Am I the most consistently inconsistent BPD podcaster out there? Quite possibly... Thank you all for sticking by me after another months-long hiatus where I have worked through some thoughts and experiences I have been going through. I struggle with knowing what to share. I struggle with trusting myself and my experiences as I enter a new stage of BPD management - I guess you could say have been gaslighting myself a lot lately. I have been struggling with how I will come across here as I talk about how much better I am doing. Is that relatable? I worry it will come off as bragging. And then I ..read more

Am I the most consistently inconsistent BPD podcaster out there? Quite possibly... Thank you all for sticking by me after another months-long hiatus where I have worked through some thoughts and experiences I have been going through. I struggle with knowing what to share. I struggle with trusting myself and my experiences as I enter a new stage of BPD management - I guess you could say have been gaslighting myself a lot lately - that is an idea for a whole different podcast episode.  Join me today as I discuss tying up loose ends as I have finalized my divorce. How I found my voice to exp ..read more

Hello Everyone,  I started recording this episode over a month ago, and I couldn't finish it. Not because I didn't want to, but because I was carrying so much shame about the subject matter that I couldn't sit down to finish recording. I was carrying the shame that I have this platform but that I had something in my life tied to my BPD management journey that was not "in control". I carried shame that I wasn't perfect, that I was a fraud. I thought I could tackle this alone, and today I realized that I can't anymore. You will notice a difference in the recording where I pop in over a mont ..read more

A subscriber to the show (Ainsley) requested an episode about beginner-friendly advice/tips for someone who has been recently diagnosed. What a brilliant idea for an episode, I am kind of disappointed in myself for not thinking of this first!!  I released this for early subscriber access back in July and wanted to share it out now for the rest of you. Sorry for the muffled audio - I am sorting out how to have better audio on video uploads, something that I plan to make exclusive for subscribers (as well as exclusive/early episode releases). Tips! * google isn't always your friend, Reddit ..read more

The topic for the episode was requested by a listener; I don't know if I actually hit the nail on the head here. I ramble a bit, but I hope that there is something  helpful for at least one listener. Please know you are not alone, that while the deepest lows might feel crushing, the emotional roller coaster might have you feeling exhausted - like it is too much - that I hope you can pause and find something to ground you. To recentre you and help you feel connected to something, someone, outside of yourself.  If you are in a state of crisis or are having thoughts of suicide/self harm ..read more

This episode is for you, the people who love us. The people who see us, the pain we experience, the maladaptive ways that we behave and who want to help us. But who do not know how.  I want you to know that there is no easy way to have these conversations. We are likely going to act out, be angry, reject what you are trying to tell us - because we are experiencing what you are telling us as rejection and not care. But thank you regardless. Thank you for being willing to have those hard conversations What is most important is to care for yourself first. Educate yourself. Be ready to have c ..read more

I am burnt out! I can say that without shame - well mostly. I had been beating myself up about it, feeling guilty - like I shouldn't be feeling this way as an adult. That this meant I was less of an adult somehow (ridiculous I know). But today while I was in a state of dissociation/derealization I received an email from a listener and it reminded me of what I tell each of you who tune in at the end of every episode - a reminder to give myself some grace, I am doing better than I think I am. In this episode, I reflect on burnout, and the physiological and psychological impacts it has on me. Re ..read more

I am truly so excited to bring this episode to you all. I met Melanie a few months ago over social media. We have developed a friendship based off of common approaches to life, managing our BPD and life goals. Melanie is one of my favourite content creators and I truly value her vulnerability when it comes to sharing her story, beliefs and the path she chooses to walk in life.  I am linking the resources Mel mentioned below in the show notes as well as in the link tree. You can follow Melanie on instagram @mindovermelanie. Approval Additiction - Joyce Meyer Back from the Borderline Podcas ..read more

I realized that I received my BPD and ADHD diagnosis right around 2 years ago now. That time FLEW by. I wanted to reflect on what that diagnosis meant for me, how I feel about my journey so far.  I am content, I am stable, and I really love the person I am.  I am actually insanely grateful for my diagnosis, it helped me get to where I am at today. Thanks to each of you for supporting this podcast, I appreciate you all so much. M. All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee/borderlineandback Want to receive access to exclusive content? Consider subscribing for $4.99 per month ht ..read more

One of the truly more humbling parts of my BPD management journey has been reflecting on my relationships with people, my interactions, how I have treated people in my life who I felt "wronged" me. Where I was not respectful, where I did not recognize someone as an individual human with their own experiences, lives and feelings. Where I was only focused on how a situation was impacting me. I have been working on relationship repair, apologizing to people I was awful to, without the expectation for an apology to be accepted or for me to receive any kind of forgiveness. To simply recognize that ..read more