Hi Centaured Did your therapist have a plan for what to do in regard to managing the incredible upset in the last session you faced? Was there any talk about the possibility this could perhaps seriously trigger some of your alters? Was the therapist prepared for this? Do you feel you need to contact them and tell them about the impact the session's having? They need to help you manage what they've triggered. Have you ever found some of your personalities work well for you, look after you really well in some ways? I imagine not all do. Was reading about a woman who developed the ability to have ..read more

I got home from hospital a few days ago, I didn't want to be there. There's a lot I'm struggling with mentally at the moment and I'm having similar thoughts to what put me in hospital. Sigh. I cant do this ..read more

Hi, Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums and thank you for sharing your beautiful and sad story. It sounds like you have been through so much. You have so much courage and I aspire to be just like you. Keep hanging on, life may seem extremely difficult right now but you have gotten through hardship before, I know you can still do it. Stay safe and i am always here to chat ..read more

Hi Niks85, Welcome to the forums, and thank you for sharing so bravely and openly here. It sounds like you've been dealing with some real isolation, and coping with that alongside depression and suicidality must be incredibly difficult. We can hear how difficult the past few months have been, we’re so sorry that’s been going on. It sounds like you’ve taken some really good steps in getting your medication reviewed, and going to counselling with your husband. We can hear your love for your toddler shine through, too, and that's so lovely. We do think it would be good to keep your GP or treati ..read more

Hi Geoff, everything you said is so true. Thank you. I’m leaving hospital tomorrow. It has helped me tremendously. I still have a long way to go. I won’t lie I’m scared of falling down again. I don’t know yet what my new life will look like but today at least I feel the beginnings of hope. I truly hope that I can keep moving forwards. I feel proud of myself for the steps I have taken to get better. I hope my story can help others and to anyone who reads this please know that there is help out there, it may be hard to seek it out but it works I’m living prof of that ..read more

I went to art therapy. We worked on how I was feeling today and stuff. Felt worse and my mental health team got in contact with me and said I had to go to ED. So I'm there now an absolute mess, wanting to leave. I can't handle this anymore. They won't let me leave though. I'll probably be here til the weekend ..read more

Hi Les I'm so glad you've made progress. It's really something to be so proud of, undergoing the therapy. When I look back over my years in depression, as well as the years beyond that where I've managed so hard trying to stay out of it, I'm proud of every single effort I've made. It's seriously hard work Les, managing to find what works, while also running through a gamut of all the things that don't. Can take years of hard work to get to the point where we can say 'I can't believe I've come this far'. It's about raising our self while doing whatever it takes to love/evolve our self back to l ..read more

Hi Centaured Therapy sounds like it was thoroughly exhausting and upsetting. A little easier to deal with new emotions, on top of all the others, when you've got the right kind of energy. Whole other story when you're already worn down. Was saying this to a friend just yesterday. She's been through the wringer over the past 8 years, after leaving an abusive marriage. She's fed up with on and off debilitating low energy levels, thanks to stuff like struggling as a single parent, severe sleep apnea, chronic fatigue, after effects of covid, mentally reforming herself beyond abuse and so on. Can b ..read more

Hey Centaured,  We're sorry to hear you're dealing with that today, and that you've been having thoughts about ending it. We really encourage you to reach out to talk about these thoughts with our lovely counsellors, if not someone you trust within your existing support. We're here and we can talk it through with you anytime of day or night. We are also checking in with you privately to offer some more suppor, but you can also reach us directly on 1300 22 4636, or online. If at any point those negative thoughts become overwhelming and you believe you may be at risk, or you no longe ..read more

Hi, MJW1974, It must be frustrating for you to keep waiting. I realised it actually can be NDIS that keep you waiting for a long time. please keep us updated if you are willing to share ..read more