I finally see T tomorrow. Ive been seeing silver glittery like confetti falling. its odd. i know its stress. but i am excited to be starting at my new university. its a huge school and number one in my state for social work programming. my fiance got his MSSW there and i will too!!psychopathology and world problems credits will transfer thank goodness. although those classes were fun. i liked learnign the DSM5 and how to diagnose. things are starting to get better. though my pawpaw is still in the care of hospice but i have been visiting him a lot ..read more

So I get it I'm down. Victoria's mad at me for ruining a homeless person's life. She won't come out of her room, even before this. She spent a ton of money and has none left for her bills. She's supposed to be searching for a job but isn't. I feel taken advantage of without being part of her life. My husband is depressed so he's eating all my food. I no longer have anything in the house I can cook. Hopefully we can go shopping when he wakes up. I feel my sdit will have a better life with my parents.they're feeding her $90 a month food, taking her to the beach and adventures every day. We're ..read more

what non medication thing, (say soda, or coffee, or even food), would you quite happily have as a medication? I'd love if dr pepper was a medication. I feel like I'd always remember to take it as well since I love the stuff ..read more

and I hate sausages I just needed to say that. every time I cook sausages, I burn them why I'm having sausages for dinner I really don't know ..read more

well today I'm officially 66 since I didn't get in yesterday to post. I don't honestly feel any different. Heehee, But other than more tired. Its been raining and raining here. And on Monday its going to be the big day in our area. I have still to get the glasses or just not experience the day. I hate that I waited so late and Derrick might not get to experience it at all. But he doesn't seem to care. Nothing new to report. Donna ..read more

7438 Viewing This is what the main forum page says next to the link for this bipolar board. That’s crazy! Why are so many people viewing our board ..read more

i dont know why im feeling down suddenly. i love being married. i love my husband. we had an amazing wedding. a fun short honeymoon. and we have a great new apartment in the city in a good area. but deep down i feel sad and im not sure why. its not something ive really told people as i dont want the whole guilt trip about my blessings i have. i know how lucky i am. ive waited 37 years for marriage. i see my t next week. i hope to hear from my new school soon too. im praying i get in ..read more

I got my medicine for my tardive dyskinisia!!!!! Someone from the pharmacy called about 10 minutes after I got home from the store saying she was delivering it to me and would be here in ten minutes! As you may recall, My insurance was denying it and my Pdoc has supposedly taken me off of it while I was in the hospital a month ago. I don’t know what happened but I’m not arguing ..read more

I'm having a horrible day today. A whole lot of bad things have happened recently. I injured myself a couple of months ago :( It is healing, but slowly. Somewhere else (online, not msf) has been very confusing to me recently. A good friend from there left and today I received a confusing message from one of the admins there. I'm very worried about my friend who left there. Maybe I'm just a horrible person who should not be on this earth. :rain3: :rain3: I feel like I'm spiralling. I would appreciate any support. Sorry I haven't been around lately to support anyone. :rain3: :rain3: :rain3 ..read more

I normally do self-sabotaging behaviors but right now I’m dealing with a crystal crash and it feels like severe depression with psychosis, although I’m thinking the drug use was one of the early signs of this “episode.” I just used ampetamine even though it doesn’t do shyt for me except chill me tf out to the point I actually nap in the daytime. Yeah, I wanted a little bit of chill and a nap, but i kinda think I did it so if/when they piss test me at the shelter I get kicked out. Actually, I know that’s why. I’m going to be on the streets for indefinitely because I guess I hate myself and do ..read more