At 42 years old I’ve finally figured out who I really am. I figured out what truly brings me joy, peace, happiness. I now know who I truly am inside, and I am always learning and evolving. Actually, I’ve been working on it for a few years, but I’m at a pretty good point in my self discovery. I know who I am, regardless of my flaws. I know what I like and don’t like. I know what fills my soul. I also know when and how to say “no”. I don’t care what people think or say about me. I know my boundaries and limits and it’s a beautiful place to be. I am who I am and if you don’t like me, then that’s ..read more

After all this time of feeling better, I no longer feel right continuing my blog as person with a chronic illness. While my condition will never fully be “cured”, I feel like I exist more as a normal, healthy person. With that, I need to change the direction of my blogs a bit to reflect more of my current life and lifestyle. I’d feel like a fraud if I continued writing about my almost non-existent illness. I will keep my blog active with my past posts because that was a big part of my life for over a decade and I know it has helped so many of you. I also don’t want to abandon those who followe ..read more

I haven’t posted anything in a bit. For that, I apologize. I’ve been quite busy with life. Especially since I am not sick anymore and I am actually able to be busy all day. It is a beautiful thing. It has been a little over a year since I’ve started experimenting with supplements and mushrooms. I’m still in shock over how these changes have made such a positive impact in my life. I feel like a new person!! If you’ve read my previous blogs, you would have seen that I’ve been experimenting with certain supplements and lifestyle changes that have completely changed my life. I was nearly bedridden ..read more

I feel like a new person!! I keep trying to remind myself not to get too attached because I’m sure it is only temporary, but WOW!! I feel like I’ve been healed. I feel like a normal, healthy person. It feels too good to be true! I’ve actually cried from happiness, like a wish came true! I feel better than I have in over 10 years!! Even my ADHD symptoms, which have been driving me crazy for years have improved! If you’ve followed me for a while, you’d know that I like to experiment with various medications/remedies. Conventional medicine has failed me over and over again. I’ve tried over 40 dif ..read more

I’ve always considered myself to be a reasonably smart, logical, well-balanced, normal kind of person. Everything made sense in my world and I was like most other people in the world (so I thought). Now I question my entire existence. All of those things that made me ME, I now realize are not normal. I am not like everyone else. I am odd. Now that I’ve learned that I think differently from everyone else, I am painfully aware of HOW different I am. It is quite unsettling actually. Even embarrassing that I am so different, yet so oblivious the whole time. Finding out that you are not at all who ..read more

Why am I so proud you ask? Well, last week I did a thing. I was independent and strong and I took 2 of my kids to the Museum of Natural History in NYC without Eddie coming to help me. It was a big trip for me to do without help. We had a 60 mile drive (1+ hours). I brought my scooter and had to manage getting it in and out of my car, assembling it, and rolling down the streets of NYC. We toured the Museum for about 3 hours, then headed back. It was such a nice outing with my kids that I always fantasized doing. I was so afraid, but I did it and I’m so proud of myself. I was independent in a wa ..read more

We recently returned from a 10 day family vacation. It was a lot of work, but enjoyable. Of course, I pushed myself too hard and I’m paying for it now. No surprise there. We’ve been back about 2 weeks now and half of us tested positive for Covid. It started with my youngest while we were still away. He had cold like symptoms about 2 days before we were to come home. I thought it was allergies because it was so minor. Then 2 days after returning home I felt sick and tested positive. 5/6 of us felt a bit crappy for a week. but somehow not all tested positive. Skip forward 2 weeks and I’m still f ..read more

It’s been about a month since starting my experiment. Today is day 3 between doses. I get to take my magical micro dose tomorrow, and I am very much looking forward to it. Today I am feeling a little extra tired. I am disappointed that my energy isn’t holding up as well as the first 2 weeks. That could be from any number of factors. I could be flaring, for example. Also my monthly cycle causes my symptoms to flare. I fear its like the CBD, where it worked great in the beginning until my body got used to it and it wasn’t as effective. My energy is improved overall, but when the fatigue hits, it ..read more

*I wrote this a few weeks ago. I’m finally posting it now. Yesterday I got the crazy idea in my head that I should go back to college to pursue a degree in psychology. I’ve always been into the sciences, and human psychology is definitely interesting to me. I was thinking of studying independently at first just for my own entertainment, but what better way to learn about it than to prepare for a career in the field. The more I think about it, the more excited I get. I like the idea of looking forward to accomplishing a new goal and achieving something to be proud of. I definitely have lost a p ..read more

Microdose Day… I lost count because I messed up the system the first week. Let’s call this Microdose week 2. I was very much looking forward to taking my dose today. Yesterday was day 3 between doses and I definitely noticed it. I was dragging more. Lacking energy. Very worn out and tired. My head was becoming foggy again. I was beginning to feel like my old self again, which is NOT a good thing. I was missing my energy that has been so amazing since I started my experiment last week. The magic had definitely left my body by the end of day 3. Today, within about an hour of microdosing, I notic ..read more