
Tonight’s dishwasher chug reminds me of the childhood routines I once counte ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
1M ago
DISTURBED ROOTS
BY JULIE MAE PIGOTT
I didn’t see her because dragonfly wings are translucent. I never looked for her, because during the day, phosphorescence isn’t visible to the naked eye. My dreams couldn’t conjure the tangle of her thick ropey umbilicus that connected to my navel.
Like all children, my fingers explored the tattoo of belly button on soft belly. I mean, we all have one, right? Suspended curiosity followed me over the years. Eyes closed. Roots disturbed by invisible claws shaking off the dirt of evidence. This is the inheritance passed down to adoptees within a h ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
1M ago
WHAT DID YOU DO?
BY REBECCA COHEN
Trigger Warning: This story alludes to childhood sexual assault.
In second grade a neighbor kid invited me over to show off how well she could play “Für Elise” on her shiny grand piano—she even had it memorized. It was a beautiful piano, three or four times the size of the tinny upright at my house, and rich sound flowed easily from it, filling the room. She touched all the right keys at all the right times but there was no feeling. Though I didn’t have the song memorized yet, I knew I played it better. I would have played all day long if I could have ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
1M ago
LIMINAL SPACES
BY FEMALE FLEMING
The gap between what is and what could be
is so wide and deep most cannot see
the impact of not knowing one’s true identity
except for those of us who have lived this unwillingly
I try to imagine a world where all adoptees are free
to read the first chapter of their life history
After a decade of working to change policy
I no longer believe in this possibility
The injustice is palpable
Substantive change is improbable
The grief is unbearable
Liminal spaces are unsustainable
Female Fleming is a domestic adoptee bor ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
1M ago
TikTok
BY JESSIE HUNTER
One evening last spring, I was flopped on the front room couch participating in my daily ritual of scrolling TikTok, when a filter came across my feed: Which Brother/Sister Are You? I tapped to see the grid of bemused content creators sharing their results: The Smart One, The Rebel, The Whiner, The Animal Lover. Craving the forgotten rush of a Buzzfeed quiz, I tried it out for myself. The purple blocks of sibling titles, a clairvoyant roulette wheel, spun above my head before abruptly halting on my result: “The Adopted One.”
I let out an uncontrollable, di ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
1M ago
SKILLED APATHY
BY MARGARITA TROSHINA
“Too emotional.”
“Too challenging.”
“Too much.”
These key descriptors missing from my adoptee bio would go on to shape my personality, completely catching my parents off guard as the orphanage had failed to disclose these traits.
As I settled into my new life, I sought hard to mirror my family’s innate emotional apathy, however I lacked their emotional baseline and every feeling seemed to toss me around like a perpetual bungee jump. I veered between failure to control my feelings and fleeting moments of success at merely being “just okay.”
But fear ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
1M ago
UNTITLED
BY MATTHEW SPENCER
how does a fly get to be what it does?
spent my whole life sortin’ thru this kind of fuzz
a dandelion of dreams floating thru infinite screams
underwater naps calming all these habituated schemes
i want the joy back that they all stole from me
i want my great-great-great-gramama’s recipes
i want to love hard but they made love hard
cut it all up with broken mirror shards
gift of god was the name i was given
but the gods i know never keep shit hidden
they let you grow and let you show
and let your blood and life force flow
i’m pretty sure that ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
7M ago
THE LEAVES
BY MARCI PURCELL
All the leaves crumble under the weight of me.
Leaves
leaving
crumble
crumbling
weight
waiting
under
me
The leavers crumble under the weight of me.
They
crumble
under
the
weight
and
leave
me
They are leaving and I crumble under the weight.
Crumbling
under
the
weight
of
all
the
leaving
I leave, crumbling under the wait.
I
crumble
under
the
weight
of
me
leaving
The weight of the leaves crumbles us all.
We
crumble
under
the
wait
of
the
leaves
I am waiting under the crumbled leaves.
I
wait
under
leaves
and
the
leavers
cr ..read more
Adoptee Voices Blog
7M ago
I WELCOME THE FALL
BY DANIELLE ORR
The doves and hummingbirds sang their songs to me all summer long, sharing their secrets and knowledge, and sometimes their sorrows. Even the three crows that drank water each day from the fountain outside my kitchen window are now gone. Were they an invention of my imagination, a figment of my desires and brooding nature?
Have they gone looking for winter warmth elsewhere? If only I could fly with them, destination unknown. Murmuration is the feeling I can’t find but leads my wings onward. Never lost, following ley lines known to ancestors who wait i ..read more