i want to hurt myself i cant talk to my family because i am so shy my voices wont let me eat all i want because they want me to be thin and i’d rather be fat i think some people in my family dont like me in my mind they call me a beggar and my sister calls me something bad in my head too ..read more

For the past 6 months I've been hitting myself in the head really hard at least 10 times a day. I suffer from CPTSD and it's the only way I can stop the intrusive thoughts and memories. Sometimes I end up hitting myself repeatedly which can last up to 20 seconds or longer. For the past few weeks I've been having headaches directly after hitting myself, and it seems that the force needed to trigger a headache is getting less and less as time goes on. Am I doing Irrepairable damage to myself... Read more ..read more

I woke up punching myself. Has anyone had this ..read more

I'm having a tough time just now. I want to escape. My head goes to a self harming action that could kill me. I don't want to do it, I don't want to die...but neither do I want to be here. I also don't want to be having the thoughts. I can't even distract that much by getting out the house because I am so limited with my mobility just now. It feels unbearable that I have to deal with these thoughts for the rest of my life. When I think about that then I start to wonder if I really do want... Read more ..read more

obvious trigger warning before we begin… two days ago i hit one month clean of self-harm. i thought i’d be happy but every passing day i just feel more and more guilty. in some places my scars have almost completely disappeared, and some are still fading. i feel like every time i look at the healing skin i just get the urge to hurt myself again. i feel like i’ll never be totally free of this battle because the urge is so overwhelming sometimes. i feel like my physical scars validated my... Read more ..read more

I need it like air, i cant get enough, i tried to be happy and normal, i tried not to hurt very badly but i always come back. I need to hurt in ANY way possible, I am only happy when im hurting and its been like this since i was a kid. Maybe theres not a cure, maybe ive grown to like my own self sabotage. Any way i find to hurt myself feels so good, i know it shouldnt, it feels like i cant help it. Im lost, i need help but i dont know where to get it. I want to get drunk and high and hurt. I... Read more ..read more

Does anyone else here suffer or experience OCD in the form of self harm (having the urge to hurt oneself and sometimes doing it ..read more

Hello everyone im kat, im 19 and i found about this from long time ago just couldn’t get myself together to talk about my experience and ask for advice and help. Im sorry about my English its not my first language and its hard for me to tell everything without making mess. All my life that i could have remembered myself I always had suicidal thoughts since young age, I can’t say i had good relationship with my family or friends , I don’t know if it could be told I was abused as i feel like... Read more ..read more

I am really struggling with everything. I feel like I am at breaking point ..read more

Do you ever feel like your s.h isn't serious enough to deserve help? I might be starting dbt based on being a self harmer but it's making me s.h more because I don't feel like I'm deserving of the help otherwise. Does anyone else feel this way ..read more